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Post by ignotus on Dec 15, 2011 14:49:21 GMT -5
Going HomeI remember being 22 & having just graduated into the SS. (1933) I was immensely proud & wanted to go back home & show my mother before I was shipped off (for my training in the camp system). I proudly showed up on her doorstep with my black SS cap, uniform, & red swastika armband - all perfectly polished & such. When she opened the door I smiled widely & opened my arms to embrace her. At first she simply stared in shock at this SS officer on her doorstep. Recognition quickly took over though & her face hardened. She started screaming at me angrily about being a "filthy Nazi" & other such things. Startled, & worried that someone may hear her anti-Nazi rhetoric, I tried to ease her into the house so that we could argue in private. This enraged her even more. She shoved be back screaming that she would never let a "Nazi pig" into her home & that I was no longer her son. Still wanting to try once more, & still concerned about her being heard, I tried again - begging her to let me in so we could speak before I was deployed. She cried out angrily, slapped me across the face & then spit on my uniform telling me that I was dead to her. That I was no longer her son. That the filthy Nazis had destroyed her son & made him a monster that would never be welcome. I stiffened. My blood boiled for a moment, but then turned ice cold as she cursed & denounced myself & the Party. I said nothing, I simply watched her. Finally she shoved me one last time saying to never come back again. I straightened my jacket & cap then told her flatly to never show up in one of my camps. I then gave the Nazi salute & turned to leave without looking back. The only thing that I heard after that was the door being slammed. Sincerely, Laurasia That's.. Just disturbing. Very, I'm so sorry you had to experience that again. If I'm not mistaken, frettchen's (Yes, I'll call Hansgeorg Schulze by his nickname as it's a mouthful..) parents were absolutely proud of him when he joined Junkerschule with his brother. And even more so when he joined the LSSAH.
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Post by Laurasia on Dec 23, 2011 14:35:41 GMT -5
Hello Ignotus & SS3. It was indeed a very disturbing recollection for me to have. As to the question of whether or not hans felt as though he were losing his mother....not really. He had "lost her" long before this when she, more or less, sold him to a Nazi boarding school at the age of 10 or 11. Then, when he turned out to be the National Socialist that the boarding school she gave him to had raised him to be, she faulted him! This had simply been his last attempt at having her in his life. After this meeting he had nothing else to do with her. I am sorry to hear that RH & his mother has such issues between the two of them as well (though it seems in reverse ). I corresponded with a woman for a time who tried explaining to me that, for many mothers, it was a very difficult time. They had just come out of WWI & had lost so much & were then seeing the Nazi party so very eager to go back to war again. However none of that really made much difference for myself (though perhaps it should) since I remember how Hans experienced the circumstances set up for him by his mother choices during his younger years. Sincerely, Laurasia
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Post by ignotus on Dec 25, 2011 6:16:58 GMT -5
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Post by Demi on Aug 14, 2012 22:55:10 GMT -5
I also agree with your sentiments, Liz, about many former Nazis having such a strong draw towards balancing our former darkness with light in various ways. Sincerely, Laurasia Uhhh guess what, I am only allowed to live on this planet if I make world peace at least 5 hours per day (a special program) If I ever try to get away, then Natural Law Enforcement gets after me (the forces of nature) pulling me by my hair.. yes I swear. If I was not doing this, I would be dead... was close... and this is how it was arranged, I had to ask, so now its cleaning up time, and for all. Well, I donĀ“t know what I was hanging around and doing on this planet last time but given the circumstances now it must have been in the crappy end. Anyway that is just what it made me think about (my life) when I read this perfect quote. Cheers and world peace to you all - the professional yogi Demi
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