Memories Triggered/Unlocked

[privatetucker]

Tonight, I went to synagogue for the first time a long time, and while I was there at a certain point I went into a trance like state, and had a memory flash- an elaboration on one of the fragmented memories I already had.

So I took that as a sign to start talking about them, and get them off my chest.

This particular one started off as a fragment of a dream when I was much younger. I remember the surroundings vividly- there was a building behind me made of a greyish, yet sand colored stone, and around the door there were raised stones in an arch. In front of that, to my immediate right, was a black car, though I don't know the make or model, just one of the period. Very shiny, I remember that.

I was running from someone- who, I am not sure. But I was very very frightened, and felt the need to hide, that someone had found me out. Desperation, I guess, panic stricken. I remember wearing a navy blue coat, and more importantly, that ugly yellow star on my chest.

I was a Polish Jew, I know, so I believe I was somewhere in what they called the Warthegau (sp?), in Lodz.

Tonight, though, when I went into the trance I remembered a little bit more. My hair- that was what came to mind first. I wore it in braids, and it was very dark, almost black. I am a natural blonde now, though I did braid my hair tonight, now that it's long enough I have a fondness for the style. And I was wearing a red knit cap, kind of like a beret.

A name came to me, too, though it was not my own. My name in that lifetime was Bronia, short for Bronislawa. The name that came into my head was Rivkah, and I got a feeling very, very deep friendship for her. That we were the best of friends, like sisters.

It reminded me of someone I know now, someone who as soon as I met her (granted, via the internet) I was drawn to her right away. The first thought in my mind was, "I want to be her friend."

I have only come across two other people like that in my life. One, a guy, who I refer to as York as a codename, the other a girl who I refer to as Delta. The one who reminded me of the name in the trance I'll just refer to as Sigma.

I didn't see Sigma, exactly, in this but somehow...I felt like she was there. And when I think about it now, it's a mixture of good and bad. A lot of deep happiness because I loved Sig dearly, but there is this lingering sadness too that I don't know the origins of. But thinking about it now makes me close to crying.

I have a bunch of other memories, too, though many of them are a lot clearer. But I'll save that for another post.

[msmir]

Wow what a flashback to have. And what an ideal place to have it, in a synagogue. I can only imagine the sadness you felt and the fear you had when these flashbacks came to you. Interesting as well about those who you connected to who reminded you of those who you had remembered, especially Sig. Could she have been your sister who was sadly taken away? That is what I am wondering. If it may actually be her. Or she could just remind you of her for some reason. Quite interesting as I would love to hear more.

[privatetucker]

I was actually thinking about what you said, Msmir, about the possibility of her actually being my sister, and that's when I did a little bit of digging, and found myself in another trance like state where I saw a bit more. I don't know how it ended up working for you guys, when you found out what your past life name was, but for me when I saw it I was drawn to it right away, like lightening. Made me feel really dizzy and slipped into a half trance. Well, I knew my first name already, but not my last. Went around the Yad Vashem website, and after some looking around, I decided to see if I could find a "Rivkah" around the same age I was, from the same part of Poland, etc.

And it ended up leading to a bunch of different searches (my memories of which are actually fuzzy) until I found her, and it did hit me like lightening. I was also able to find myself, and we were sisters. That was when I started getting the images, and I got a full picture of her inside my mind. She had lighter hair than me, light brown, and she had blue eyes, and I felt this stab of envy because I thought she had prettier eyes than me!

She was four years older than me as well. There was someone else who I was sensing, too. A boy, around the same age as me (I was...I want to say fourteen or thereabouts) and he and I really loved each other. I could feel how much he cared about me, and he was my first kiss. That was one of those strange ones (I have had other memories, too where I start getting all the senses, like taste and touch) where I could feel him kissing me, which was slightly trippy.

It got even trippier when I think I found the actual square I saw in my vision.

Legionowo Main Square

It's obviously modern times, but as soon as I saw it I got that feeling again, hitting me like lightening.

[Miss Bothmann]

Tucker, thank you so much for sharing with us. Like you, I get many of my recollections while in some form of trance state...either self-induced or when the memories just spontaneously decide to come. I am happy for you that you were able to obtain that much information about your past incarnation...as well as the connections that you have made with other people in this life. I hope to read more of your memories in the future.

[Laurasia]

Hi Tucker.

(First, I wanted to tell you that you photo link isn;t working. It is simply linking up to a wiki page about files. )

Thank you so much for deciding to share with us. And, as Miriam was saying, what an appropriate place for you to have revelations about yourself....a synagogue.

I'm very happy for you that you were able to find out so very much about your former self & your loved ones. It's always quite satisfying when you are able to verify such things for yourself. (And I know what you mean about being attracted to one of your former names. I've been enamored with different forms of Hans - Johannes, Johan, Hans - ever since I was a kid. )

Please keep sharing your recollections & insights with us. They are most enjoyable indeed! ;D

Sincerely,
Laurasia

[msmir]

Interesting Tucker, I just intuitively was drawn to names in the past that were in fact my names in previous lives. The name Betty always gave me the chills, and never liked it. It was more than just simply not liking the name, it just gave me the creeps and it had a familiar haunting feeling.. can't explain it. As I had found out just a few years ago that my name in my last life was Elzbeita and I was called Bett for short. I had a medium who I had used many times before check into it, so that explains my feelings towards the name Betty. That was my name in my last life.

[privatetucker]

I'm not so good with quoting, and this would be a monster page of quotes so...

MissBothman: Thank you very much.

I don't have too much experience with self inducing memories; what process works best for you?

Laurasia: Oh, darn it! I'm not good with links, either. D8

It worked via IM/Skype for someone else, so maybe the forum doesn't like me.

And yeah, I have also been drawn to the name Jacob for ages. Usually when I write (fiction unrelated to this) the name Jacob has a tendency to show up for male characters, generally in romantic situations. So that makes *a lot* more sense now.

Msmir: What form of Elizabeth is that, if you don't mind me asking? Looks vaguely familiar, and I want to say either Polish or Hungarian...I also have very poor short term memory skills so I don't quite remember if you mentioned where you came from before to me and I just fail. xD

[Miss Bothmann]

I don't have too much experience with self inducing memories; what process works best for you?

I actually consider myself fortunate because a lot of exercises work very well for me. What I find works most of the time is what I call "aiming for the recollection from a targeted past life." I have had numerous past lives that I can access, usually by using triggers of some sort. For example, when I aim to access Anna's memories I make certain first of all that there will be no outside distractions. In my house, this means late at night when everyone hass gone to sleep and there is barely any outside traffic. Then, I light candles (not so many that you will be distracted by the lights) and I put on music from the 30's and 40's. I let the music relax me and I permit my mind to open up to whatever comes. It may take a good 20 minutes at times, but the key is to remain patient. ..something will usually come. I just have to keep reminding myself that the memories that I get may not always be the pleasant ones.

I find this exercise to work very well. Also, you can try watching movies from the period or set in that time and place. After I watch these is when I tend to get recollections in my dreams. I will be happy to help you with this and dicuss it more if you need help getting started.

[msmir]

Tucker, it was Polish. I was born just outside of Warsaw. You know what is so weird.. I have not told many people this and when I have these kinds of predictions, I am 90% correct like I predicted the death date of my beloved grandmother and the birthdate of my best friend's baby! There were other things.. but I just have this overwhelming sense that my daughter will have a daughter one day and use Elizabeth for her MIDDLE name.. not the first but the middle! Lets see if that ends up happening! All of it. We choose our parents and our children before we are born, and if we had plan on "parenting" souls, the souls can be sensed around the mother of her future children.. not the father but the mothers.. and I have always sensed two sets of energies around my daughter, and have been told by several mediums that she has planned to have two kids.. one daughter who I never had a life with but chose my daughter for whatever reason (and she chose the soul that will be her daughter), and one son who was my past life brother that had survived.. if this is true, which I sense it likely is, I wonder why he would have chosen to be her son again. I know he was a teenager and never bonded with her properly for obvious reasons in the last life and he did also survive, but since she died several years post war, he never had a chance to develop a true mother/son relationship with her.. so I guess they had agreed to give it another go in this life, but her being my mother again would have been too traumatic for both of us.. we needed to have a strong bond but in reverse. Interesting, and what I also find interesting is if it DOES happen as predicted, how will I feel when I am holding my future grandson who was once my older brother??? I get such chills when I think about that LOL.

Miss Bothmann, I can easily see how that exercise with darkening the room with few candles in the background and listening to 30's and 40's music would trigger memories to surface. I should try exercises like that for other lifetimes that I would want to know more about I could watch some videos as well, I can see how it helps.

[Miss Bothmann]

Miss Bothmann, I can easily see how that exercise with darkening the room with few candles in the background and listening to 30's and 40's music would trigger memories to surface. I should try exercises like that for other lifetimes that I would want to know more about I could watch some videos as well, I can see how it helps.

It definitly makes things progress a lot easier...not so many headaches trying to get it.

If you need any assistance, miriam, feel free to let me know. *hug*

[Laurasia]

Tucker,

Just so you know...I believe that I've fixed your link for you. So members should be able to see what you are talking about now.

Sincerely,
Laurasia

[msmir]

Miss Bothmann thank you! I will definitely take you up on it Hope all is well.

[privatetucker]

*was totally away on a trip for a while*

Laurasia: Thank you very much.

MissBothmann: That sounds like a really great idea. I'll have to try that next time, though the last time I lit candles I set off the smoke detector for some reason...but yeah. Thanks. ^^

Miriam: That's really mind bending to think about. Do you get those kind of predictions often, or just when you're around certain people/places/whatever?

[msmir]

Yes Tucker, it's interesting and shows I am strongly intuitive (welcome back by the way and hope your trip went well).. but I get these uncanny feelings in certain situations... and yes around certain people too, but it rarely so close to something like that when it comes to someone who I have not an unusual attachment to.

[privatetucker]

(Thank you; it really did. Amazingness). I suppose having an ability like that would prove to be useful...but I'd also imagine it would be confusing to deal with at times, too, yeah? Especially in the beginning?