One of my own memories.

[sweetlunapie]

That is very cool! Still...going straight there is a good idea directly after your degree. I wonder if it will be easier for you since you had a past life in which you did medical school!

Haha, I understand about the phone! I think we have the same phone, and the typing can get tedious!

[lulz]

I think I may have an advantage or two. I believe that everyone carries over certain skills and abilities throughout lifetimes.

[sweetlunapie]

Please report back to us if you ever correct one of your medical school professors on a procedure!

[lulz]

I recall a science teacher in high school that was very impressed with my natural ability in our genetics section of the course, lol.

[lulz]

Last night, I had a recollection of my life after Auschwitz. I had been staying with a couple, and although I'd been feeling cautious, things had been relatively calm. I remember I was speaking with the man I was staying with when a knock came on the door. Upon discovering that the people there has come to search for me, I hid in the farthest back of the house I could. I listened as the men spoke to my "friend".
He informed him that they were searching for a Josef Mengele who was wanted for a staggering number of war crimes. Although my "friend" did not know my actual identity, my stomach twisted at hearing my name with all of this.
I listened as the man continued to name examples of the things I had done. Some were quite exaggerated. I felt enraged, and it took every ounce of will power I had not to pop up and set that man straight. How could he know what went on? How could he put himself in my place, like he knew everything I'd done. It was hearsay, as far as I was concerned.
All while I hid, silently fuming, I was also quite terrified. If I could describe the way I felt, it was like a falling sensation. "This is it. They know." were the thoughts running through my head.

This memory did not progress further, however, I'd like it to. It's like a movie getting cut off half of the way to the end.

[msmir]

Thank you for sharing Lulz, very brave of you to do so!

[lulz]

There's a first time for everything. I suppose my having been drinking made me feel brave enough to make this the time I come out of "hiding" in a sense.

[msmir]

Well I am glad you did, I am off to bed very soon but thanks for being brave! Be well.

[sweetlunapie]

Lulz, haha, that's awesome about the genetics!

Aww, I am so proud of you for being brave!
Do you think that if you had been caught you might have felt relieved? I know that's a weird question, but all of that anger and tension must have been very trying.

[euskanoravian]

I did message you about this a while back. In this thread however, you had answered my question. It was brave of you for announcing this. I have a lot of things to ask. Do you remember Irma Grese? I never met the woman but I knew she had an affair with Dr. Mengele. Have you had any recollections of that?

Blessed Be,
Andi

[lulz]

I guess I can't do PMs off my phone. I didn't get a message. I will be open to any discussion if you could email me via [e-mail]

[msmir]

Lulz your internet is still not working? I thought you said you finally got it to work... is that why you are still using your phone?

[lulz]

Yeah, I'm not sure what's going on with it. All I can internet with is my BB storm.

[privatetucker]

I meant to post this last night, but yeah, I did want to say that I admire your bravery in saying who you were.

And...my gut feeling was right. So I actually really, really appreciate sharing your memories with all of us--I know it really helped me heal and see things in a different light. ^^

[lulz]

Thank you, tucker. I'm really glad to hear that. It made me smile.
And Luna, trust me, I wanted nothing more to remain on the run. Well, I wanted to find peace and live a normal life, settle down, you know? I was willing to do anything to keep from being caught. I even thought of taking my own life at times, as opposed to them deciding my fate in a probably bias trial. I did, however, feel that I would never find peace. Every time things seemed to have called, something new came up. It caused me to have an enormous amount of anxiety.
I guess that's why today, the sight of a cop makes my stomach feel like it's dropping even when I know I'm doing nothing wrong.