Anger, Anxiety, Depression From The Past

[Demi]

Hello All!

I would like to ask a few things everyone in here...

-Have any of you experienced some of the following issues in your current life...
-Do you know how they relate to or how they were created in your past life?
-And have you ever been able to heal or diminish your current traits or habits when experiencing, healing or understanding your past life and seeing how or why those traits were created?

For example:

-Anger, Violence or rage
-Depression, Anxiety, excess worry
-Difficulty to connect with others
-Suspicion about strangers, shyness
-Not liking people around you, especially strangers
-Good ability to adress people formally but trouble connecting or making friends
-Saying something that you regret, or feeling awkward not knowing what to say,
-Isolating yourself
-Difficulty asking for help
-Need to be in control/charge
-Friends and family calling you a dictator, etc.
-People answering "sieg heil" when you just ask them to do a favor..
-Need to be the boss in relationships or everywhere
-Procrastination, difficulty in making decisions
-People saying you have a scary look
- Feeling cranky or tired a lot of the time
-Following inner rules that nobody told you, or expecting others to follow rules you never told them
-Sensitivities other people do not have
-Avoiding social situations, being bothered by people laughing and chatting
-Feeling that you know best about a lot of things
-Speaking harshly and not intending to do so
-Feeling like someone is looking stupid, preconceptions (arising from fear)
-Not liking someone looking at you
-Strong reactions to stressful situations
-Reactions to exploding sounds
-Looking up at airplanes and thinking are they going to throw a bomb
-Etc. Add your own...

Basically, things now that connect to your PL!

Looking forward to hear from you...

Demi

[Storm]

Hi Demi,
I would tick a number of that list. Especially the anger/rage ones and the feeling out of sorts around people, strangers in particular.I had to work hard on anger management in this life. And I still get gripped by a frightening fury, especially over injustice and racism now.

Edited because stupid predictive text keeps changing words. XD

[gumby]

I have experienced many of those feelings demi and I do think that many of these feelings are related to my past life experiences in WWII Germany. The most obvious one is my feeling of high anxiety when I hear a loud explosion. I suffered through many bombings in Stuttgart, some very severe, where there was much panic. i think that this may have also contributed to my panic disorder in my current life. I also experience much of the anger and anxiety and this is also probably from my most recent PL in Germany, running for my life as bombs dropped all around me. I even get scared of the loud hissing noise that carwashes make, as this is similar to the sound that bombs make as they "swish" through the air just before they hit and explode and shake everything. As far as relationships are concerned, I am usually diplomatic and easy to get along, and I'm a good listener. I do tend to be a bit regimented in my life, and this may be from my affiliations in the BDM. Sometimes I do miss my life as it was in Germany, despite the war and all the horrors that happened. I made positive contrubutions during my past life in Germany, I felt important in my duty and obligations. I think that many BDM girls felt this way, this is why the organization was so effective. We were little busy bees, never a moment to get bored. So in a sense my past life in Germany feels like it had more direction and purpose than my present life.

[Laurasia]

Hi Demi.

My goodness, let's see....

-Anger, Violence or rage....Ohhhh yes, especially when I was younger. I can have a rather testy temper nowadays though too.

-Depression, Anxiety, excess worry...I have panic disorder, so that would be a yes.

-Difficulty to connect with others...Hhhmmm, this one is a bit tricky for me. Oftentimes I have trouble making a deep connection with people, even though I am fairly easy to get along with right away. On some occassions I have been known to connect with someone very quickly & strongly though as well. Perhaps those instances were due to some sort of karmic connection though?

-Suspicion about strangers, shyness...I can be rather shy at times & wary of strangers as well, especially if they are around Miss Bothmann.

-Not liking people around you, especially strangers....Again, the same as above.

-Good ability to adress people formally but trouble connecting or making friends...yep, this comes back to the "superficial connections" that I often make with others.

-Isolating yourself....When I was younger this was a much worse problem for me & I now realize had a lot to do with my yet-to-be-diagnosed panic disorder back then. It's not uncommon for people with panic disorder to develop agoraphobia after all.

-Need to be in control/charge.....oh yeah, & I know that I can thank Hans for a lot of that. LOL!

-Friends and family calling you a dictator, etc.....Not friends, but people that I have associated with in the past.

-Need to be the boss in relationships or everywhere....Admittedly I can be rather domineering in relationships at times.

-Procrastination, difficulty in making decisions...Umm, yeah.

-People saying you have a scary look...Not so much nowadays, but back when I wore my "Goth" clothing all of the time yeah. Sometimes people are a bit off-put by my pentacle & Thor's hammer, but that's due to their associations of what those items represent.

- Feeling cranky or tired a lot of the time...LMAO! yes, especially lately with work having been so hectic.

-Following inner rules that nobody told you, or expecting others to follow rules you never told them...I'm VERY prickly about certain things (such as my clothing not being folded a certain way) & I know that was retained from Hans.

-Sensitivities other people do not have....In more ways than one. Physically my skin is VERY senstive due to my chronic hive condtion. I am also extremely empathetic & in tune to the subtle energies around me.

-Avoiding social situations, being bothered by people laughing and chatting...Again, this was all worse when I was younger due to my panic disorder. I can sometimes find myself very put off by "shiny happy people" though, even if some people consider me to be one myself.

-Feeling that you know best about a lot of things...LOL! Oh yes!

-Speaking harshly and not intending to do so...Definitely.

-Not liking someone looking at you...Egads, yes! That is one of my BIGGEST pet peeves! Whenever I walk within eyeshot my mother-in-law HAS to look at me & it makes me want to scream "WHAT?!!!!"

-Strong reactions to stressful situations....Panic disorder, yes.

-Reactions to exploding sounds....When we go to the 4th of July fireworks & they shoot off the "fillers" (the single flash, "boom" type) it always gets me. I believe that comes from my lifetime before Hans as a Confederate Civil War surgeon though.

An addition to the list of my own would be major problems with connecting to the Divine, especially the Christian version of It. I believe this began with Hans' feeling of absolute damnation & seperation from God during his lifetime. Thankfully that has been rectified now. ;D

Sincerely,
Laurasia

[Iseke]

Yes! Especially the ones relating to anxiety, fear of bomb-reminiscent sounds, discomfort around others noticing me, and feeling like I have to follow some kind of rule or law structure even when others around me aren't enforcing it (not so much the ones regarding being overbearing or scary, for obvious reasons).

Wow, I really am glad to see I'm not the only one with bomb terrors. I'm terrified of loud, deep noises that I can't identify. And ones that I can still make me uncomfortable.

Also, I can't stand it when people look at me. Usually I just want to be left alone and I hate the feeling of being picked out of a crowd for some reason.

Another weird thing is that sometimes when cars pass me by and the riders shout at me or the car splashes water on me it reminds me of my past life before I got sent to the camp. I always feel so singled out and I want to scream at them, "THIS ISN'T NAZI GERMANY OCCUPIED FRANCE ANYMORE!!"

I have a lot of obvious emotional/trust issues to work through from my PL, and I have a constant terror in the back of my mind that I'm still in danger.

[Rebecca]

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-Anger, Violence or rage Yes, I have a very short fuse, and this is a trait I possesed in my PL too.
-Depression, Anxiety, excess worry...I deal with anxiety, but am not diagnosed with any kind of disorder.
-Difficulty to connect with others Yes but I dont make an effort unless they are similar to me in some way, or interest me. Some say I come off as such a female dog. Haha!
-Suspicion about strangers, shyness..Nope

-Not liking people around you, especially strangers Not phased.

-Good ability to adress people formally but trouble connecting or making friends...I dont make an effort, I only connect with people similar to me. My closest friends are Jewish.

-Isolating yourself.. No
-Need to be in control/charge No
-Friends and family calling you a dictator, etc. Nope, I get called a Nazi because of this life's heritage and I just laugh in that persons face.
-Need to be the boss in relationships or everywhere....Yeah im bossy in relationships
-Procrastination, difficulty in making decisions...No

-People saying you have a scary look...No, I look very girlie girl, but I have been told I have a "cold look" which makes me come across as unapproachable.
- Feeling cranky or tired a lot of the time- ....... I thought it was mono?!... jk ;-)
All jokes aside, yes! For sure!
-Following inner rules that nobody told you, or expecting others to follow rules you never told them- I cant think of anything atm.
-Sensitivities other people do not have Not that I am aware of.
-Avoiding social situations, being bothered by people laughing and chatting... I wouldnt say I avoid social situations, as in the right crowed I am quite sociable.
-Feeling that you know best about a lot of things...Yes but only on certain subjects.
-Speaking harshly and not intending to do so..yes, I am very blunt.

-Not liking someone looking at you That doesnt bother me, Ill stare straight back. Im excellent at maintaining eye contact to the point of intimidation apparently ;D
-Strong reactions to stressful situations Anxiety
-Reactions to exploding sounds...When I was young I hated any loud sound, especially fireworks. I dont mind them now but sirens will send shivers down my spine and still do this day.

Kind Regards
Rebecca

[msmir]

Funny how reincarnated victims and Nazis are so similar in so many ways.

[Leutnantzursee]

Hi Demi... :-)

Gosh, I seemed to have missed this post for some reason when it first came up, it might have been the week I was away on holiday, which would explain that! Wow - I'm blown away! Yes, like everyone else here, I can tick a yes to pretty much all of those questions, aside from a fear of planes, I actually really love the sound of small aircraft in the sky, it's strangely comforting to me and I've loved it since I was little, so maybe that relates to Emil's short stint in the Luftwaffe?

Nomadicsoul - I truly hear you about those issues with trusting one's partner. It's taken me nearly 18 years to get to a place where I actually feel comfortable with him. He's an angel truly he is, he's one of the most tolerant and forgiving souls I know and has sustained the hugest amount of patience with me over the years. Often I've felt like walking, because I feel unworthy of such a good man and even others have said that, which was painful to hear. My daughters say I can very 'scary' at times and I have a volcanic temper that rarely arises, but when it does I go into meltdown! I'm VERY uncomfortable with people I don't resonate with, so I won't say 'strangers' because sometimes one can connect massively with a relative stranger and never connect with a close family member. I have this with my mother, because I can't stand 'frothy' shallow people, she on the other hand thinks I'm a dour, misanthrope - which is probably true sometimes! I really hide myself from people, but I'm OK with that, I prefer my own company, but long to connect with others who share my soul signature. I think we must all feel like this, like we can only resonate with a specific group of people, presumably those like us who went through this unique experience :-)

[Demi]

Lizzie, Oh, I love airplanes, aviation, even airports! It was only when I was a small kid (I guess, up until I was 10) that it bothered me. Although I wanted to be an astronaut since I was 3 and I my late teens I wanted be a fighter pilot; been flying hang glider and para gliders and learning about radar border/airspace control.

Wow it's interesting to see how much resonates with many of you guys in here! Yes Miriam there are similarities on both sides, and I also think, more specific things in each group (besides of individual differences) I believe the most common experience are anxiety and depression. I also think about a mild form for PTSD in my case, even tho I don't know where it would come from this life time!

All the best
Demi

[Leutnantzursee]

Yes always had a fascination for aviation too Demi and I can remember telling my father i wanted to be an astronaut when I 'grew up'! On a side-note - that links me to a future life dream I had, yes I've been surprised we can travel forward too. I'm going on a manned mission to Mars at some point in history! So I will get my dream of being an astronaut after all, but its not until next time!

[Leutnantzursee]

Hi nomadicsoul :-)

I hear you about death! I don't fear what lies beyond at all, I have far too much personal and anecdotal proof that we go on, I think we all do, or we wouldn't be on a forum about reincarnation! But I do fear the process (possible protracted long illness or fatal accident). I fear leaving my children terribly, just as long as they're reasonably into adulthood and settled, I don't mind when I go, and they know I will always be with them in spirit, because I really do believe that love is stronger than death. My best friend used to work in a care home for elderly people and she like you, got up 'close and personal' with death. She told me how she had no doubt that there is a soul and yes, it does leave behind 'a vessel' as you say :-) She told me that shortly before someone in the home passed away, the room would fill up with this wonderful feeling of love, as if relatives had come to help the person cross over safely, I also had a weird experience when my father died, shortly before we got the call from the hospice that he had gone, he came to me in a dream to say goodbye, so I knew he was dead, literally minutes before the phone rang beside my bed. I suppose at this time of year, we muse on such topics and face our own mortality, especially when you get to my age! :-)

Gosh - I really can relate to you over the fear of losing loved ones. I am just the same, one night my partner was about an hour late back from work and I had him in hospital somewhere and was panicking, of course he was fine, just got caught up in traffic. The other thing I worry about, is that he'll leave me, although he never gives me cause to be suspicious, its all just my own paranoia. I am even more terrified of losing my youngest daughter - we have such a close bond and we've had many PL's together, the last one she discovered through a dream, in which she saw herself as a child fall from a building while I looked on horrified. We both think this is the source of my own terror of losing her and she is so good, she will always ring me because she knows how much I worry. So yes hon, I completely resonate with those fears you have :-) That is one of the things about being a parent, its hard to be 'cold' and withdraw (although, not for my father) you can only love this little being you brought into the world, and I'm of the opinion that motherhood solves huge karma between individuals - its the best and most unconditional love (or it should be) and can enable a lot of healing and forgiveness. My kids are everything to me, can't think of anyone I love more in this world :-) I can recall, funnily enough, when I was really little and still at nursery school, that my dad was late picking me up, well, I went into meltdown - I really did, I was hysterical with tears and a terror that i'd been abandoned.

I think we all lost loved one during the war, I know I did. The worse thing of all, is when your PL family reject you in this life, which is something I'm having to come to terms with, it hurts like hell, but sometimes those significant others, just don't reciprocate those feelings of attachment. I think its very probable that your partner was a loved one when you were Jurgen, learning to trust ANYTHING in this life, is I feel, one of our basic challenges as a soul group, we lost so much back then, we experienced some of the most horrific things imaginable, is it any wonder we carry fears like this into our present lives? :-) Don't beat yourself up over this hon, its quite normal I think and maybe time will prove, that they're not about to disappear and you can learn to love and trust again, but, yes, i do feel for you on this issue *hugs*

[Laurasia]

Hello Nomadicsoul.

I ABSOLUTELY understand your anxiety over losing your partner. Sometimes I am overcome by the exact same fear myself in regards to my partner...& she can sitting right next to me at the time!

I would say that it most definitely comes from your lives during the war & most likely is why you have stayed so "reserved" with him. You are genuinely fearful of losing him (even subconsciously) & therefore do not want to fully invest your feelings in order to safeguard yourself from some of that possible pain. (I have had the opposite happen in my own case. I couldn't be anymore invested in my partner & that makes the fear of losing her even worse.)

Do you know what may happen if you were to lose him without ever having fully "giving him your all"? You wouldn't save yourself any of the grieving pains, but you would have added tons of guilt to it for having "sefishly shorted him". Just an observation, hon.

Sincerely,
Laurasia

[doctorwhat]

-Anger, Violence or rage - i have a bad temper and it doesnt take hardly anything for me to get p*ss*d off. but i've never gone off on someone physically except once when i was a kid, and the kid sort of deserved it

-Depression, Anxiety, excess worry - no, no, and yes. i worry about a lot of things. dont think it stems from PL tho. probably moreso from being stupid with personal decisions in this life

-Difficulty to connect with others - depends. sometimes i find it hard to connect to others. but a couple times in my life (3 times) i've connected to someone very quickly. probably knew them in a PL sometime and got along with them then? i dunno.

-Suspicion about strangers, shyness - yes. not so much shy, but i'm a very untrusting person. you need to get to know me before i can trust you even a tiny tiny bit. i'm more suspicious than anything else.

-Not liking people around you, especially strangers - not sure how to explain it. i hate being around people, i hate people, but i NEED to be around people lol. does that make sense? haha, i love being in big cities, and being around tons of people in a setting like that. i HATE one-on-one or small group type of settings, tho.

-Good ability to address people formally but trouble connecting or making friends - yes. very much so

-Isolating yourself - not really. i dont do it on purpose. it just kinda happens. like i said, i'm not really a fan of people

-Need to be in control/charge - that's an understatement to say the least!

-Friends and family calling you a dictator, etc - i tend to take the leadership role in friendships. i've been called a dictator on more than one instance lol.

-Need to be the boss in relationships or everywhere - my husband constantly reminds me that i'm trying to be the husband haha. but i kinda have to - he's in the military and when he's gone, i need to be the "man" of the house

-Procrastination, difficulty in making decisions - ugh, story of my life with procrastination. i have no problem making decisions, tho. sometimes i'm too quick at making them lol

-**warning: dont read this part if you're having a bad day or are sensitive to talking about bad stuff concerning crematoria** People saying you have a scary look - i've had people tell me before they got to know me, they were intimidated or scared to even approach me. i dont see it, tho. but people have told me i'm intimidating. i could understand if i was like 6 feet tall, but i'm 5'5" haha. i guess i'm as intimidating as Napoleon lol. i've also had people tell me "you're scary in a way that a Nazi is scary. you just look....you know. like you should be burning people in ovens." <---someone really said that to me when i was 16 years old

- Feeling cranky or tired a lot of the time - i'm so tired all the time, but i have a 10 month old and a 3 year old, neither sleep thru the night. before i had them i always had tons of energy and could get up at 4am, go to bed at 2am, and get up at 4am and do it all over again w/out crashing. so i dont think stems from PL

-Following inner rules that nobody told you, or expecting others to follow rules you never told them - oh, yes. definitely. i'm also very "proper." not sure how to explain. good manners, good grammar, good posture, i have all sorts of unwritten rules that i follow and expect others to follow, too, and if they dont, i get kind of p*ss*d, but then i have to remember not everyone's like me and some people just dont think you should say "excuse" me when you bump into someone or whatever

-Sensitivities other people do not have - my eyes are really sensitive to light. i have to wear a rimmed hat, like a baseball hat, all the time outside because i cant handle bright sunlight. also, i'm really sensitive to people, and people keep telling me i can "read" their minds, lol. i'm just really intuitive and can tell VERY easily when someone is standing in front of me and trying to deceive me. i guess i'm like a Spanish Inquisition person in my own way lol

-Avoiding social situations, being bothered by people laughing and chatting - it depends. i avoid social situations with people i dont like.

-Feeling that you know best about a lot of things - haha, yah

-Speaking harshly and not intending to do so - all the time

-Not liking someone looking at you - YES. omg i hate it. even as a kid, i was so happy my last name started with a W, so i was always at the back of the class.

-Strong reactions to stressful situations - yes. i try to take charge and be a dictator and get people to do what *I* want them to do in order to resolve whatever it is

-Reactions to exploding sounds - no. i wouldnt call it a reaction, more like a certain feeling when i hear helicopters, or guns firing, or military jet planes, etc. i also have strong feeling-reactions (like flashbacky type feelings) when i see brick buildings with tall smokestacks (makes me think of crematoria), military helicopters, etc, and strong feelings when i'm around Jewish people

[schultzie]

Anger, violence, rage: Yes, yes and yes. As a youngster and on through my late teens, I was infamous for my quick and insatiable temper and tearing heck when I was so inclined. I could be quite scary. I've myself well under control these days, of course.

Depression, anxiety, excess worry: I have had anxiety issues my entire life. I have had an inescapable dread of dying since as far back as I can remember; in particular, being paranoid of dying alone. I was diagnosed with panic disorder and ptsd when I was nineteen. Depression has also been a dark cloud that has hovered over me since me earliest memories. I am all but the physical embodiment of worry.

Difficulty connecting with others: This is a big one for me. And it eats me up inside. I have this very deep, gnawing need for a “family” bond, and yet, I can never find it or achieve it. I have this ambivalence with people; “I need this bond,” however, “You're not the right ones; get away from me.” Only twice have I “clicked” with someone... and I am fairly positive, at least in the second case, that this person and I were connected somehow in PL.

Suspicion about strangers; shyness: To the extreme, and indeed! I have an innate distrust and suspicion about people. As for shyness... I just never fit in. And I know I don't. I more or less don't see much point, I guess.

Not liking people around you, especially strangers: I joke that I am a misanthropist. But only half-joking. I only want to be around who I want to be around.

Good ability to address people formally, but trouble connecting or making friends: Story of my life.

Isolating yourself: Yup. I just feel there is nowhere I belong, so, I have no real interest. And the times I do make an effort to “socialize” it just drives it all the deeper into me how vastly different I am from all the rest; the sense of being in the “wrong place, wrong time.” I hate how lonely that feels.

Difficulty asking for help: This has always, always been an issue with me! In fact, right now I am quite in dire straits in my life (in a few different ways), and I have a heck of a time coming forward about it. In the pit of me, I feel I should know how to do whatever; how to get myself out of whatever. It goes against the whole “perfectionist” yardstick I have pushed myself to live up to my whole life (which the panic and ptsd have destroyed; yes, I am angry and heartbroken about that).

Need to be in control, in charge: Mainly because I don't trust other people. I actually do my best when someone else is leading.

Being called a dictator: Negative. However, I was very frequently told I should be a lawyer and I was “interrogating” or “giving the 3rd degree.” Admittedly, especially back then, once I got my teeth into something, I just wouldn't let go.

Procrastination, difficulty making decisions: You can say that again. Ha!

People saying you have a scary look: Even as a very tiny child, no one could get me to smile. I was super serious, which seriously weirded a lot of people out. It has been said to me on more than one occasion about “if looks could kill” and my “death glare.” I used to walk into a room and be greeted with that “collective hush”; everybody's heads turn, all those eyes. I was torn between puffed up and totally creeped out, haha.

Feeling cranky or tired a lot of the time: I am down sick more often than not these days, due to chronic illness. So, yes to both. But even before this, yes, that would be quite accurate.

Following inner rules that nobody told you; expecting others to follow rules: So guilty of this one! I almost never made any friends as a child mainly because of this (because kids don't like it much when you constantly “nanny” them and get them in trouble). I am also one for good manners, good ettiquette; nothing annoys me more than someone lacking social graces. Do lists count? Since I could write (to this very day), I have to have detailed lists for everything; everything has to be documented and dated (when I was young, even so far as what time I ate, when I slept, when I showered). Rules, structure, discipline.

Sensitivities others do not have: Oi. All my senses are very acute. It's much more annoying than one would think. I am very empathic; intuitive. Churchbells make me feel weird. No clue about why.

Avoiding social situations, being bothered by people laughing and chatting: Definitely.

Speaking harshly and not intending to do so: When I get very focused, yes. I can become very abrupt and blunt (or so I am told).

Not liking someone looking at you: Yes! My biggest gripe ever. I seriously don't like that. Makes me want to scream. Ha!

Strong reactions to stressful situations: I'm at both ends of the spectrum. On the one hand, I can go completely to pieces (hence, my illnesses). And on the other, I can perform exquisitely (I actually do my best under high pressure or during a crisis). It depends what the situation is and what is at stake.

Reactions to exploding sounds: Let's just say that 4th of July is my least favorite holiday. For that matter, I have had an irrational fear of things exploding my whole life. I was worse than the dog if someone turned a vacuum on near me and did not forewarn me.

[Demi]

I just want to say THANK YOU to everyone sharing in this survey.

We were having a discussion somewhere else on this board about why certain traits seem to resonate with so many people (especially on the Nazi/Military PL side). Comments regarding this matter are welcome, as well as anyone else who wants to participate in the survey - this thread is always open for additional entries. Or, if you prefer, you can share in the Members Only section.

Have a great day everyone,
Demi