Post by (Oo...GhostPoet...oO) on Jul 6, 2014 19:40:39 GMT -5
-Anger, Violence or rage - My temper flares when I feel like I'm being dominated by people who I don't feel deserve their dominance over me. I only lash out/rage at people I feel brave around (e.g. my sister) and it irritates me that I don't stand my ground and take charge more.
-Depression, Anxiety, excess worry - I get anxiety when I consume caffeine (which I am highly sensitive to) and whenever I fear that I have a life-altering disease. I have an irrational fear of sickness and of failure. I hate failing. I hate being second to people I don't feel should be better than me and people I generally don't like
-Difficulty to connect with others - I kinda mentioned my tendency to compete and judge people based on their treatment of me. I always tend to feel that other people may have malicious intentions or are capable of greater aggression and malice than I am able to reciprocate (If that's the right word)
-Suspicion about strangers, shyness - As I said, I suspect that other people may judge, harass, or at the worst assault me and are far more capable of such violations than I am so I tend to stay away from people who seem to act differently than I do.
-Not liking people around you, especially strangers - I dislike anyone who I feel is mistreating me and am very prone to feeling that people are mistreating me. I often regard my peers as immature but have a great deal more success in relating to adults.
-Good ability to address people formally but trouble connecting or making friends - I am nervous when addressing people formally but typically do fairly well. According to my standards of how well I feel I should be giving speeches, presentations etc. I am not satisfied with my ability. I also connect well with mature kids or adults. Particularly people who aren't very forward when I first meet them and don't tease me when I first meet them. I have a gigantic, fragile ego and can't stand being teased...playful or not.
-Saying something that you regret, or feeling awkward not knowing what to say - Feeling awkward and not knowing what to say is a trait that frustrates me the most. I want to be able to win debates and say something snazzy to make it so that the other person doesn't know what to say. When ever I try to make snappy comebacks, as I feel I should be able to, I always say something simple and vague (like name-calling) or nothing at all.
-Isolating yourself - Not really. Sometimes I like being alone and doing things alone but not too much.
-Difficulty asking for help - This is me all the way. I often feel like I am worrying over ridiculous things when I ask for help.
-Need to be in control/charge - I usually don't feel a strong need to be in charge however I do hate it when I am in a team and other students are taking on the leadership role and I'm standing there like an idiot not knowing what to do.
-Friends and family calling you a dictator, etc. - Sadly no. I unfortunately have no traits that are even reminiscent of a line-leader let alone a dictator.
-People answering "sieg heil" when you just ask them to do a favor... - I don't think I ever really come off as bossy unless I am unhappy...
-Need to be the boss in relationships or everywhere - Not really, no. I just hate being dominated or bossed around by people who I feel have no actual authority over me.
-Procrastination, difficulty in making decisions - YUP! Annoys the crap outta me because I always have things I would rather do instead of my class project that's due in a week. I also have trouble deciding between two different boxes of yugioh cards. In my head I'm thinking "can you afford to buy me both?"
-People saying you have a scary look - Only one person told me that I have creepy eyes. I have discerned myself that my eyes are creepy and a bit striking in their expression. They remind me of a dead nazi...
- Feeling cranky or tired a lot of the time - Cranky, yea. Tired? If I get up too early.
-Following inner rules that nobody told you, or expecting others to follow rules you never told them - When I was thirteen I had trouble saying the word "pregnant" and I am resolute about never smoking or drinking. I also am pro-life (my father is pro-choice and so are my friends and sister) and hate the way people dress these days... I'm a bit of a conformist whilst everyone else is a bit rebelious.
-Sensitivities other people do not have - heat, pepper, garlic poweder, cream cheese makes me sick, bright sunlight, clothing that is tight under the armpit area, chlorine in pools, water has flavor to me, and people who talk to loud.
-Avoiding social situations, being bothered by people laughing and chatting - I get bothered by people laughing because my hypervigilance makes me feel like they are laughing at me and I have a humongous ego that hates being laughed at so I usually reason: "Anyone who ridicules me is even more ridiculous than I am."
-Feeling that you know best about a lot of things - I feel like I know better than some people.
-Speaking harshly and not intending to do so - Sometimes I come off as mean... particularly around immature people and people I'm brave around.
-Feeling like someone is looking stupid, preconceptions (arising from fear) - Not sure what that means... I do, however, have the preconception that other teenagers are aggressive, brutal and ruthless.
-Not liking someone looking at you - Makes me wonder if they are spouting off nonsense about me or laughing at me with their potentially more popular and thus more aggressive friends.
-Strong reactions to stressful situations - Yup. But when I am out in public I usually internalize my anger or bust the lead on my pencil.
-Reactions to exploding sounds - Just to the sounds of airplanes. I used to be afraid that they were tornadoes or that they were going to crash.
-Looking up at airplanes and thinking are they going to throw a bomb - I always have this need to watch airplanes because I fear they are going to crash or something.
- I often find myself more egotistical, have more radical beliefs and am a better artist when my life sucks or when I have a reason to feel inferior. I have an inferiority complex.