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Post by euskanoravian on Oct 3, 2010 19:47:27 GMT -5
The last paragraph of this post is extremely disturbing!I have been out of commission again due to poor health. I have been sleeping a lot, and had some very upsetting dreams. Because of being extremely sick, I had a very disturbing dream that involved Auschwitz. This was either a nightmare from my illness being out of hand, or it was a soul memory which stemmed from hanging around there as a discarnate. During some very bad past moments, I have had dreams like this. I tend to think it was a soul memory from there coming through. I had one recurring past life dream recently, which took place I believe to be the morning of the same day as my death. I was sitting at the edge of a curb, by a church in Cologne. I was filled with despair, feeling torn, distressed, and remorseful. Could not stop shaking, and had a bottle in my hands which was wrapped tightly in a paper bag. The sound of the church bells startled me while I was sitting there. I have never liked the sound of church bells. That moment would explain why. I participated in Kristallnacht, and was quite disgusted with myself. Nonetheless, I felt as if I had no choice but to participate. I was damned if I did, and damned if I did not. Right before I woke up from that dream, I was about to take a swig. That was the end of the dream. As I said, that was not the first time I had that particular dream. It usually happens during moments when I am feeling guilt ridden, like I did after Kristallnacht. I admit even though this sickness is not something I can help, I do feel guilty that I cannot do more for my family than I do. The other extremely disturbing dream I had happened on a day when I was very sick. I was floating around, in Auschwitz. There were corpses lying around. Desperate, sickly thin prisoners were actually savagely tearing off the flesh from the corpses. When they were caught, they were whipped and beaten. Other prisoners were grazing around and eating grass. I woke up from that nightmare, immediately getting sick. I am still very disturbed by that nightmare. These poor prisoners were so starved that I bet they really did eat flesh from the dead and grass. Blessed Be, Andi
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Post by msmir on Oct 4, 2010 9:38:33 GMT -5
Yuck.. what a horrible dream.. especially the Auschwitz one I am sorry you had to have such a nightmare. And I believe cannibalism did take place.. I am sure I read about that from various sources. When people are desperately starving, they will eat ANYTHING, and animal instincts are going to come out in such extreme situations like that.. and cannibalism is likely to happen.. it happened A LOT in the Holodomor (Stalin's Great Famine, YES it had a name! Not many people know this). So I can easily see how it happened during the Holocaust too. And yes I actually have heard prisoners did eat grass too... in fact there was a picture of the museum, of Auschwitz today with nice green grass around it.. and it said underneath the picture that when Auschwitz was the place of torture.. there was no grass for that reason.. prisoners ate anything to sustain themselves somehow. So... based on what you had dreamed about and not being surprised that any of that happened.. it unfortunately was likely a soul memory you had been remembering.
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Post by euskanoravian on Oct 5, 2010 0:13:17 GMT -5
I am quite aware of what the Holodomor was. Stalin and Hitler definitely were known to be two of the ten most evil men noted in history. When I did my past life tarot readings close to a decade ago, I read for a few clients who died in the 1932 Ukrainian Famine, aka the Holodomor. If I recall, some of these clients had eating disorders. Some were compulsive overeaters, and others, believe it or not were anorexic. No wonder.
Blessed Be, Andi
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Post by sweetlunapie on Oct 6, 2010 6:36:25 GMT -5
Whoa, that IS disturbing...try taking a small bag of rosemary and put it under your pillow if you want to stop the nightmares.
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Post by msmir on Oct 6, 2010 9:11:44 GMT -5
OMG well there was definitely a bad dream I had one night last year.. one night, when I was working on my project really late at night last year... of course I went to bed thinking about (sorry lulz) Mengele.. because I wrote something in my book about the experiments and stuff.. and I had this horrible nightmare of some big lady (why she had to be big.. I dunno) had entered this this blood lab where I had taken my kids because they needed blood work.. I did not trust her, something about her made me want to protect my kids.. I ran out of the lab because someone was calling over to me and this person needed my immediate attention, so the next thing I knew my kids were missing and then I panicked.. then I saw them in this room where they were hooked onto IV's, and they were lying there looking distressed and the woman was grinning at me in the most evil way, and I struggled to pull the IV's out of both of them.. and THANKFULLY that was the end of the dream. I can't tell you how relieved I felt when I woke up. Rosemary, okay.. I will keep that in mind so that does not happen again. I can work on this stuff late at night now and not be affected.. but I was just starting to open up to the whole issue at the time so it's no surprise I had a bad dream like that.
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Post by privatetucker on Oct 6, 2010 22:32:14 GMT -5
Oh God, both of those are horrible, horrible dreams, I can't even begin to imagine...*hugs for both you*
I am aware that there was cannibalism at Bergen-Belsen, the camp I died in, but I don't know if there waS ANY AT Auschwitz. I know about the grass thing, and I honestly wouldn't be surprised if the cannibalism was at Auschwitz, too.
Sorry about the typing stuff...my internet/keyboard is being weird tonight...
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Post by euskanoravian on Oct 7, 2010 0:13:49 GMT -5
Tucker, if there was cannibalism at Bergen-Belsen, then there most definitely was cannibalism in Auschwitz. Do you mind me asking if you have any recollections of seeing it happen there? If not, it's okay. It is a very disturbing thing to remember, and who would want to remember it? Given that you and MsMir has said this, my nightmare had to have been a soul memory from the time I spent there as a discarnate/guide. I am still very upset by that nightmare. Luna, I know rosemary helps ward off nightmares. I keep forgetting about it. Thank you for reminding me. MsMir, I have had dreams about Block 10- aka the experimental lab. Nonetheless, I am not up to going into detail about it now. Also very disturbing dreams. As unpleasant and frightening it was for you to have that nightmare, at least it was a dream. A very bad one mind you, but it was a dream. I know my nightmares about Block 10 were very real. I woke up from them sick each time. Blessed Be, Andi
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Post by msmir on Oct 7, 2010 9:07:46 GMT -5
Andi you can share it with me...it's okay.. I have seen it all too, and I am just not shocked by the stuff that happened there anymore. Lulz may also relate to a lot of it too...
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Post by privatetucker on Oct 7, 2010 10:20:52 GMT -5
Tucker, if there was cannibalism at Bergen-Belsen, then there most definitely was cannibalism in Auschwitz. Do you mind me asking if you have any recollections of seeing it happen there? If not, it's okay. It is a very disturbing thing to remember, and who would want to remember it? Given that you and MsMir has said this, my nightmare had to have been a soul memory from the time I spent there as a discarnate/guide. I am still very upset by that nightmare. Luna, I know rosemary helps ward off nightmares. I keep forgetting about it. Thank you for reminding me. MsMir, I have had dreams about Block 10- aka the experimental lab. Nonetheless, I am not up to going into detail about it now. Also very disturbing dreams. As unpleasant and frightening it was for you to have that nightmare, at least it was a dream. A very bad one mind you, but it was a dream. I know my nightmares about Block 10 were very real. I woke up from them sick each time. Blessed Be, Andi I don't mind you asking me at all. Although in my recollections of the place (granted they are somewhat limited) I didn't see it. I just know it as like, historical fact. What's a discarnate, and how did you end up at Ausxhwitz, also if you don't mind me asking. ^^
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Post by Laurasia on Oct 9, 2010 11:45:19 GMT -5
I am sorry that you have to have such disturbing recollections while being so sick, Andi. Though I have noticed that tends to happen with myself & Miss Bothmann too. It just doesn't seem fair really. Why can't our psyches offer up such taxing recollections when we are less vulnerable? Or better yet, when we are actively trying to recollect those lifetimes?
Sincerely, Laurasia
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Post by euskanoravian on Oct 10, 2010 14:11:12 GMT -5
Tucker- to answer your question, a discarnate is a spirit without a body. I had taken on a job to give spiritual telepathic support to prisoners in Auschwitz after I had been killed in 1938. I felt this was a way for me to start balancing karma. In other words, I was a spirit guide- and there were many spirit guides there for obvious reasons. Laurasia- it seems to always happen that way. Having the worst recollections- whether you were in an incarnation or not must happen at the worst possible times. It is quite unfair. What I am about to write is very disturbing!I recently had this nightmare during one of my sickly days. I was again, floating around Auschwitz. I believe it was Block 10, where the experimentation took place. I saw these huge ovens. Not crematoria, but actual ovens. There was a prisoner in there, screaming in agony and trying to break free. He could not. He was stuck, very red and full of blisters. I am not sure if this again, was just a nightmare I had, or if this was a soul memory. If this kind of thing never happened, then it was a nightmare. A terrible one I would have to add. Blessed Be, Andi
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Post by msmir on Oct 10, 2010 19:34:54 GMT -5
Oh my! Well I have never heard of anyone being cooked in ovens BUT that does not mean it did not happen! It would not be out of the realm of possibilities since things that were done to prisoners in those experimental labs were BEYOND horrific!!!!! Regardless.. what an AWFUL nightmare that was.. I am sure the drugs don't help with that either... having to have those awful dreams that is.
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Post by privatetucker on Oct 10, 2010 21:48:54 GMT -5
Oh my Gosh, that is such a terrible...terrible thing to remember. *hugs* I'm so sorry that kind of shows up when you're sick.
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Post by euskanoravian on Oct 11, 2010 0:22:49 GMT -5
Oh my Gosh, that is such a terrible...terrible thing to remember. *hugs* I'm so sorry that kind of shows up when you're sick. Thank you for the hugs. Unfortunately, I seem to end up with the worst recollections and/or dreams when I am feeling my worst. It is not fair, but who said anything in life is fair? Especially when I must have these awful memories Blessed Be, Andi
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Post by msmir on Oct 11, 2010 8:46:57 GMT -5
Well I do know when I am not feeling well I tend to have bad dreams too.. so it would make sense that you would end up having the worst dreams or recollections while you are feeling horrible. I can imagine how awful that is dealing with physically and emotionally.
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