Post by painter on Apr 17, 2014 14:11:18 GMT -5
I've finally taken the decision to share my story here with you, after many months of just reading posts as a guest.
First, I would like to say that I really appreciate the atmosphere on this forum. The friendliness, understanding, sharing and caring help enormously towards reconciliation and healing, not in the least because I was a nazi in my last life. Took me some time to come to an understanding of that and stop blaming myself. But reading all your input here helped me doing that.
What makes my story maybe a bit different from most of you, is that I do not have own memories of my past lives. They are being told to me by friends who I (apparently) have known for many lifetimes. (Friends who are special and do have the ability to see their own and others past lives) Being told I was in SS in a concentration camp and killed many in a horrible way, many who now are my best friends, was not easy to recover from or give a place in my current life.
It's funny, but even though I'm being told this, I recognize that it's true, on some level. It's just a feeling that connects with something inside myself.
I've had one image of myself in that lifetime and one series of images of another lifetime which I recollected when I was at a hypnotherapist, specializing in regression to past lives.
My investigation is now focussed on how I can heal the hurt I have caused, for that's one of the reasons I am here again. And secondly in understanding why I (or the person that my soul inhabited in in WW2) ever did these horrible things. In order to understand myself better. It's one thing to just be lured onto 'the bad side', but I must have been so horrible that I was killed, in the end, by one of my 'colleagues' and best friends.
Glad to part of the healing now!