Greetings! Name's Chris, or Crispy if you'd like. As you can see by my profile, I am a newbie here. I guess I should start with a little about me: in this life, I'm an EMT for a large, tri-city area. I became interested in pat lives after I became a wiccan. I read a ton of articles on thesubject, and found that some of my issues may stem from past life experiences. I have always been extremely shy and timid, and even up to my late teens, was very nervous around unfamiliar people. Regarding WWII, and especially the holocaust, I have always had very strong emotions, swirling into intense images that would leave a deep feeling of despair and depression, and sometimes drove me to tears. As I began working on myself and these issues, the feelings only became stronger. I decided to delve deeper into my own past lives to hopefully gain some incite.
Here is what I found: I believe I died in Auschwitz as a sonderkommando. I don't remember much of my life before Auschwitz, but I know I had a lover who entered the camp with me. She was gassed immediately. I died a few months later. I think from a gunshot wound to the chest, but I'm not particularly sure. I get bits and pieces of memories during my meditations.
Unfortunately, after these discoveries, nothing really got easier. That's part of the reason I came here. To share my experiences with others who have had similar ones, and hopefully, get a good start in healing.
Welcome to the forum. I certainly hope that you do find help on your journey through healing here with us.
It sounds as though you have a good idea of where your soul was in your past life, as well as a good connection to the Divine. Those are very important tools which will both help you throughout the healing process to be sure.
I can't imagine having to have been a part of one of the sonderkommando units as that forced you to be both a victim & a perpetrator in many ways. If you are having issues with guilt (as so many of us do for various reasons) just know that there is no reason to feel condemnation, because guilt only keeps your soul in pain. If we had deserved condemnation than our souls would not have been permitted to reincarnate into the lives that we are now living.
If you ever have need (or just want) to speak privately about something feel free to PM me anytime. Share whatever you are comfortable with sharing on the open forums, or in the Members' Only forum if you prefer. We are all here to help one another to heal & judgement by other members is not tolerated here, so hopefully that will ease any doubts in your heart or mind.
If you have any questions or concerns, again, feel free to PM either myself or one of our Moderators Msmir or Lizzie66.