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Post by rachaeld on Sept 27, 2013 10:14:12 GMT -5
Hi, I think I might possibly be a Holocaust victim....I've been struggling alot in life lately and have been developing my psychic abilities to connect with angels, spirit guides, etc. I asked of them to please help me and give me some insight into why I've suffered so much emotionally because I can't take it anymore.
A little while ago, I learned that my psychic development teacher learned that she died at Auschwitz and that she had received messages from her guides that many Holocaust victims are reincarnated now and drawn to New Age spiritual development as a means of healing. This sort of resonated with me and I wondered if I was a victim, since I've been shown that I've suffered alot in past lives, been victimized, that I carry tremendous sadness in my soul.
So, one day on a whim, I asked my pendulum if I died in the Holocaust in a past life and it said yes. So I went into a meditation to try to get info about this...saw a vision of being in a European city, the Eiffel Tower appeared so I thought I was in France/Paris. Strongly felt like a male. I asked what was my first name and at first got "Heinrick" or Heinrich and split second later it switched to "Henri" (French and German versions of Henry). I asked for last name and got Rosner. Ok...so male, French, Henri Rosner. Didn't get anything more. Asked pendulum to confirm all of this and it said yes. Also yes to the question "did my family of origin practice the Jewish religion?"
Then I just happened to google the name Henri Rosner...and saw a site with a list of French Jewish children that were rounded up and deported to the camps-guess what name was on the list??? Henri Rosner, a young boy of 7, born in Paris in 1935, sent to Auschwitz. His brother Manfred also listed as 10 years old and born in Frankfurt, Germany. Interesting that his older brother was born in Germany and I've learned that many German and Polish Jews started immigrating into France in the 1930s as anti-Semitism rose in those countries. So perhaps this family originally came from Germany and thus that's why I first saw the German version of Henri first???
I am hoping that I got this all right. I'm full of doubts as to if this could be true, If I just made it up. I don't feel any sort of emotions around this - more objectively viewing it. But it would explain alot about me in this life.
Also, through out my life, there are connections to Jewish people and Holocaust:
-always had a morbid interest in Holocaust; took a class on it in college
-used to joke that "I should be Jewish" since I struggled with the religion of my family growing up; been interested in Jewish people/history
-people always thinking I'm Jewish since my name is Rachael and I physically look Jewish with black curly hair/dark eyes
-very drawn to WW2 era and France-studied French in school, been twice
-never had any desire to visit or learn about Germany-felt almost an icky feeling about the country
-when young, feeling ashamed at my appearance and how kids in school used to tease me and ask me if I was Jewish or black...didn't want people to think I was Jewish and felt embarrassed to be in public with my dad alone since we looked dark..I wanted to look more "white" or blond like other girls in school.
-once driving by a power plant with my friend that had a smoke stack with smoke coming out, I said "that reminds me of a concentration camp" - who says that??
-am drawn to and deeply moved by efforts and initiatives aimed to bring inter-religious understanding and reconciliation.
-when young I used to imagine being in WW2 Europe-or being in a place under invasion or occupation
-watching Schindler's List and imagining I could play one of the women actresses-kind of look like them-even to the point (and this is embarrassing to admit!), putting a kerchief on my head and pretending to be the Helen Hirsch character (the maid of the camp director)
-being deathly afraid of medical appointments and procedures - shots, ob/gyn exams, eye exams, dentist...this isn't necessarily related to Holocaust and could be because of another life but I know people were experimented on at Auschwitz.
I'd love to hear anyone's thoughts or other Holocaust victims, If they've experienced similar things. It's so hard to believe that I could have had this past life. It feels like I made it up with imagination.
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Post by Storm on Sept 27, 2013 12:14:26 GMT -5
Hello Rachaeld and a very warm welcome to the forum.
Your post literally brought tears to my eyes. The stories of the children who suffered back in the Holocaust never fails to tear at me. No child, (and everyone, adults included, is someone's child), should ever have to go through anything like what happened back then. No human being should ever have to. But especially not children.
The very fact you got a name that you have verified is amazing. This is very tangible and important evidence. Also, you first heard the name as Heinrich. Of course if Henri's family had come from Germany and fled to France in the hope of escaping the growing Anti-Semitism, as many Jewish people did, the child would have probably been called Heinrich had he been born in Germany. He was probably aware his name in German was Heinrich. He may even have felt that should be his name.
The entire list you have given also suggests very probable Holocaust links from a past life research perspective. I am a trained past life healer and regressionist.
It is not entirely a surprise that you feel emotionally detached in a sense, because that is one of the ways we cope. To be flooded with the outstanding issues, like fear and pain, from traumatic past lives can be a shock to the system and tremendously difficult, so the conscious mind has coping mechanisms. And your guides will probably be protecting you too. The agony of children who have suffered and died is the most terrible vibration I am aware of. In this life I am a healer, amongst other things, but on my own spiritual journey it was revealed to me that I was a senior SS officer in a past life. I still struggle with this concept every day, but it would explain why I am so committed to healing work, combatting racism and helping protect children in this life.
As you move forward with this, depending on how far you need or wish to take it, you may well find you start to process some of the pain and memories of this child. This will at times be tough. Do share as you need to on this forum. That's what this community is here for. And everyone has wisdom and insight that many of us are happy to share. On a positive note the processing and reconciliation of past life issues can have a tremendously healing effect upon our present lives if it is managed correctly. By managed I mean, look after yourself. Be kind to yourself. Accept that the perceptions you had of yourself and embarrassment you felt for being dark were very probably the result of experiences of a lifetime where you and your family, if you were this boy, were judged completely unacceptably by a regime that got things very wrong.
If this journey unfolds and you begin to recall more of this boy's life you will not only be healing yourself and Henri, but you will actively be helping to heal that pain vibration I mentioned earlier. This is an amazing and beautiful thing! Because it is my belief that the residual effects of such abuse of human life, and especially children and young people cut off before they had even started in life, is one of the energetic constructs that traps our world in cycles of perpetual war and suffering. So all those who help to heal themselves and these residual effects are a true gift to the world and to humanity.
In summary I certainly do not think this is you making things up. It is excellent you are able to look at this objectively and are concerned with evidence gathering. This is crucial in past life research. It is very easy to go off on tangents. But in your case I really think you may be at the beginning of a precious and important journey of healing, for you in the form you are now, and for Henri who deserves so much to be remembered and healed.
Sincere and healing blessings to you, and welcome once again to this forum.
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Post by Demi on Sept 27, 2013 16:55:47 GMT -5
Hello and welcome, Rachael.
Be assured you are not alone! There are so many things on your list which I resonate with! Here are some of them:
-always had a morbid interest in Holocaust; took a class on it in college
I was obsessed with Auschwitz when I was 13-17 years old. Even wanted to work at the museum, and thinking about "genocide studies" in college...
-used to joke that "I should be Jewish" since I struggled with the religion of my family growing up; been interested in Jewish people/history
I used to be very fascinated with Jewish people, esp. during Holocaust, wanting to visit a synagogue, esp. in the first year (when I was 13-14)
-never had any desire to visit or learn about Germany-felt almost an icky feeling about the country
This point on/off! Used to be interested in German culture as a small kid, was told that I am "not German". I was very fascinated with Berlin as a teenager. Relate to icky feeling later on, when I learned what they had done to my country.
-once driving by a power plant with my friend that had a smoke stack with smoke coming out, I said "that reminds me of a concentration camp" - who says that??
Oh, that ALWAYS reminds me of camps, almost any fence does, or just snow and the smell of smoke in the air!
-am drawn to and deeply moved by efforts and initiatives aimed to bring inter-religious understanding and reconciliation.
Agree!
-when young I used to imagine being in WW2 Europe-or being in a place under invasion or occupation
I was very drawn to the 30's, esp. in Germany. When reading stories, saw the streets of Berlin in full color for my inner eye. And I can still recall them.
-watching Schindler's List and imagining I could play one of the women actresses-kind of look like them-even to the point (and this is embarrassing to admit!), putting a kerchief on my head and pretending to be the Helen Hirsch character (the maid of the camp director)
Used to do lots of role playing like that. Watched that movie at least 5 times. The music is deeply touching to me. I have a fascination, but just as you say, a detachment also. I was always interested in both sides of the story. A curiosity about all of them.
-being deathly afraid of medical appointments and procedures - shots, ob/gyn exams, eye exams, dentist...this isn't necessarily related to Holocaust and could be because of another life but I know people were experimented on at Auschwitz.
Totally relate here. I cannot stand hospital movies, or hospitals, or blood! I think this is from an earlier life, where I died in a hospital as a young child.
To introduce myself... I have "downloaded" about my own past life that I was a SS officer named Fritz Glocke. He is posted to a camp where he refused to work and was sent to the front to join a volunteer Waffen SS division. I have found his name in the records of the division, and what I've found is largely in tune with what I have seen in my own experiences (those deal with the last year of the war, when he transferred in).
Since I was 5, I had the feeling that I have been here before... as if something had happened in society which I was responsible for...
I studied the Holocaust from age 13. I have a desire to help heal it on all levels. Sometimes I talk with spirits in a sort of a spirit mediation. There is one I did this summer. I get in contact with angels and spirits, reaching out to heal the souls of Holocaust victims, and mediate between souls on both sides.
This mediation I did between the souls of a soldier in a camp and a 7 year boy who was shot shortly upon arrival (at Auschwitz-Birkenau) because he ran too close to the fence/ was going to where he shouldn't. During this, I downloaded the experience of the event of both sides. The boy had gotten lost from his parents... left the group as he ran towards the other part of the camp... there he saw a group of soldiers whom he got curious about, wanting to ask where his parents were. As he approached, one of them pulled his gun and shot him, as he was running towards them. I experienced his deep disappointment of having his life end this early... This soul needed a lot of healing, and feeling he needs another chance to come back. So I can follow you on what Storm says about the experiences of children.
All the best,
Demi
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Post by gumby on Sept 28, 2013 0:58:13 GMT -5
" am hoping that I got this all right. I'm full of doubts as to if this could be true, If I just made it up. I don't feel any sort of emotions around this - more objectively viewing it. But it would explain alot about me in this life. " Rachaeld
I think that you may begin to feel these emotions emerging, that may be repressed for the time being. Sometimes it is necessary to view our past life with this detachment because the full impact of these emotions would overwhelm the emotional well being. This is probably why things are revealed slowly over time rather than all at once. But I think that this detached perspective will eventually give way, you are bound to become more emotional as more of the details of your PL become evident. It may hit you suddenly, suddenly you may feel like shouting out, or you may feel like crying, you may call out the name of a loved one in your sleep. The suffering and pain that you endured in the concentration camp has most likely made you into steel. that camp would have certainly tempered you this way. And this would have certainly carried over into this life. But I feel that you will discover these emotions soon as your quest to unravel this PL of yours becomes closer to your heart.
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Post by rachaeld on Oct 1, 2013 11:36:34 GMT -5
Thank you all for a warm welcome. I am hoping this will lead to further healing. Of course I want all the information now so that I will have all the answers and know how to heal myself! I feel like it would explain why I've been so troubled the last few years. I really want to know if certain people in my life now were in this life too.
Question - can someone who was human in a past life come back as a pet in this life? I tried to determine who the brother in the past life is in this life (if he is) and kept seeing my dog, who comes to me sometimes in medium sessions as he has crossed over.
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Post by Laurasia on Oct 1, 2013 12:38:54 GMT -5
Hello Rachael. Welcome to the forum. I hope that you enjoy yourself & find healing & assistance here. Indeed, I have to agree with others....I do not think that you are making all of this up in your head. Finding that name & history so perfectly should be wonderfully fulfilling for you. And that list that you posted is not uncommon amongst people who are reincarnated from the Holocaust. As the others have also said, your detachment is likely a defensive mechanism of your sub-conscious mind. Just be aware that as you push forward & recall more that detachment will likely lessen & you will then start facing the very real feelings/issues that such a lifetime iften leaves one with. We are all here to help you through all of this though. You may want to speak to Msmir, as she was also a small child in Auschwitz during her last lifetime. As for myself I was Hans Bothmann, Commandant of the Chelmno death camp. And while I know that you may be thinking something like "wow there's a lot of reincarnated Nazis responding to me & no reincarnated Holocaust victims", but rest assured that all of us deal with eerily similar issues regardless of which side of things we were actively a part of. And we often have the same goals when it comes to healing both ourselves & others.  Sincerely, Laurasia |
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Post by Demi on Oct 1, 2013 16:42:34 GMT -5
Right, Laurasia, some of the issues both sides are dealing with now this life time are peculiarly similar... I mean, sometimes I feel I could have been a victim just as well (and also were by the end of the war) the only thing that is giving me a clue is the point of view in my PL experiences. I do feel a strange connection to the whole theme, and feelings of compassion and identification with victims as well.
There is another thread or two somewhere on this board specifically on the topic of current life issues stemming from our past lives which is an interesting read, and there is a number of people from both sides who responded.
Theoretically it is possible to reincarnate as an animal, the wise books say that happens if one led a particularly sinful life, but again I am not sure about wise books, or how all of this really works. The ways of karma are "unfathomable", the wise books say as well!
All the best
Demi
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Post by Laurasia on Oct 3, 2013 12:58:41 GMT -5
I knew that I'd forgotten to discuss something in my reply & that was the matter of pet reincarnation. I do believe that important people from our previous lives can reincarnate back into our lives as beloved pets. There are many theories about animal reincarnation, many of which that, as Demi mentioned, espouse "de-evolving" into a lifetime as a "lower life form" (meaning into an animal) as the result of living a sinful life. I don't see it that way, but it could be one the infinite possibilities within the entire processes of reincarnating. And yes there are quite a few different threads regarding past life-related current life issues in the Reincarnation Discussions board. Here are a few that you might be interested in to start you off...... (Some of the content may be a bit "jumpy" due to some posts being deleted by an older members before they left the forum.) Past Life Related Birthmarks &/or Chronic AilmentsStomach ProblemsPast Life ResentmentHow a holocaust past life affect us now...We don't mind old topics being re-opened for more discussion, so feel free to add to anything that you may find interesting Rachael. ;D Sincerely, Laurasia |
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Post by Demi on Oct 3, 2013 15:34:36 GMT -5
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