Post by schultzie on Jan 2, 2013 19:02:54 GMT -5
I am never any good at these introductions things. Ha! Hn. What to say, what to say...?
Well, for starters, this board has just astounded me. I mean, simply blown me away. Some of what others have posted (ja, I have been lurking reading for a few days)... I had no idea that anyone else was experiencing the same as have I. Seeing that I am not alone was a large confirmation for me that this is not just some grand concoction of an over-active imagination (because, like some others, I have serious moments of doubt/conflict, as well).
So, a little about me. Because, that is the whole point of this post, afterall.
(And this is the most difficult for me to express/convey.)
I really don't know much about who I was, or exactly what was my function. I do know that I was on the German side, and somehow involved with SS. I have had some very vivid dreams that, thank God for my father's military experience he was able to help me put some sense to a few of them. I have experienced very strong, moving emotions that seem to come out of nowhere, related to Nazi Germany, the war, just... all of it (good and bad). Sirens, loud noises (4th of July sends me into such an awful panic) set me off terribly; horrible dread and fear of impending doom... and there is no rational cause for this in my present lifetime that I can pinpoint. I sense that I was "behind the scenes," if that makes sense, in whatever I was doing.
Not very well articulated, eh? Just a bit nervous, as outside of my father (whom passed away 2 years ago), I have only ever talked about this to one other person. Shaking a bit as I type this. Ha ha. Hope I don't sound like too much of an idiot.
So, thank you so much for this site. And, hello to everyone.
-Charlie.
Well, for starters, this board has just astounded me. I mean, simply blown me away. Some of what others have posted (ja, I have been lurking reading for a few days)... I had no idea that anyone else was experiencing the same as have I. Seeing that I am not alone was a large confirmation for me that this is not just some grand concoction of an over-active imagination (because, like some others, I have serious moments of doubt/conflict, as well).
So, a little about me. Because, that is the whole point of this post, afterall.
(And this is the most difficult for me to express/convey.)I really don't know much about who I was, or exactly what was my function. I do know that I was on the German side, and somehow involved with SS. I have had some very vivid dreams that, thank God for my father's military experience he was able to help me put some sense to a few of them. I have experienced very strong, moving emotions that seem to come out of nowhere, related to Nazi Germany, the war, just... all of it (good and bad). Sirens, loud noises (4th of July sends me into such an awful panic) set me off terribly; horrible dread and fear of impending doom... and there is no rational cause for this in my present lifetime that I can pinpoint. I sense that I was "behind the scenes," if that makes sense, in whatever I was doing.
Not very well articulated, eh? Just a bit nervous, as outside of my father (whom passed away 2 years ago), I have only ever talked about this to one other person. Shaking a bit as I type this. Ha ha. Hope I don't sound like too much of an idiot.
So, thank you so much for this site. And, hello to everyone.
-Charlie.
