Scars of War....

[gumby]

I have many fears in my present life which I think stim from my previous life as Katie in WW II Germany. Sometimes I feel petrified when I am in a crowded room, and this is reminiscent of the bomb shelter, being stuffed in a small space with hundreds of other people, everyone in a state of stress and panic. I often feel nauseated when I stand in line at a grocery store ( this is from standing in ration lines when things got scarce during the war, I am sure, and a most unpleasant thing to go through as a young girl ) Then I get a feeling of dread when I hear an airplane revving its engine as it flies overhead ( during air raids, as a plane would dive towards its target, it would make such a sound, where the pitch of the engine gets higher ) I also sometimes feel that people around me are out to get me, staring at me, and want to do me harm. I want to flee, get away from them, and hide away, hoping that they will leave me alone. This happened to me when I was Katie, when in public one had to be careful what you did or said, as you might be reported to the authorities.

I think that as I've become aware of these things, its helped me to heal, and to understand myself and my actions. Has this also helped other members in this way? Please share.

[Demi]

Hi Gumby

Yes, I do relate to being afraid of airplanes... as I kid I would run and hide because I was afraid that they would throw bombs... I would be staring at an airplane passing over me and praying that it wouldn't throw something out! That was quite scary. And the sound you are talking about, yeah that is the worst kind. I do not like crowds either, sometimes I get this feeling like all those people are staring at me. I try to not look at them, I'ts as if I get ready to defend myself if they are going to attack me.

All the best
Demi

[gumby]

Thanks demi for sharing about your common experiences, it is so difficult at times to cope with this, and it is actually often difficult for me to relax and unwind from the stress this causes, sometimes I am not even aware that it is from my PL in Germany during the Nazi rein. It is really difficult to let go, sometimes I still feel like I am being chased by soldiers with guns intent on inflicting harm on me. These fears at times seem so irrational, yet when I reflect back on all I went through in this times, it is not surprising at all. Sometimes I could look at all of that destruction like a spectator, then other times I am in the midst of a firestorm, running for my life. I guess that we need to keep things in perspective, and not allow it to overwhelm us, keep hoping and praying for a better world free of such terror.

[Leutnantzursee]

Gosh - thinking about it Gumby, I have to say I don't feel altogether comfortable with fireworks. I don't like the big public display ones, they freak me out a bit. I think we all have these anxiety issues, my mum has them and I grew up with a person who had many phobias, so I know how severely it can affect your life. Have you ever tried work with a regressionist to heal your PL as Katy? I've read a bit about it as a therapy and it seems to have good results in curing PL trauma. I know these things cost, but I think it would help you so much Gumby. :-) You still live under such a big shadow

[Laurasia]

Hi Gumby.

I can certainly relate to the high amount of anxiety that you describe, hon. I have panic disorder in this life myself. Do you do any type of relaxation or meditative techniques to help you in relaxing & dealing with stress? It doesn't if the stress is brought on by something past life related, stress is stress & your body cannot tell the difference even if you can. So it is very important to have a way of dealing with your bodies responses to those stresses.

Fireworks can get to me, but it is connected to my lifetime as Charles (during the American Civil War) & not Hans.

Sincerely,
Laurasia

[Demi]

I have a sensitivity to noises outside, or somebody walking in the room next door, etc, I sleep extremely lightly. When I hear a racket no matter how small I need, or feel like I need, to go out and check what it is.

I have thought for a long time (and my experiences tell me) that this is from when I was a border guard and slept at the border station, always having to listen and watch for signs in my environment, having to live with uncertainty and danger day and night.

It does seem like some stresses can be from other life times than your last one, as Laurasia pointed out.

All the best,
Demi