Swingin' hepcat reporting in

[SwingKid]

Okay, so I wasn't a swingin' hepcat back in the day. Except in my dreams. I listened to the music in secret like so many others, never learned to jitterbug or do the Lindy Hop, and hid my secret. I'm pretty good at that. I still love swing, from Benny Goodman to the Squirrel Nut Zippers.

I was a Nazi. My experiences with the Holocaust led to mental illness (primarily depression), something I have had to deal with in this lifetime as well. I've been suicidal since the 1940's. I had one short life in between that one and this one and my death wish overcame my wish to live. I also took a few friends with me because of the manner I chose. I can still hear their screams before the train hit us.

I recall a "famous past life". I never have understood why that's such a big deal and why people want to argue over who was whom. Although I've run into plenty of people who want to take that subject to the mat, they were more interested in getting me to admit that they were right and I am wrong, in spite of neither of us having empirical evidence of who our past identities. And if that's not a complete waste of time, I don't know what is.

I've come to terms with that life (thanks to some very intense therapy with Rabbi Gershom and a lot of hard work on my own) and if others believe they were the same person, I have never seen any reason to argue over it. Why waste the energy arguing over who was Napoleon or Hitler or Cleopatra?

After all, even if you were not someone in a past life, you can still learn from their life, and take those "learnings" and use them in your current life. And learning lessons is how we evolve as souls, after all. And the increased skillset comes in very handy as well.

Swing Heil

[Laurasia]

Hello Swingkid.

Welcome to the forum. I am glad that you found us & decided to register. I also have famous past lives, so I can understand what you are saying in that regard. The issue of dealing with others' reactions inclines me to keep such details to myself however.

I look forward to reading more about your Nazi lifetime (if you are interested in sharing that is), as I was also a Nazi who thoroughly enjoyed swing music...& still does. ;D If you have questions or concerns feel free to PM either myself or one of our Moderators, Msmir & Lizzie66.

Sincerely,
Laurasia

[SwingKid]

Sept 10, 2012 17:50:31 GMT -5 Laurasia said:

Hello Swingkid.

Welcome to the forum. I am glad that you found us & decided to register. I also have famous past lives, so I can understand what you are saying in that regard. The issue of dealing with others' reactions inclines me to keep such details to myself however.

Thanks for the welcome, Laurasia, I remember seeing you on CPL years ago, but then a lot of people cycled through their over the years.

FPL's seem to incite drama, and when you've already got the drama of issues with others from your past life, it is pointless to have to argue over identity. I took a break from the reincarnation community and worked on things offline for years, but I've been having some prodding from those WWII memories lately, so I figured I'd better find a forum, just not CPL. After Deborah turfed out a friend of mine, I stopped going there except for the occasional lulz.

SwingKid

[Demi]

Hello SwingKid... welcome!
"Swing Heil"! omg ! ;D

[Storm]

Wow. Welcome. I am very interested in the therapy with Rabbi Gershom. I did not know he does this. That must have really helped. I wish I felt able to contact him, especially as I am so involved in trying to prevent genocide now. That's brave of you to go to him. I would be interested to hear more if you feel able to share it sometime.

I have done a lot of research into the shared PL memory phenomenon. I believe very much that the nature of the soul is multi-dimensional and multi-faceted. It is actually possible that some souls split into multiple parts simultaneously living. As a past life therapist/regressionist I learned about this concept. I have personally researched people who felt at some point in their lives that they had the PL I seem to recall. It is a fascinating area of PL research and one I aim to explore further. Some of those I found had nowhere near the level of "evidence" I seem to have. I was really hoping they did to be honest. But never mind. I think many people do flirt with this stuff for whatever reasons. If you have a whole load of evidence then you tend to have to accept it. For me accepting it is still hard. I have not yet had anyone try and compete with me for RH, lol, but I would be very interested and would love to compare notes if someone ever does turn up in this respect, ha ha, what a hoot! Who on earth would actively want to be him in their PL....usually those who want it were not those folk.

But the main thing is that if we were these people we are back and we can make a difference now for the better and heal a whole lot of stuff. That is just awesome.

[SwingKid]

Thanks for the additional welcomes

Rabbi Gershom does telephone sessions. He had "retired" from doing that type of counseling for a number of years, but when he came out of retirement again I was waiting. And it was worth the wait.

I can't say enough good things about him. I learned so much from him and the sessions I had with him and the exercises he had me do on my own helped me to accept what I was dealing with then, stop repressing my personality, and be all of myself. To say my life has been changed as a result of that process is a vast understatement. When all you are is broken pieces limping through existence, becoming whole is a nasty shock to your system.

It meant a career change, a lifestyle change, and change on every level. Not all of the changes are necessarily good, but then who likes change.

Still, the hardest thing was letting go of 1945 and accepting that I cannot change the choices I made or the actions I took. There is no "undo" button for the past, and all I can do is the best I can in this life and in the ones to come.

[Storm]

Rabbi Gershom sounds like an amazing guy. I know Msmir has always spoken highly of him. I still think you are brave. *hugs*

I would not want to bother him, though a part of me is crying out to discuss my situation with someone as learned as he. Is he still out of retirement? Maybe I should contact him....?

My situation has snowballed and the changes in my life are also not always comfortable. I really understand how hard it can be.

I must confess I am glad I did see the end on some levels. Even though there was huge agony in losing everyone who was dear to RH at the time he died I really feel that in many ways death was a mercy.

I am also exploring the possibility I had a very short life as a murder victim in between lives. There is evidence which points to it but I do not want to go into it more deeply right now.

[SwingKid]

Sept 11, 2012 10:31:16 GMT -5 Storm said:

Rabbi Gershom sounds like an amazing guy. I know Msmir has always spoken highly of him. I still think you are brave. *hugs*

I would not want to bother him, though a part of me is crying out to discuss my situation with someone as learned as he. Is he still out of retirement? Maybe I should contact him....?

He is amazing. My first session was a bit awkward, but after that when we'd get on the phone, it was effortless, like talking to someone I'd known all my life. There isn't a question you can't ask him, he's kind and patient and forgiving.

It is difficult to take that first step, and I actually paid for a few of my friends to have their first consultation with him so they'd do it.

I just checked his eBay store and he's still doing consultations on the subject (he uses eBay to handle the transactions).

Please feel free to PM me on the subject.

[SwingKid]

When I registered I had to LOL...the CAPTCHA was "No soup for you", the famous statement by the Soup Nazi. Somebody must have seen me coming.

[Leutnantzursee]

Hi SwingKid, a hearty welcome to SR and indeed 'Swing heil'!! :-)

I was also on the Nazi side in my last life, in the Kreigsmarines, I was also a secret lover of Swing and Jazz in that life, so really can relate to you :-) That is fascinating about Rabbi Gersholm, i know he's worked extensively with the Holocaust victims and their past lives, but didn't know he was interested in working with the Nazi reincarnatees as it were. I would love to speak to him as well, just to know his opinions and experiences of healing the Holocaust pain. I do think its very important that we remember that BOTH sides have been bitterly damaged by the Third Reich, for so many of us Germans, we were loyal to the party and had no inkling of what was going on, though many did know and perhaps it was worse for those who had no choice but to 'turn a blind eye'. I know many modern Germans hate that generation for their compliance and denial, but I feel sure it was born out of terror and the old Prussian sense of obeying the leader, no matter what. My Emil was lost to the pageantry and sense of ancient history, I was very keen on it all I have to say being (I think) an HJ leader at some point in my PL.

As for the issue of famous past lives... I know how hard it is to convince people of such things, I suspect a lot of people assume that if you were famous in a PL you are going to be something similar in this one. It just doesn't work like that of course. I too have memories of being a minor historical figure, I can't prove I was him and I have no interest in cajoling people into believing it, most of the time I find it amusing! I'm sure pretty much every soul has led a life of renown once upon a time, while other times we've been mostly very obscure.

Again - welcome to SR, I hope you find the boards useful and helpful in your journey, if you have any problems/questions as Laurasia says - feel free to contact any of the staff here. :-)