Post by rebekah145 on Aug 4, 2012 13:01:18 GMT -5
Hello all! I've stalked the forums for a bit before jumping in. I'm nervous about being open about something like this, but I've got nothing to lose in this lifetime but lots of info from the past to gain. So here it goes!
I apologize right now, this is a long post! I’ve always been drawn to the Holocaust from a young age, but at an intellectual and emotional level no one had to tell me what it was. I was disappointed because my grandfather never liberated a concentration camp during WW2. I never felt “American” and told a classmate while looking a globe in first grade that I was “European.” I still feel that way. My entire life, people have told me I “look Jewish,” which is awkward because I’m not in this life. I have always had this interest in Judaism and Jewish culture, as does my father. I have a traditionally Jewish/Hebrew name assumed to be spelled -kah, but it’s actually spelled -cca. Even my extended family writes my name as “Rebekah.”
And then there’s the dreams. I had dreams about being part of some resistance activity, even though it was set at my present life’s middle school cafeteria. I was trying to hide some fellow students, teachers, and community members in a hidden room in the cafeteria that no one else knew about but that was in plain sight from. The dreams progressed as I had them for about two years from about 12-14. In the beginning, I remember learning of danger that was coming for certain people, and I had a duty to protect them. In my dreams I was clearly leading the resistance action and making the decisions, but I couldn’t tell if I was a member of the group I was trying to hide. I covertly made hiding plans for these people and hid them. At the end, the Nazis stormed the school, ran down the main hallway to the cafeteria because they suspected someone was harboring these persecuted people there. In this particular dream, I remember being terrified, going to the hiding place to make sure it was sealed before the Nazis came. It was safe, but I feel the Nazis captured me, and there my dreams ended when I was about 14. I had each dream more than once before moving onto the next one.
About the time I started having these dreams, I developed an interest in the Resistance. I have always been good at keeping secrets, not showing my emotions under pressure, and reading people. My games as a kid were hiding myself or other people; I always won hide and seek because I was really good at remaining hidden in places that were in plain site. I always tried to protect other people. Sometimes I would just try to hide just for the fun of it, pretending that someone was looking for me. I’ve always acted older than my age. As an adult, I work with people in crisis situations, currently in domestic violence. I am drawn to tough stuff like this and it doesn’t traumatize me. It energizes me to keep fighting.
On the other hand, I do deal with depression and anxiety. Weirdly enough it is worst in spring and summer, so I think that is some connection to personal trauma in this life or my past life. I did have an emotionally turbulent childhood. My parents both have emotional problems. My dad was born in 1943 to an American GI and I think he came into this life carrying some type of past life trauma that he hasn’t worked through. My mom was a later baby boomer and has been really traumatized in this life time alone, but I can’t help but feel she’s carrying something too. I wouldn’t doubt one or both of them had a past life tied to the Holocaust. I think there are certain people in my life I knew in that lifetime, but I don’t know if it’s my parents.
I’m still trying to figure out what role I had. I definitely know it was something related to the Holocaust and the camps, not just WW2 generally. I think I was a member of some resistance activity that was trying to rescue Jews. I think I was Jewish, or had some very close connection. I also think I was German, though Poland is fitting in somewhere as well. I don’t know how I died or if I was in the camps. I think I was a young adult, because I feel like I saw the Nazis rise to power, destroy a way of life I loved, and I made a choice to resist the Nazis as best I could. I’m not traumatized by photos of the camps, it’s like I’ve seen that before; if anything, it makes me angry and want to fight back. When I was 8 my mom showed me a graphic book with pictures from the camps, but I looked at it for hours without being terribly scared for a young child. A morbid thing I do when I am really depressed is to watch a Holocaust movie. It’s as if when I watch it, I’ve been there before and that nothing in my current life can be as traumatic as experiences during the Holocaust. If I’ve been through that, I can handle this life, and usually it’s a catharsis.
Sorry again for the lengthy ramble, congrats if you’ve made it this far! I’m only just beginning to make these connections and I haven’t done any serious channeling or readings. I don’t want to rush this. Thanks for letting me share!
I apologize right now, this is a long post! I’ve always been drawn to the Holocaust from a young age, but at an intellectual and emotional level no one had to tell me what it was. I was disappointed because my grandfather never liberated a concentration camp during WW2. I never felt “American” and told a classmate while looking a globe in first grade that I was “European.” I still feel that way. My entire life, people have told me I “look Jewish,” which is awkward because I’m not in this life. I have always had this interest in Judaism and Jewish culture, as does my father. I have a traditionally Jewish/Hebrew name assumed to be spelled -kah, but it’s actually spelled -cca. Even my extended family writes my name as “Rebekah.”
And then there’s the dreams. I had dreams about being part of some resistance activity, even though it was set at my present life’s middle school cafeteria. I was trying to hide some fellow students, teachers, and community members in a hidden room in the cafeteria that no one else knew about but that was in plain sight from. The dreams progressed as I had them for about two years from about 12-14. In the beginning, I remember learning of danger that was coming for certain people, and I had a duty to protect them. In my dreams I was clearly leading the resistance action and making the decisions, but I couldn’t tell if I was a member of the group I was trying to hide. I covertly made hiding plans for these people and hid them. At the end, the Nazis stormed the school, ran down the main hallway to the cafeteria because they suspected someone was harboring these persecuted people there. In this particular dream, I remember being terrified, going to the hiding place to make sure it was sealed before the Nazis came. It was safe, but I feel the Nazis captured me, and there my dreams ended when I was about 14. I had each dream more than once before moving onto the next one.
About the time I started having these dreams, I developed an interest in the Resistance. I have always been good at keeping secrets, not showing my emotions under pressure, and reading people. My games as a kid were hiding myself or other people; I always won hide and seek because I was really good at remaining hidden in places that were in plain site. I always tried to protect other people. Sometimes I would just try to hide just for the fun of it, pretending that someone was looking for me. I’ve always acted older than my age. As an adult, I work with people in crisis situations, currently in domestic violence. I am drawn to tough stuff like this and it doesn’t traumatize me. It energizes me to keep fighting.
On the other hand, I do deal with depression and anxiety. Weirdly enough it is worst in spring and summer, so I think that is some connection to personal trauma in this life or my past life. I did have an emotionally turbulent childhood. My parents both have emotional problems. My dad was born in 1943 to an American GI and I think he came into this life carrying some type of past life trauma that he hasn’t worked through. My mom was a later baby boomer and has been really traumatized in this life time alone, but I can’t help but feel she’s carrying something too. I wouldn’t doubt one or both of them had a past life tied to the Holocaust. I think there are certain people in my life I knew in that lifetime, but I don’t know if it’s my parents.
I’m still trying to figure out what role I had. I definitely know it was something related to the Holocaust and the camps, not just WW2 generally. I think I was a member of some resistance activity that was trying to rescue Jews. I think I was Jewish, or had some very close connection. I also think I was German, though Poland is fitting in somewhere as well. I don’t know how I died or if I was in the camps. I think I was a young adult, because I feel like I saw the Nazis rise to power, destroy a way of life I loved, and I made a choice to resist the Nazis as best I could. I’m not traumatized by photos of the camps, it’s like I’ve seen that before; if anything, it makes me angry and want to fight back. When I was 8 my mom showed me a graphic book with pictures from the camps, but I looked at it for hours without being terribly scared for a young child. A morbid thing I do when I am really depressed is to watch a Holocaust movie. It’s as if when I watch it, I’ve been there before and that nothing in my current life can be as traumatic as experiences during the Holocaust. If I’ve been through that, I can handle this life, and usually it’s a catharsis.
Sorry again for the lengthy ramble, congrats if you’ve made it this far! I’m only just beginning to make these connections and I haven’t done any serious channeling or readings. I don’t want to rush this. Thanks for letting me share!
it certainly does sound as though you were involved in the resistance during your last lifetime & have channeled that same drive & instinct to continue helping others within your current lifetime. 
