no wonder i hate the cold!

[Demi]

Dec 11, 2011 23:47:30 GMT -5 Leutnantzursee said:

I can completely relate to what you say about 'war hopping' my life before was on the Allied side as a V.A.D in France, I was also Jewish - there's irony for you!

Wow, Lizzie, so you were Jewish before! (like me!) I was a Jewish woman at some point, somewhere around Russia. Watching Fiddler On The Roof is quite deep for me!

I've always felt like war happens because of an imbalance between male and female energies (one of the main reasons in my opinion). The Jewish woman from my PL before, and other women whom I were before that, all felt very oppressed by the male domination in society which especially manifested and was enforced through religion.

And then there's Fritsi, (who, funnily enough, died in Russia) and all that pain which he had from the past. It's like now suddenly I understand his subconscious aversion to the Judeo-Christianic religions as being 'filth' in society, having had so much pain and resentment on that account from before, and why he basically respected women (altho' he was not an advocate for women's issues on the conscious level) Seeing the whole picture like that, over several incarnations, is a quite powerful experience.

And ss awful as WW2 was, it improved women's issues in the world. And that improvement had really become necessary. The whole thing is so complex, more complex than just finding the 'good and the bad guys'. Nature does this purging. We are the actors (or puppets, if you prefer) in this show. Cycle of karma.

Oh, and I do relate to the soldier dharma. Sometimes I think that one is universal, shared by all regardless of the colors of the flag; a certain kind of experience. It's like I could take the stories and just change names and places and it will all be valid. It's really not limited to one historical period.
And once I did have a PL as a soldier in Russia too!

All the best,
Demi

[Leutnantzursee]

Hi Demi :-)

Yes I was Jewish before Emil, as far as I know. :-) Its just a big hunch I have, that and seeing myself at Shabbat suppers with my grandmother in some of my recalls. I think I wasn't technically Jewish, as it came from my father, not my mother - she was Welsh. My father back then was a shipping magnate, an American (possibly of Polish/German/Yiddish extraction). I think he was ashamed of it, and wasn't observant, and having taken a 'goyim' wife, his family shunned him a bit. I think I must have grown up with similar feelings to you, over the Judaic faith, I think I was frustrated by the fact that women weren't encouraged to read the Torah and my soul had a thirst for esoteric knowledge, even back then. I love that film with Barbara Streisand - 'Yentil' for that reason I guess! So maybe some of those strange and vaguely antisemitic feelings settled in then, from the perspective of a person who felt at odds being from a mixed Jewish heritage. It's a really interesting thought Demi, that those shared 'at odds' experiences we had as Jews, provided the template for us re-emerging as Nazis.