Post by mooseroom on Dec 3, 2011 20:29:54 GMT -5
I got an e-mail about this website, and I've been thinking about it off-and-on.
The funny thing is this:
I've been volunteering at a Jewish senior home lately, and there is a woman. Mrs. B.
She has Alzheimer, I think. I speak German, and she has a German last name. I commented on it, and we started on this ww2 discussion. She told me her parent's surname, I don't know if it's real or not, but I think it is or close to being real. I started crying at some point, and she looked at me and said , "How old were you when Hitler invaded?" I wanted to answer, but I couldn't... because I knew Hitler had never phsyically invaded my life as he had invaded hers. Yet, there was this relief inside me... like "You understand.. you know what it's like."
It's since then that I've been noticing how subconsciously I'm so intertwined with the holocaust... My hebrew name (I'm a convert, so I named myself.) Is Chaya Malka... Malka is a woman who died after Matthausen's liberation.... George Jacobs talked about her in "Paperclips". I just latched onto her story, and I'm even trying to find records of her. I can't find any records, because there isn't enough information.
I find it normal, natural.. only recently to realize how strange all my attractions are.
I realize that some people look into a picture of the Jewish ghetto's the lines of people in death marches, the packed trains... and just see people in a photo... I search the faces, looking into the dark unpixilated eyes searching for something for someone.. trying to remember something that I don't know I even knew or forgot.
I needed to share that, sorry to be an unactive creeper.
BTW:
Malka, she was in her early 20's. She died after the American liberated Matthausen. She had brown hair, and spoke Yiddish. (She wasn't czech or perhaps Austrian.. not that helpful.) She died from malnutrition most likely. George Jacobs was an American solider who was going to the already liberated camp with a doctor from france.
I have e-mailed Matthausen records, but I don't have enough information. It is likely she came from another camp.
that is all I know about her, but if any of you are geniuses and are familiar with the story from Paperclips, feel free to share.
The funny thing is this:
I've been volunteering at a Jewish senior home lately, and there is a woman. Mrs. B.
She has Alzheimer, I think. I speak German, and she has a German last name. I commented on it, and we started on this ww2 discussion. She told me her parent's surname, I don't know if it's real or not, but I think it is or close to being real. I started crying at some point, and she looked at me and said , "How old were you when Hitler invaded?" I wanted to answer, but I couldn't... because I knew Hitler had never phsyically invaded my life as he had invaded hers. Yet, there was this relief inside me... like "You understand.. you know what it's like."
It's since then that I've been noticing how subconsciously I'm so intertwined with the holocaust... My hebrew name (I'm a convert, so I named myself.) Is Chaya Malka... Malka is a woman who died after Matthausen's liberation.... George Jacobs talked about her in "Paperclips". I just latched onto her story, and I'm even trying to find records of her. I can't find any records, because there isn't enough information.
I find it normal, natural.. only recently to realize how strange all my attractions are.
I realize that some people look into a picture of the Jewish ghetto's the lines of people in death marches, the packed trains... and just see people in a photo... I search the faces, looking into the dark unpixilated eyes searching for something for someone.. trying to remember something that I don't know I even knew or forgot.
I needed to share that, sorry to be an unactive creeper.
BTW:
Malka, she was in her early 20's. She died after the American liberated Matthausen. She had brown hair, and spoke Yiddish. (She wasn't czech or perhaps Austrian.. not that helpful.) She died from malnutrition most likely. George Jacobs was an American solider who was going to the already liberated camp with a doctor from france.
I have e-mailed Matthausen records, but I don't have enough information. It is likely she came from another camp.
that is all I know about her, but if any of you are geniuses and are familiar with the story from Paperclips, feel free to share.