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Post by munchenruth on Aug 10, 2011 11:37:06 GMT -5
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I remembered having some dental work ripped out when I went into the camps (just some fillings). But I just remembered something I really wish I didn't.
I just had a tooth crumble as I chewed a soft piece of bread. When I realized it happened, which has never happened in this lifetime, I KNEW EXACTLY how much pain I would be in. Not just the pain of the tooth being busted but the pain of helplessness, as I have no money for a dentist (I'm getting100/wk in unemployment and Dave is on disability).
WHY NOW!?!
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Post by rednight94 on Aug 10, 2011 13:07:18 GMT -5
I don't know the accuracy of this memory, nor do I know if I have it just because I once heard a survivor talk about something very similar, but I vaguely remember the following:
WARNING: GRAPHIC CONTENT WHICH MAY BE DIFFICULT FOR SOME TO HANDLE
In Dachau I had to help organize the bodies for cremation, and I remember grabbing one man's corpse by the arms. The problem was though he had been dead for so long that the skin on his arms rolled off when I went to drag him...
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Post by Iseke on Aug 10, 2011 14:26:43 GMT -5
For me, it's...pretty much everything that happened in the camps.
And muchenruth, oww, I hope everything's alright! I'm terrified of dentistry and issues with my teeth, and I know how hard it is to afford dentistry....best of luck to you there!
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Post by msmir on Aug 10, 2011 14:57:35 GMT -5
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Ugh yes I hate the dentist too, I hear you and yes it is very expensive, so sorry you are going through that. I have a very faint memory of this boy beside me vomiting and I even remember what the vomit looked like... this definitely contributed to the emetophobia I have in this life, but it is not everything so I know how it is having memories you wish you did not have!
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Post by msmir on Aug 10, 2011 14:58:47 GMT -5
I don't know the accuracy of this memory, nor do I know if I have it just because I once heard a survivor talk about something very similar, but I vaguely remember the following: WARNING: GRAPHIC CONTENT WHICH MAY BE DIFFICULT FOR SOME TO HANDLEIn Dachau I had to help organize the bodies for cremation, and I remember grabbing one man's corpse by the arms. The problem was though he had been dead for so long that the skin on his arms rolled off when I went to drag him... Oh gosh that is just.... no words to describe it. |
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Post by Miss Bothmann on Aug 10, 2011 17:34:40 GMT -5
Aww, I am so sorry about your dental issues. I completely understand what you are going through hon, as I have no medical coverage either. Good luck.  Memories that I hate to remember? Being away from Hans for months at a time. Hearing all of the air raids constantly. Knowing how Anna died..*shivers* Never had my child with Hans.  |
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Post by rednight94 on Aug 11, 2011 8:20:48 GMT -5
Thank you SS3. Though I think it's interesting to see how much it seems to disturb both you and Mismir. It really doesn't bother me that much. I suppose I got use to dealing with bodies. Don't like them very much now though. |
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Post by msmir on Aug 11, 2011 13:38:49 GMT -5
Thank you SS3. Though I think it's interesting to see how much it seems to disturb both you and Mismir. It really doesn't bother me that much. I suppose I got use to dealing with bodies. Don't like them very much now though. That is good rednight... well there are two very popular and graphic websites that are all about how bodies decompose after death. Yep and they are POPULAR! High traffic and page ranks, oh my geez....and why??? lol... someone must enjoy looking at that...but there is so much curiosity too...so I guess it makes sense...maybe...Sometimes I contemplate whether or not to build some guts to visit it.... not to be morbid but for the sake of my daughter. She has an intense interest in umm well how bodies decay after death. And she was my mother in my last life who survived the Holocaust but died 2 years later. She had to also take care of bodies and this must be it.... she is now 9 and starting to get some basic memories....ugh... well the reason I should one day get the guts to go to one of those sites is because...I have a strong feeling when she wants to face up to things and look at it (I sense she will) she will need my help and that means me being there if she has to look at it *gulp*.. |
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Post by rednight94 on Aug 11, 2011 13:45:29 GMT -5
Out of curiosity, what are the names of those sites? Yeah, I wonder if having a bit of a gruesome curiosity is nothing unusual after having to do something like that... I wish your daughter and you the best of luck!
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Post by msmir on Aug 11, 2011 14:11:36 GMT -5
I will PM that to you ... and thanks  |
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Post by rednight94 on Aug 11, 2011 15:59:25 GMT -5
Got it! |
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Post by Laurasia on Aug 11, 2011 17:14:14 GMT -5
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Oh goodness there are PLENTY of things I wish that I didn't remember....Shooting unarmed people, torturing & killing prisoners, the feeling of losing my mind, the realization that I had lost Anna once & for all (& in such a terrible manner). Definitely lots that I would rather not remember.
Sincerely,
Laurasia
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Post by sarque on Aug 11, 2011 20:19:18 GMT -5
There are a couple things I wish I didn't remember... one thing I wish I didn't remember quite so *well* is being shot down. That was the first memory I had from that lifetime and I had nightmares about it from a very young age. It wasn't even until recently that I was able to access memories beyond that.
It was very traumatic to have that dream almost every night and not to be able to contextualize it. Now that I have more memories about that life it doesn't bother me quite so much, but it still does feel very real and I often wake up very upset.
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Post by Iseke on Aug 13, 2011 15:52:12 GMT -5
Morbid and Graphic!That is good rednight... well there are two very popular and graphic websites that are all about how bodies decompose after death. Yep and they are POPULAR! High traffic and page ranks, oh my geez....and why??? lol... someone must enjoy looking at that...but there is so much curiosity too...so I guess it makes sense...maybe...Sometimes I contemplate whether or not to build some guts to visit it.... not to be morbid but for the sake of my daughter. She has an intense interest in umm well how bodies decay after death. And she was my mother in my last life who survived the Holocaust but died 2 years later. She had to also take care of bodies and this must be it.... she is now 9 and starting to get some basic memories....ugh... well the reason I should one day get the guts to go to one of those sites is because...I have a strong feeling when she wants to face up to things and look at it (I sense she will) she will need my help and that means me being there if she has to look at it *gulp*..
I no longer feel the pull to watch or view those things anymore, although it still interests and disgusts me.
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Post by brotkrume on Aug 13, 2011 21:56:29 GMT -5
Sadly, the nearest teaching facility is over an hour away and woefully understaffed/funded. She was able to get a local dentist to look at it and put it on a dental credit card she was approved for when her crown unseated. The tooth will have to be pulled and the one next to it will have a root canal after the extraction heals. The only surgeon that can do this under light sedation (she HAS to be sedated for extractions. Hmmm, I wonder why.). However, he couldn't give us a price, and she's already blown 275 out of a 500 limit. I hope she can extract at the visit she has scheduled. We just want it over with. The narcotics she's been placed on make her dizzy and sleep all day. She, as well as I, miss her coherency.
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