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Guilt
Jul 10, 2011 22:47:11 GMT -5
Post by rednight94 on Jul 10, 2011 22:47:11 GMT -5
I thought it would be interesting to post this here for us all. Talk about the things you feel guilty in this life that are related to our PLs during the Third Reich. This thread differs from the norm a bit as it is not guilt for what you may have done then, but guilt for something you may like or do now, but brings up negative memories from the past, If that makes any sense. Let me give an example: I'm bisexual in this life (thought I lean more towards men, sexually) but I have a terrible guilt as I'm highly attracted to very 'Aryan' (Hitler's word, not mine!) looking men. I feel like I should be ashamed of myself and that I shouldn't let myself be so infatuated with such people. Which is really quite irrational, but it can't be helped. Whenever I see one, the word 'Aryan' pops in my head. I literally can't help but to start thinking of Hitler's supposed 'superior race,' and it makes me feel awful. I feel guilty...! And I believe I was a Holocaust victim in my last life, so you would think I would have a disliking towards Aryan looking people... I try not to let it get in the way much though, because to my mind that's a point for the Nazis; making me worry about such unimportant physical features. Anywho, just thought I'd share!
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Guilt
Jul 11, 2011 10:58:41 GMT -5
Post by doctorwhat on Jul 11, 2011 10:58:41 GMT -5
i feel bad (not necessarily guilty, but more like i feel kinda bad) that i'm overly proud of my German heritage my green eyes, (used to be til i started dying it) blondish-red hair, being white. that kinda stuff. i feel guilty if i go into a synagogue or talk to Jewish people. i always have. i'd had Jewish friends, but i'd feel totally uncomfortable around them. weirdly i'm not attracted to the Aryan ideal - the blond hair blue eyed guys lol. i go to the opposite direction, toward the Eastern European looking guys w/ the dark hair and darker eyes. my PL had a thing for the darker-haired females too. dunno if it's connected tho. but it doesnt guilt me. just thought i'd add that in cuz i think it's interesting about you and SS3 being attracted to the "Aryan" guys, and i'm opposite. i feel guilty for feeling nothing but guilt over the Holocaust when i look at photos or watch a documentary or videos on it. i dont feel sorry for the people, which makes me feel guilty. i feel guilty that it happened. so yah...that makes me feel guilty because i look at it and kind of like the kid who got caught stealing from the cookie jar feeling. more feel bad for being caught but not for the people that it happened to. which yah...to reuse what i said, makes me feel REALLY guilty i feel guilty for liking all things Nazi and SS. i'm not repulsed by the Nazi stuff. i gravitate toward it. swastikas, SS runes, eagles, etc. i'm pretty much sure if it wasnt so frowned upon i'd have a huge collection of the stuff. when i found a Nazi water policeman's badge on the street in front of an antique shop, i was like "OMG!! TREASURE!!" and took it. haha. but it makes me feel guilty for feeling nostalgic and pride when i see on documentaries all the Nazis marching thru the streets in their Nazi parades w/ the swastika flags i feel guilty for wanting to go to different concentration camps, not to pay tribute to the victims and what happened, but i wanna go there to see what it looks like in person now. and see what it feels like, and see what *I* feel like in the camps now. which makes me feel guilty. i dont think i was the best person for my PL to be born into to fix his karma. probably a bad mistake on his part to choose me lol
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Guilt
Jul 16, 2011 17:52:39 GMT -5
Post by Laurasia on Jul 16, 2011 17:52:39 GMT -5
I'd have to say guilt for not feeling personally guilty enough about what happened to the victims often enough...to put it generally. (Wow I hope that made sense to someone. LOL!) What we all need to remember though is that while it is normal for us former prepetrators to feel guilt in some way or another, it is not something that we should SEEK to do. Living a life mired down with guilt is not the reason that we have reincarnated after all. Sincerely, Laurasia
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