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Post by eiszeit on Jun 11, 2011 13:34:06 GMT -5
I have a question: can your soul block some things from your memory? Like, to the point where you really can't remember anything of what happened between certain periods of time? I'm trying to remember the camps and - aside from bits and pieces that are more about the people I met while interned there, the arrival and my death - I can't remember anything. Then again, maybe there just wasn't enough to remember. We worked, and that was it. You don't remember working if it's something you've done every day for years. Maybe he was traumatized to the point where he just can't remember what happened? I don't know. I was just wondering if anyone else has had these memory blocks. Might be an interesting discussion  |
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Post by msmir on Jun 11, 2011 13:58:42 GMT -5
Oh yes absolutely! If on a soul level you are not ready to remember something that happened that was so traumatic it will stunt soul growth by extra trauma. I strongly feel that once you are ready to remember something, you will and even if it is upsetting and you retreat for a bit.. you still are able to take it.
Interestingly enough back in 2005 I actually wanted to find a way to deal with my emetophobia because I had really young kids at that time and did not want to run away if they got sick. At this time I knew what my past life involved subconsciously but was not ready at all to remember anything from it. I went for therapy that was unsuccessful so funny enough I subconsciously knew my emetophobia was past life related but was not at all ready to really find out how it was triggered... so I found a past life regression therapist and I was successfully hypnotized and regressed to earlier parts of my current life and even a moment in the womb...but my Auschwitz life was blank! I got nothing from it and then the next thing I knew I skipped over to my Victorian life which was a very pleasant one and there were no triggers (weird thing is, when I went to that life I remembered passing away from my blue bed, flying in a tunnel and I had that exact dream when I was 7..I had forgotten about that for a while) so anyway I was very disappointed that I did not discover the cause... and the regression therapist said to me "you will find out the cause when you are ready".. so anyway, I had some readings done long after that and was told I do not need to deal with my phobia in this life since I have soooo much other stuff to deal with.. and I believe it because if you are meant to face something you will be given challenges in regards to that. My kids RARELY get sick, they are older now and would handle it themselves if they did AND my husband accepts and understands he is the single dad if it happens. I started getting some vague memories of Auschwitz in 2008 and at that point I was "mature" enough to deal with that past life... I still have fuzzy memories from it and I think a lot of it had to do with being young when killed. But yes.. you will not member anything if you are really not ready to!
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Post by Laurasia on Jun 11, 2011 15:26:01 GMT -5
Hi Eiszeit.
As MsMir stated, if you are not ready to deal with particular memories you will not remember them. That being said though, there is much to be said about something you brought up...If every day is essentially the same, what really is there to remember after you have remembered a single day?
This in & of itself could point to something needing to be resolved though as the very fact that the days within such a place may have blurred together within your consciousness due to psychological damage incurred during that lifetime. And let's face it, psychological damage was rampant within the camps.
So, basically, your not being able to remember day-to-day life within the camps may mean nothing or it could mean a lot. You will have to wait & see unfortunately.
Sincerely,
Laurasia
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Post by Miss Bothmann on Jun 11, 2011 21:06:19 GMT -5
There are some things that I want to remember so bad when I am meditating on my past lives, but I always seem to run into a brick wall. If I try to hard, my head will literally hurt in the 3rd eye chakra until I back off. Like msmir said, if you are not able to remember it, chances are there are reasons that your soul won't let you "see it".
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Post by Storm on Jun 12, 2011 9:30:43 GMT -5
I am actively trying to block recall right now to be honest. The last thing I want is a flashback to discussions with the Reichsfuhrer or Eichmann at the minute!
I do still get these surreal feelings though, even though I am actively trying to block all this out a lot of the time. I will just come over feeling the 'frequency' or vibe of the era, if that makes sense? It is terribly hard to describe. But all of a sudden I will feel this tremendous sense of wonder and awe and connection to certain things. And the only thing I can compare it to are the effects of a drug. Where at the time one feels almost high and in awe, but when it subsides it's like a big downer. I am not a hardened drugs user, lol. But that is the only way to describe it. Although it is similar also to a spiritual high. Although I find that paradoxical, in that I am contemptuous on a conscious level of some of what meant so much to this guy, (Reich wise), and yet deep within me it resonates so very deeply that it really does move my being to its spiritual core. Certain triggers bring these senses of connection to the era especially. Like photos of that huge Swastika at the Zeppelin Stadium at Nuremberg, listening to Carmina Burana and seeing anything remotely looking like Alpine architecture.
Recently I have been getting it without any obvious trigger. It can affect me anywhere. Even in official settings, like meetings. I will just suddenly become engulfed by a feeling and flash back to something, usually very trivial seeming, like a room, a wall, a flash of walking a long with somebody. The most disturbing has involved the distant sound of machine gun fire, which I have had a number of times now.
I do not want to actively court recall of this person. Although maybe I really should? Maybe I should try to stop blocking this as I invariably start to feel sick and jittery and stressed out when I have been in serious denial for a few days and push away everything to do with this. I start to feel a deep grief and an unease and a compulsion to 'fact find' about certain things after having these periods of conscioulsy blocking the process.
I will be left, after one of these bizarre incidents obsessing about something utterly random like the financial implications of a meeting Eichmann had with the forerunners of what became Mossad or whether Schellenberg ever fed Daluege information about 'me' behind 'my' back(!)
edited due to typos, grrrr!
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Post by Miss Bothmann on Jun 15, 2011 13:20:31 GMT -5
Yes, hon, I would definitly give that a try if I were you. Stop resisting it so much, and see if the transition is easier for you. You may find that the memories will come through without so much personal attachment to them. Sometimes when I let be and "go with the flow" as it were, I find that I can view my recollections in an almost 3rd person perspective. I can watch the events happening as if watching a movie...therefore feeling no extreme emotion off it. I find that when I intentionally try to block memories from happening it usually happens the way you describe. I either feel physically sick, I get a sudden urge to drop everything and meditate, my 3rd eye will burn until I let whatever is trying to come through come through, or the memories will surface somehow in my dreams anyways...usually not in a pleasant way. So, yeah, just try to relax and let the memories come naturally. I hope that things get better for you. |
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Post by gumby on Jun 19, 2011 22:47:59 GMT -5
My experience is that the past life memories come back in bits and pieces, not necessarily in sequential order either, so it is difficult to put it all together, but not impossible. It often takes time for the memories to come, just brief flashes of a place where you've been or something you did. You did not spend your entire life in that camp, perhaps only a short part of it, so there could be other memories that you have not yet associated with this particular life.
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Post by eiszeit on Jun 20, 2011 18:25:06 GMT -5
My experience is that the past life memories come back in bits and pieces, not necessarily in sequential order either, so it is difficult to put it all together, but not impossible. It often takes time for the memories to come, just brief flashes of a place where you've been or something you did. You did not spend your entire life in that camp, perhaps only a short part of it, so there could be other memories that you have not yet associated with this particular life. The same thing happens when I remember things, too, actually! They're all jumbled and mixed up, rarely are they in order and even rarer do I have actual dates... I still don't know my/his birthday, nor the birthday of his lover, sister, father or mother. The only reason I know Lover's death day and birthday is because I stumbled across it on a website. I wish I could say otherwise, but I've never been good with numbers to begin with. :\ You're right; I spent only a short segment of my life in the camps. I'm guessing a year or two, but that's just a guess. It could've been longer, it could've been shorter. It feels like both at the same time, i that makes any sense. I do have some memories from before the camps. Actually, they're the majority of my memories. I just haven't really spoken about any of them on this forum because... well, I'm not entirely sure how to explain them yet. XD |
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Post by Laurasia on Jun 25, 2011 16:26:45 GMT -5
Hi Eiszeit. Well if you ever do feel as though you are able to share such memories we would be more than happy to hear them. Sincerely, Laurasia |
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Post by eiszeit on Jun 27, 2011 0:21:17 GMT -5
Hi Eiszeit. Well if you ever do feel as though you are able to share such memories we would be more than happy to hear them. Sincerely, Laurasia Thank you. I hope I can get to that point, where I'm confident enough to share these memories. |
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