Being Lonely

[sarque]

Sometimes, this life, I get this overwhelming sense of loneliness. I'm not sure how to characterize it, except to say that I desperately miss some of the people from my most recent past life. Because we flew together, and were in the war together, we had a connection that I think was deeper than a lot of the connections I have in this life. The three of them and I were like brothers--two of them died during the war, and it really affected me. Still does, when I think about it.

I guess why I'm so lonely is I haven't met these people in this life yet. At least, not that I know of, and even if I did, I'm not sure I'd recognize them. I know people have met their past life friends and loved ones in this life, and that must help with the loneliness a lot. As it is, I feel like part of me is missing because they're not here with me.

I think a lot about what they'd be like. I wonder if their personalities would be the same. Mine is somewhat similar, although not identical. Would they even recognize me?

Maybe it's pointless to feel this kind of loneliness. I don't know, but it's like that homesickness for somewhere I've never been, at least in this life.

[kapitanprien]

I experience the same thing - and this is exacerbated because I don't have my 'true' family and 'true' friends like I had back then, unlike people who are reincarnated by birth.

I totally understand the feeling of 'a part/piece is missing'.

The people I long for the most would be my wife (from when I was a Finnish sea captain), my daughters from my second marriage, my half-sister from back then, and at the moment that's all I feel a longing for...a desire to reconnect.

So...I totally understand, empathize and sympathize with you. It's been like this ever since I came into this body. Some nights, I would lay in bed and cry because I missed my family so much.

Edit: This is a big reason why I'm practically terrified of starting a relationship - due to being a 'walk-in'. I mean, I know that many people are 'comfortable' with reincarnation by birth, but I can just imagine some conversation going in a direction where...I will have no other option but to tell them that I am a 'walk-in'.

[msmir]

Thankfully I have my daughter who was my mother in my last life but I really miss my past life sister, Tabitha from my Victorian life. I was not a nice person and did not like anyone but I loved her and she was close to me. We had other close connections in other lifetimes. I know I see her in astral when I sleep and I know she is coming back in the next incarnation as a best friend, but my daughter in this life, another close connection who I have had many other lifetimes with will not be there And I am sure I will know it.

[Storm]

I am so lucky as most of the people I am close to were with me in other lifetimes, mainly in the 18th C one.

I am strangely opposite. I mostly feel better alone, except for those people. In fact I am exploring a concept that RH is more of a twin flame/soul and that integrating and merging will make me feel truly whole. In some ways it is just as hard when you are so self sufficient, lol.

I used to be upset that I would go into the great unknown someday without a deep love that I am aware exists. I have never found that withe a partner. And besides, unless a partner turns out to be one's twin flame and you merge, one still goes into the great unknown alone. In fact I would say it's worse when you have been co-dependent as parting is harder.

Since finding out about my new situation I have been through a roller coaster of emotions. But one emotion is coming thourgh overwhelmingly, and that is a feeling of the deepest love I have ever known, next to the love of those members of my soul family I am with, including my kids. So if I go off into the darkness of death oneday with this new love in my heart I will truly feel able to light my path as I travel. and maybe find communion with creation, as in that pure original state of sheer love and joy again.

I do understand what it is like to miss comrades, especially as close friendships are formed in military situations. I have met one person who feels they were in the SS and knew my soul there. He's a crazy guy, lol.

But ultimately I believe that if you feel tremedous love for them you will be more likely to vibrate back together again at some point. Your frequencies will resonate with theirs and you will hopefully get some confirmation that you maybe knew people before as they come into your life as you venture on. Wishing you so much luck with that, hon. xx

[Iseke]

*huge hug* That is truly beautiful!

I do not feel lonely as I am surrounded by my soul family and soul friends, people I've met along the way. Honestly, it's like a reunion or cast party! (Morbid, but a few of us here joke that when we are together it's like a Buchenwald reunion party, in a good way at least! I am very lucky to have met some of the people I knew there through this board!)

But really, I know I need my soul family with me now. Also, I bet that just the fact that you are aware of these people will bring them to you, whether they are incarnate or not, so you won't have to wait long to find them again!

[Laurasia]

I have to admit that (in regards to Hans' life at least) I don't have that sense of being alone since I have reincarnated with his fiance again in this life. (We have been life partners in the vast majority of our incarnations too!) His fiance was the only person that he was really close with back then, so I have trouble thinking of anyone else that he would miss so dearly. LOL!

Sincerely,
Laurasia

[Miss Bothmann]

I do not really have anyone that I long for either, considering that I have met up once again with the one person that I have incarnated with countless times. Of course, I had other people that I was close with in other loves..I recently discovered that one of my closest friends from a past life is actually my spirit guide now.

[eiszeit]

If it makes you feel any better, sarque, I feel it too. I have to say, I was happier with myself and who I was before the KZ. I had a good family, a good safe job, someone I loved and would have done absolutely anything for... I feel like, if the KZ hadn't happened, we would've survived the war and would've died together. But... as you can see, that didn't happen and I'm stuck here. Yay.

I found my sister already, and I'm very happy I have. She's helped me through some rough patches and we tell each other everything. She misses things from her past lives (our family, her best friend, her husband, her son, etc.), so I can talk with her about the longing/loneliness if all else fails.

I want to meet my lover from back then, but I'm also apprehensive. Too many worries! My main one is that I kind of view myself as "damaged goods" after all that happened in the KZ. Yeah, I know, I'm not exactly being positive about this. But at least I'm being realistic. :\

[sarque]

You know, seeing that so many people have found people from their previous lives does give me hope that it will happen. Your kind words all mean so much to me--I do hope that because I feel such love for these people, I will find them in this life. And even if we're different, I know that our souls are the same. That's important, and I'm glad I've been reminded of that. I'm so happy for everyone who has found someone.

For those of you who feel this loneliness, too, I'm glad to know that people can relate, but sad at the same time, that people have to feel that way. I do know how difficult it is... and I have to admit, I've cried about it too, missing those people. Funny thing is, when I knew them back then, they would have mocked me for crying about anything

I know I just have to have faith that I will find them. It is hard, though, to keep that faith, when it feels like you're alone in some ways.

[kapitanprien]

Same here Sarque...same here. Right now my focus is on taking care of myself, and I feel that when it happens...it happens. I just have to let it happen.