My 'Disclaimer'

[Storm]

Kapitan, you must have really loved your life to have come back in the way you did, so that you did not lose all your memories at birth. That;s awesome that you came back in this way, though it must be real hard too, as you describe. My dear Gran also said that the body is like an outfit. Sometimes we do not feel comfortable in an outfit we have from birth so to get into a second hand one must be really weird! I found it hard enough being a female in this life, but at least my smell and stuff are mine and not someone elses.

Truth be known I quite like my outfit, although it needs some slight alterations, lol!

My frustration right now is with RH's feelings, as I said before. I am sooo in love with Lina it is terrible. and I am eaten up with stuff over how unfaithful to her I was. Me being me that is a real distraction from the type of 'life, the universe and everthing' stuff I usually like to occupy my mind with, ha ha. It's a real drag! I will try those essences though, and thanks again for that info. x

[kapitanprien]

Kapitan, you must have really loved your life to have come back in the way you did, so that you did not lose all your memories at birth.

I did and I respected life too. While there are many books and images showing me smiling, etc. with being a U-Boat commander - sadly not many seem to know about this side of me:

This is from my U-Boat Site ( priens-u-boat-site.webs.com/regardingmeinweg.htm ):

"News of the English edition, he [Weymar] wrote, had come as 'an extremely disagreeable surprise' and his letter went on: 'In my view a new edition of such books can be justified only when they are placed firmly on the basis of historical truth...

'In Prien's case, one is duty-bound in my opinion to correct demonstrably false facts - the account of the Scapa Flow mission was 'touched up' in the 1940 on understandable military grounds - and also to clarify those other aspects of the war at sea which are given insufficient expression, to say the least, by the juvenile and aggressive style of this book for boys, the hardships and horrors of the U-boat war, which Prien also discovered but was unable to voice at the time.

'I recall one statement which he made to me in confidence: "When I saw the first burning tanker in front of me and thought of the wretched hundreds of men perishing in this dome of flames, I felt like a murderer before the scene of his crime." It should be an obligation to include this and similar utterances in a new edition, also from the point of view of Prien's memory.'

That;s awesome that you came back in this way, though it must be real hard too, as you describe. My dear Gran also said that the body is like an outfit. Sometimes we do not feel comfortable in an outfit we have from birth so to get into a second hand one must be really weird! I found it hard enough being a female in this life, but at least my smell and stuff are mine and not someone elses.


Yes it is really weird - like that saying 'being in this world, but not of this world'...that's how it feels. The hardest years were the early ones of course. It has only been recent that I've been able to get the situation so that there is less of the prior soul's life and more of my life! The next big thing I feel is moving away and hopefully being in a relationship with my first wife. I don't care to live someone else's life when it isn't mine to live.

Truth be known I quite like my outfit, although it needs some slight alterations, lol!

Mine could use some too - like some more weight. Things are getting better though.

My frustration right now is with RH's feelings, as I said before. I am sooo in love with Lina it is terrible. and I am eaten up with stuff over how unfaithful to her I was. Me being me that is a real distraction from the type of 'life, the universe and everything' stuff I usually like to occupy my mind with, ha ha. It's a real drag! I will try those essences though, and thanks again for that info. x

You feel guilty that you couldn't spend more time with her because of having been caught up in all that you were back then? If that is so, I tend to feel the same way to an extent with having been unable to have spent more time with the lady who was my first wife because of having to have been out at sea in order to earn my captain's 'ticket'.

[Storm]

I feel guilty because I was mega unfaithful.....

[kapitanprien]

Ah I see. Have you tried to understand/examine what may have been the root of the unfaithfulness?

[kapitanprien]

I think it goes back to being insecure.

I would have to agree with you on that.

Not that RH would EVER have acknowledged that to himself at the time! Feeling like a misfit and being pretty lonely in youth I guess. But then Lina was pregnant a lot and....well...you know...! Hm. Doesn't make it right though. In truth I actually think that it may have been born from my other lifetime where I had the most unfulfilling celibate marriage to a woman who was alawys ill and only ever ended up stumbling morally once in 42 years! Of course the reason I did not stumble then was because my seed, to put it crudely, was very precious to me, I had Baronies and one of the richest estates in England. And I made the mistake of siring a son I could never legitimise at 19 in that life which haunts me to this day. Having all that and no heir to leave it to, beyond a bitter spinster daughter who hated me, lol.

This is definitely understandable and I think one of the other root problems that interfere with any relationships you would want to have now (should you want that) with men.

I think in the more liberal age of the SS ideology, where my seed was positively sought after,it gave me the green light for the sexual release that I had never had in my other lifetime. So I guess it was a reaction once again to past life stuff in a a way. But that's my excuse. Maybe I was just a b*****d?!

I don't see it as an excuse. I see it as one extreme being 'balanced' by another extreme. If something is repressed to such an extent it will manifest itself somehow at some point.

[Storm]

Yes, Kapitan, that makes sense.

I am not sure if I will ever have another relationship, though I do miss that warmth between two people, of whatever sex, who are in love. That is something I actually wouldn't mind doing remedial work on. Isn't the Australian Bush Flower essence good for relationship issues? I want to spend the next year or so sorting myself out so maybe I will have a relationship again some day.

[kapitanprien]

I understand re/ the warmth between two people - that connection that goes beyond the 'base physical' (not that the physical is 'evil'/'bad' or 'wrong' and should be shunned and denied!) - my point is about two people in a sexual relationship that goes beyond 'just sex for the sake of sex'.

The Red Suvi Frangipani that I mentioned is...well here is the description:

Negative Condition:
• initial grief, sadness and upset of either a relationship at rock bottom or of the death of a loved one
•emotional upheaval, turmoil and rawness

Positive Outcome:
• feeling calm and nurtured
• inner peace and strength to cope

The Essence of this deep blood red Frangipani was made on the coast near Darwin in the Northern Territory. It is unusual in that it does not have the sweet aromatic quality of other Frangipanis but rather a very heavy, musky odour. Its common name in the Pacific is "Bleeding Heart Frangipani". This Essence addresses the great emotional intensity, difficulty and hardship that people can go through when a relationship is ending, close to ending or going through a very "rocky" period.

It can also be taken for the enormous initial pain and sadness of the loss of a loved one. The person can be feeling greatly disturbed, not suicidal as in the case of Waratah, but torn apart by the event or situation. Sturt Desert Pea deals with unresolved grief from the past.




Perhaps healing the pain from your relationship from back then - this essence helping in that healing - will help you move on and enjoy any opportunities now.