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Post by Miss Bothmann on Jan 4, 2011 16:57:35 GMT -5
Hello raphael and welcome to the site. Wow, I see that we have another resident astrology lover in our midst.  |
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Post by munchenruth on Aug 4, 2011 11:40:45 GMT -5
Can't stand vomit I sleep like a worm as if there's no space on the bed. Barbwire and railway track in my recurring dream. Strong reaction when I see Auschwitz photos I like Jews and Star of David has always attracted me. Can't take hot or cold shower, when I see steam in the bathroom I freak out, can't touch cold water and can't tolerate cold or extremely hot weather, I like moderate climate. I was born and brought up in a place where the temperature used to be below minus in Winter but I have never been able to tolerate the cold. I panic in crowds so always avoid it. I don't like to be touched much. I, too, have had these experiences, but the crowds are down to just anxious annoyance. I can't stand excruciating high temperatures either. I have a horrendous phobia of gas masks, especially those with front and hose-linked respirators. I hate being dirty, especially my feet, and being any sort of naked where I could potentially be seen (it took me months to be comfortable naked with my husband--this was after we were married). If I feel any bit of hunger, I immediately eat and potentially gorge. I am very overweight in this life. Further, I have always felt like I've never fit in my family. I even fantasized that they adopted me and never told me. I know it's not true--I look too much like deceased family members, especially one of my paternal great uncles. Being able to find where our current quirks come from help us know what they are and give us something to name when choosing to fight it/improve ourselves. Having places like this to work through these things help us grow and learn and remember. Thank you for pointing this out, Raphael. |
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Post by rednight94 on Aug 4, 2011 23:15:20 GMT -5
I have 5 retrograde planets in my natal chart, is it common amongst the Reincarnated Holocaust Victims? Can't stand vomit I sleep like a worm as if there's no space on the bed. Terribly Claustrophobic, can't use elevator, public loo(fearing that I will get locked and die ). Barbwire and railway track in my recurring dream. I see myself with some other people in an open jeep(recurring dream). When I was a child I used to get worried in the night thinking someone would come and take me away. Strong reaction when I see Auschwitz photos I like Jews and Star of David has always attracted me. Can't take hot or cold shower, when I see steam in the bathroom I freak out, can't touch cold water and can't tolerate cold or extremely hot weather, I like moderate climate. I was born and brought up in a place where the temperature used to be below minus in Winter but I have never been able to tolerate the cold. I panic in crowds so always avoid it. I don't like to be touched much. I don't have a problem with seeing other people vomit, but when I'm sick I could cry whenever I feel it coming. I think that's probably fairly normal though. So, I don't personally have a fear of vomit. Sleeping like a worm? Well, I'm guessing this means you squirm a lot? If so, I can relate. People hated sleeping with me when I was little because I would kick them and take up all of the room! I would lie across the bed, too... I love steamy, hot showers. I actually find steam in dim light very relaxing... I have an extreme tolerance for cold weather that nobody I know understands. Now, hot weather I absolutely hate. I'm not very fond of crowds either. Just thought I'd share! |
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Post by doctorwhat on Aug 5, 2011 9:12:11 GMT -5
i have 2 retrogrades - Mercury and Neptune. but i'm thinking applies more to the life between my SS and this one  i have no fear of vomit or of vomiting. but i never do vomit. sometimes i think i'd feel better if i COULD do it, but i just never do. and i dont care when others do it, it doesnt bother me. but i worked in the camps, i wasnt an inmate. it's interesting how many of the people who were imprisoned in the camps have a fear of it in this life. i think it's interesting. |
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Post by msmir on Aug 5, 2011 23:49:09 GMT -5
i have 2 retrogrades - Mercury and Neptune. but i'm thinking applies more to the life between my SS and this one i have no fear of vomit or of vomiting. but i never do vomit. sometimes i think i'd feel better if i COULD do it, but i just never do. and i dont care when others do it, it doesnt bother me. but i worked in the camps, i wasnt an inmate. it's interesting how many of the people who were imprisoned in the camps have a fear of it in this life. i think it's interesting. You were born with Mercury rx, well you actually would do well now since it is happening now. And yes, Neptune rx here too. I don't think I have encountered too many reincarnated Nazis with emetophobia but I could be wrong on this. But oh my yes, very common phobia among reincarnated victims. Other than seeing it and being sick during the torture, if they died in the gas chamber many of them did vomit while dying and if that is the last memory they had... then that will most definitely affect you if your past life involved that. And fear of others comes from seeing others dying and being sick and just being sick while going through the torture. It is also the 7th most common phobia in the world... and a large percentage of that I am sure consists of reincarnated Holocaust victims. |
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Post by empathicus on Sept 10, 2011 15:17:31 GMT -5
Hey there, I have 6 retrogrades in my natal chart. Mars, Mercury, Jupiter, Saturn, Uranus, and Pluto. And then by progression Neptune as well.
I had a past life reading done by a man who does Edgar Caycee style readings for health remedies or multiple past lives etc. What i learned about 4 different past lives that are heavily effecting my karma now has changed everything for me by opening up a world of understanding.
So about my most recent past life then.
I was a nazi soldier who died at 20 years of age after recognizing that what we were doing was something awful that couldn't be justified and realizing that war is always a lie, fought for the regional pride of men in their ignorance. I killed some men before i died and my soul was horrified.
The retrogrades definitely are there to force us to face certain issues over and over until we make the correct changes to our own personal beliefs views and ideals. And that actually sounds a lot easier than it is. For example, since i really hate myself, and always have (in this incarnation) its hard to form the correct beliefs and ideals because i already believe i will fail and am a failure no matter how much i have tried to believe otherwise. With 5 or 6 birth retro's you and I have enough past life karma on our plate that theres a real good chance we aren't gonna get it all resolved in this incarnation. But hey, with all those planets involved we actually have a variety of options as to which part of ourselves to heal making it likely that we will succeed at some of it and progress is progress.
I'm not sure which planets you have retro but ive read that if you have mars retro like me ( which is quite rare ) you very likely were on the side that did awful things you now regret. I literally found a past life astrology site that had mars retrograde listed to very likely mean that you were a nazi in your last life.
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Post by empathicus on Sept 10, 2011 15:22:04 GMT -5
P.S. It's very likely that having that many retrograde planets has to do with karma from multiple past lives and very unlikely that all of that comes from just one. peace |
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Post by rednight94 on Sept 11, 2011 0:19:11 GMT -5
How does one find retrogrades in their natal charts, out of curiosity?
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Post by empathicus on Sept 11, 2011 13:14:27 GMT -5
Wow you guys are on to something with the Neptune retrograde thing. Mine went retrograde in the last few years and i totally had my dreams and ambitions for this life crushed out of me, i literally don't allow myself to want anything from this life now as far as goals, achievments, status, sucess, it was made very clear to me that i can't have those things in ways that hurt so bad i thought i might die and i swore id never let myself have dreams again. So on a good note though, i now sit broken, totally open to whatever my soul wants me to do to deal with my karma and spiritual issues etc.
SS3 i feel for you with the venus retrograde issue. My only non retrograde planet is venus and the one and only saving grace in my life is my soulmate wife who holds me together sometimes and our wonderful 2 boys who i can live for more completely now that i have no interest in trying to do anything with myself. I think my wife may have saved my life, and she is intrumental to my spiritual viewpoint expanding from the narrow prison of torture it was before I met her.
You are stronger than i am and have carried on with self imposed isolation even from a loving partner. I'm sorry you feel unworthy of love, strangely i often do too but there was this magic karmic phase in my life where suddenly something pushed me to go looking for a partner and i was guided by a feeling of pure faith. When I met my wife i fell in love very fast and had no doubts. And later when all my serious issues started erupting out to my dismay , she helped me and loved me and didnt reject me or abandon me to my great supprise. I thank God for her constantly. Being married to me is really not easy at all sometimes and has learned more and more how to deal with my insane emotions in a positive way. I dont feel like i deserve such love and i am constantly in fear that it'll be taken away. I've even freaked out and tried to self destruct our relationship but she held us together which blows my mind.
I must admit i hope this happens for you as well at age 50 or otherwise. One thing i know, you do deserve love, even if you cant feel that way. I love you friend, I pray you have an angel sent to you to save you from yourself when the time is right.
And your post just above about war, Amen
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Post by doctorwhat on Sept 11, 2011 15:29:03 GMT -5
I am very interested in what Msmir said in an earlier post on this thread about a lot of reincarnated Holocaust victims having Neptune retrograde because their dreams were snatched away. I wonder how many reincarnated Nazis also have this? I have this aspect myself. Many Nazis and WWII era Germans in general who pinned their hopes on the Reich to deliver them to a perceived utopia may also have this. It would be really interesting to do a study actually and compare the charts of victims to Nazis. i've got Neptune retrograde in my natal chart and Mercury. and when i looked at my chart online, i have tons of planets in conjunction w/ each other - they all line up perfectly on my chart. all in just a few houses - mainly 10th, 11th, and 12th. with a couple stragglers in 8 and 9. and then 1 in the 1st house. but the largest concentration in 10th. and i have no idea what that means w/ past lives. i know quite a bit about natal chart astrology, just not past life (or future, for lack of better word) astrology. |
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Post by Laurasia on Sept 11, 2011 17:25:02 GMT -5
I've never had an astrological chart done, but I did want to reply to one thing mentioned in this discussion..... No you are not a failure dear...you're simply a flawed human being just like the rest of us.   Sincerely, Laurasia |
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Post by empathicus on Sept 11, 2011 20:00:00 GMT -5
SS3 I'll bet people have always told you that you are too hard on yourself haven't they? I would say thaqt too but i understand. Our souls hold us to a high standard and it hurts to see where you've done what you so regret. One thing that came to mind while reading your post was what Robert Blond told me after he did my reading. He said we have all done terrible and wonderful things in our other lives (and we are supposedly talking 100's to thousands of incarnations). He said even Jesus was running around sticking people full of arrows etc. back in other incarnations. Also we have all had horrible things done to us in other lives as well. Many of have been burned alive for such things as picking herbs or speaking the truth etc. I believe we have to learn this way. I don't like that but it seems to be true. And he also implied that we all get to play all the different kinds of roles abused, abuser etc. There was no judgement on me from the place he got the records of my lives. The judgement on me is my own. And as you know it can be really harsh. Maybe one day when we can finally trully forgive ourselves and everyone else we will be out of this karmic cycle and on to better things somewhere else. I think we are all prodigle children and our vast expirience of the ups and downs and ins and outs of this blind, lost, seperated, expirience of life is really valuable to take back to our creator, source, God or whatever eventually when we have developed our love enough to move above this mess. It must be true because theres bound to be a good reason we have to go through all these expiriences and make our own mistakes and victories. Y
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Post by empathicus on Sept 11, 2011 20:02:31 GMT -5
I've never had an astrological chart done, but I did want to reply to one thing mentioned in this discussion..... No you are not a failure dear...you're simply a flawed human being just like the rest of us. Sincerely, Laurasia thank you:) |
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Post by empathicus on Sept 11, 2011 20:04:11 GMT -5
sorry that Y at the end of the last post is a misclick haha
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Post by empathicus on Sept 12, 2011 12:19:45 GMT -5
I enjoy your sense of humor, i know some peeps wouldn't get it but i do So you are vegetarian? I recently started eating that way myself. I only eat meat now if im like going to some family gathering dinner or something and the food is prepared, i figure i cant save that chicken or whatever so i go ahead and enjoy the occasion but as far as the food i buy for myself, i just have no desire to buy meat. I'm not judging anyone who eats meat, each ones spiritual path is different and im deffinitely not someone who thinks he's better than anyone else because of his diet. I just think for me, on a very personal level, its a part of facing the guilt i feel inside for past life deeds and doing what i can to try to heal a little bit of it by being mercifull to those with no voice to speak up for themselves. I know that meat eating is necesary for survival in many situations and only because i live in a time and place where i have other options can i make such choices. You know if a light heart is what we need to move on to better realms I'm affraid i may be stuck here for a while, you probably feel the same. Unless we are to indeed ascend in conciousness soon in a way that enables us to heal these things. I hold high hopes for such a change for all of the earths people each to their own degree ovecourse. I sure don't want us to become reptiles for having heavy hearts, that sounds like a BIG setback haha. You are kind to others but harsh to yourself, i certainly understand, i don't know why its the hardest to forgive and love ourselves but it sure is. To me you are like a shinning light of goodness because thats what you radiate |
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