Post by msmir on Oct 1, 2010 12:11:11 GMT -5
Just want to let you know what I am about to say could be offensive, as I find it that way! But I need to share this!
I just can't believe this happened but I think I confirmed some suspicions I had for a long time. I realized that I, on a soul level reincarnated as a Jew in my last life to simply gain a spiritual perspective.. and I came back again as a Jew (born into a Jewish family anyway) since my life was taken away so quickly. But if that was necessarily true... wouldn't every Jewish child that died in the Holocaust come back as Jews in order to finish up what they had intended to experience? That seems to rarely have been the case. Each soul has their reasons for choosing what ethnicity or religion they are going to experience before incarnating. But I could never help but wonder if me experiencing life as a Jew being karmic as well. I hate saying that... because there never should be an issue as far as karma but here is what I wonder.
In my Victorian life, I was a total b with a capital B! I put everyone down, and sense that I made some antisemitic comments as well. And I wondered if part of my karmic lessons was to come back to experience life as a Jew since I put them down..just to put myself into their shoes. Something strange happened this morning as it is a Jewish holiday. I was driving around back into the neighborhood after running some errands and a religious Jewish man slowly walking across the path where I was driving. And I literally thought quickly... just out of no where it came to me "Hurry up Jew!"... and I had a flashback of me as Jane Townsend, which was my name in my Victorian life saying that... and I was shocked and disgusted with myself after saying that then it made me wonder if there was a karmic element to me coming into my last incarnation as a Jew and coming back into this life into a Jewish family. Just purely to experience being part of someone who I once did put down. I felt shameful for having that thought... but at the same time I can't help but wonder if there is karma to this? This sounds so odd coming from a former Holocaust victim but again.. can't help but wonder..
I just can't believe this happened but I think I confirmed some suspicions I had for a long time. I realized that I, on a soul level reincarnated as a Jew in my last life to simply gain a spiritual perspective.. and I came back again as a Jew (born into a Jewish family anyway) since my life was taken away so quickly. But if that was necessarily true... wouldn't every Jewish child that died in the Holocaust come back as Jews in order to finish up what they had intended to experience? That seems to rarely have been the case. Each soul has their reasons for choosing what ethnicity or religion they are going to experience before incarnating. But I could never help but wonder if me experiencing life as a Jew being karmic as well. I hate saying that... because there never should be an issue as far as karma but here is what I wonder.
In my Victorian life, I was a total b with a capital B! I put everyone down, and sense that I made some antisemitic comments as well. And I wondered if part of my karmic lessons was to come back to experience life as a Jew since I put them down..just to put myself into their shoes. Something strange happened this morning as it is a Jewish holiday. I was driving around back into the neighborhood after running some errands and a religious Jewish man slowly walking across the path where I was driving. And I literally thought quickly... just out of no where it came to me "Hurry up Jew!"... and I had a flashback of me as Jane Townsend, which was my name in my Victorian life saying that... and I was shocked and disgusted with myself after saying that then it made me wonder if there was a karmic element to me coming into my last incarnation as a Jew and coming back into this life into a Jewish family. Just purely to experience being part of someone who I once did put down. I felt shameful for having that thought... but at the same time I can't help but wonder if there is karma to this? This sounds so odd coming from a former Holocaust victim but again.. can't help but wonder..
