Post by whitelight on Feb 6, 2012 18:37:04 GMT -5
Hi, My english is really poor, so I will take Google translate like help.
I hope you will understand me.
I am not so young (46 years old) but throughout all my life I felt the fear and anxiety. My muscles are always tense and I am never fully relaxed. I'm surprised that I did not get a serious illness because of so much stress in such a long period of time.
I watched countless movies about the Holocaust and read any more books. This themes draws me like a magnet. The Nazis and the Jews,but especially in Poland.As you know, hundreds of thousands of Jews were murdered in Russia, Belarus, Ukraine, Hungary...( I read the books about that countries too), but only Poland is really special for me. Just now I read for the third time(!!!) Chaim a Kaplan- Scroll of agony-. This is the diary that the writer wrote in the Warsaw ghetto, until his death in 1943. Before that I read the diary of Dawid Sierakowiak writed in Ghetto–Lodz. He died in 1943,too.
And so on and so forth.
I read books about the Nazis,too. My feelings are complicated.I abhor these mass murderers, I despise them, but at the same time I feel some sort of perverse attraction to Nazi Germany.
In order to find out if I actually lived in that period, I made a regression to past lives. I saw myself like soldier in France in the 17th century (I LOVE to read the history of France, but only the fifteenth, sixteenth and seventeenth century), but nothing about the Holocaust.
I think that the trauma is too strong.
That my subconscious is afraid of what will be seen.
For me the only solution is that someone else do it for me.
Do any of you have the gift of reading other people's previous lives?
I would be grateful for the slightest information.
Thanks in advance.
I hope you will understand me.
I am not so young (46 years old) but throughout all my life I felt the fear and anxiety. My muscles are always tense and I am never fully relaxed. I'm surprised that I did not get a serious illness because of so much stress in such a long period of time.
I watched countless movies about the Holocaust and read any more books. This themes draws me like a magnet. The Nazis and the Jews,but especially in Poland.As you know, hundreds of thousands of Jews were murdered in Russia, Belarus, Ukraine, Hungary...( I read the books about that countries too), but only Poland is really special for me. Just now I read for the third time(!!!) Chaim a Kaplan- Scroll of agony-. This is the diary that the writer wrote in the Warsaw ghetto, until his death in 1943. Before that I read the diary of Dawid Sierakowiak writed in Ghetto–Lodz. He died in 1943,too.
And so on and so forth.
I read books about the Nazis,too. My feelings are complicated.I abhor these mass murderers, I despise them, but at the same time I feel some sort of perverse attraction to Nazi Germany.
In order to find out if I actually lived in that period, I made a regression to past lives. I saw myself like soldier in France in the 17th century (I LOVE to read the history of France, but only the fifteenth, sixteenth and seventeenth century), but nothing about the Holocaust.
I think that the trauma is too strong.
That my subconscious is afraid of what will be seen.
For me the only solution is that someone else do it for me.
Do any of you have the gift of reading other people's previous lives?
I would be grateful for the slightest information.
Thanks in advance.