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Post by ignotus on Dec 3, 2011 14:34:06 GMT -5
Hello, I'm new here... Well, obviously.... I think I may have met some of you on other forums... I currently don't remember much about my PL and suffering from a serious case of false memories but I just remember a WW2 life, on Axis side. So, I'm wondering whether someone can help me out and maybe meet some old friends.
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Post by Laurasia on Dec 3, 2011 16:11:16 GMT -5
Hello Ignotus. Welcome to the forum. What other forums are you referring to? Many of us are members of more than one site focusing on such topics as the ones that are discussed here after all. You say that you don't remember much about your past life in WWII, but that you are also suffering from a serious case of false memories...why do you say both of those things? Are you suffering from the dreaded "I know that I lived a lifetime during WWII because I am so strangely drawn to it" syndrome? In any case, I hope that you enjoy yourself here & that you are indeed able to find some friends...whether they are old ones or new ones. ;D If you have any questions or concerns feel free to PM either myself or our Global Moderator Msmir. Sincerely, Laurasia
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Post by ignotus on Dec 5, 2011 16:39:42 GMT -5
Hello Ignotus. Welcome to the forum. What other forums are you referring to? Many of us are members of more than one site focusing on such topics as the ones that are discussed here after all. You say that you don't remember much about your past life in WWII, but that you are also suffering from a serious case of false memories...why do you say both of those things? Are you suffering from the dreaded "I know that I lived a lifetime during WWII because I am so strangely drawn to it" syndrome? In any case, I hope that you enjoy yourself here & that you are indeed able to find some friends...whether they are old ones or new ones. ;D If you have any questions or concerns feel free to PM either myself or our Global Moderator Msmir. Sincerely, Laurasia Oh haha! No, I meant that I know I had a WW2 PL but I can't pin-point where I was. The only proof of life I have about me is in a Youtube video and I have a feeling I had a very painful role in the Holocaust, I narrowed it down to either a Gestapo or SD. But I can't find the respective people in there. Well, only one but he couldn't recognize me but he's sending it to someone else!
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Post by Laurasia on Dec 6, 2011 15:45:15 GMT -5
Hello Ignotus.
Ah, I see what you mean now. Possibly Gestapo or SD, eh? I certainly know about those sorts of roles. And, yes, it is painful to deal with. Hopefully you will be able to learn more about your own role so you can deal with whatever issues you have from it & heal. If you ever want to discuss things regarding the Gestapo &/or SD privately feel free to PM me.
Sincerely, Laurasia
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Post by msmir on Dec 7, 2011 16:37:37 GMT -5
Welcome to the forum Ignotus. Feel free to share anything
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Post by ignotus on Dec 8, 2011 4:43:28 GMT -5
Hello Ignotus. Ah, I see what you mean now. Possibly Gestapo or SD, eh? I certainly know about those sorts of roles. And, yes, it is painful to deal with. Hopefully you will be able to learn more about your own role so you can deal with whatever issues you have from it & heal. If you ever want to discuss things regarding the Gestapo &/or SD privately feel free to PM me. Sincerely, Laurasia Dreadfully painful. I learned that I had practically murdered a whole lot of my friends... As one of my friends did a PL regression and she got killed by a dog and she was wearing something like a gypsy clothing and then I had a dream of the exact same scene that she ran away, I released my dog for my own sick pleasure. I also have dreams that I was trained by Amon Goth (And I was his friend) at Plaszow camp in 1941 or 42. And I heard that Plaszow was a training camp for Waffen-SS so.. My only thought was 'How could I be this monster..?' and did that to my friend. Now I made her terrified of dogs (But not all dogs, just big and scary ones) and she is a really nice person who helped me with a problem at school... And I remember in a class, about 30 students (the whole class) were Holocaust victims as some had weird markings on their hands, some had really bad asthma and all had a hatred for me. I remembered their taunting: 'Why don't you make me beg on the street again!?' and 'You deserve a life filled with misery!' plus they were all 6! And during that time, I was all wondering what the heck did I do..? (True story) So, that experience made me a little hesitant to meet ex-Holocaust victims.. Very hesitant.. Other than that, my sister was a Soviet. Part of the group with Kantaria... And I'm wondering when I met her, but I know it wasn't friendly. I'm might have met her at the Kursk as I know Hitler threw his reserve army (I was a reserve) there. But I can't be too sure.
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Post by ignotus on Dec 8, 2011 12:54:09 GMT -5
Thanks.. Usually I act as though it doesn't bother me and yes, it hides well.. But actually it does.. Although it looks as though I laugh mercilessly at Holocaust jokes and all but it is attacking me. And the side effects? I can't feel any other emotions. I feel like a serial killer....
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Post by msmir on Dec 8, 2011 18:10:03 GMT -5
Thanks.. Usually I act as though it doesn't bother me and yes, it hides well.. But actually it does.. Although it looks as though I laugh mercilessly at Holocaust jokes and all but it is attacking me. And the side effects? I can't feel any other emotions. I feel like a serial killer.... Well you must feel all kinds of emotions because if you didn't you would not be discussing it.
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Post by ignotus on Dec 8, 2011 18:38:22 GMT -5
Warning! Content may be disturbing to some members!
Nya, I just can't take it anymore. I know it can eat you alive.
Lacking other emotions, its a random flip; it doesn't happen when I'm on internet, it happens whenever someone makes me mad. I just feel as though I want to show them what is evil and makes it 100X worse. Make them feel their hate.
For example, if somebody says they hate cats (which I absolutely adore, then again I adore all animals, make no mistake) the flip will occur and I'll grab a cat and absolutely mistreat it. I don't know why I did it, I just want to show them 'Is this what you mean? And you're currently showing this to me.' Usually they'll respond in horror and I'll say back 'If you don't like them, you might as well kill 'em!'
And then a few minutes or so, when I regain my temper, I would be absolutely horrified. It feels as though someone just possessed me and did those. But luckily, those symptoms are starting to dissapear, after I found out about my PL.
Has anyone ever felt that as well..? Just wondering... That is the thing that has been bugging me and absolutely freaking me out. I don't know whether its a PL side-effect or what but I don't want to do that. Ever again. Its horrible.
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Post by Laurasia on Dec 12, 2011 13:50:06 GMT -5
Hello Ignotus.
What you have described is very disturbing indeed & should be discussed with a medical professional ASAP. It is one thing to have such thoughts momentarily flash through the mind (as does happen with some of us former Nazis, especially when we are first learning about our former lifetimes), but to actually act on such thoughts with no restraint is a completely different situation altogether.
It sounds as though you have quite literally carried over whatever psychosis you had, or may have developed, during that lifetime into your current lifetime. That is a very serious thing indeed & needs to be treated seriously so it does not escalate in this lifetime as it did in your last.
Knowing where all of this is coming from will be a huge step that you won't have to deal with in regards to such behavior. But since it is manifesting itself so literally within your life now you must do the responsible thing & take appropriate action to safeguard against such a response within yourself if you are going to have any hope of correcting it.
You do not have tell your doctor that this behavior is stemming from a past life as a Nazi (that, unfortunately, would probably only make things worse), but you do need to get treatment for it.
Sincerely, Laurasia
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Post by ignotus on Dec 13, 2011 9:52:12 GMT -5
Yes, I know that very much. Don't worry, I have not acted like that in months. I can celebrate. I did treatment on my own by following some steps.. Like putting yourself in the person/animal shoes before you do that and stop for a second and actually think. Thanks very much!
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Post by Miss Bothmann on Jan 18, 2012 15:16:42 GMT -5
Welcome to the site ignotus. I am sorry that you have recalled such disturbing memories from your PL..but at least now you are not in the dark anymore regarding that PL (at least in some areas). I wish you the best in your healing journey and look forward to seeing you around the site.
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