Post by msmir on Jul 27, 2010 22:23:51 GMT -5
Hello everyone, my name is Miriam. Today, I am an almost 35 year old married woman with two children, ages 8 and 6 living in the Toronto area. We also have a very sweet Bichon Frise, my husband works a typical 9-5 job and I have a bunch of jobs. I am a mom (yes a huge job), a home maker, an author, an astrologer and I work part time outside of the home as well. Yes, I may appear to be quite busy on the outside but I may also appear to be living a typical family life. But if you look at my life within, you will see I am far from typical. We all have our own personal demons to deal with, and some of us may not know where our inner demons come from. Some have it more than others. But I have always been strongly tortured within. I always knew deep down as to why for a long time but over the last few years I decided to look under the rug and explore as to what was causing this inner torture that I had.
I am a reincarnated Holocaust victim. I was born into a Jewish family in a town close to Warsaw Poland, in the late 1930's. I had one older brother as well. When the Nazis came to take us away, I was suddenly ripped from my family and thrown into the ghetto until the cattle cars took us to Auschwitz-Birkenau. I was only 4 years old at the time, and I was also experimented on. Other victims around me were sick and seeing them ill also scarred me. I survived miraculously the experiments done on me, but then I was thrown into the gas chamber since even though I was not dead, I was far from healthy. My father in that life was killed, he is now one of my spirit guides. My brother and mother in that life survived. I was earthbound after I had been gassed and stuck around my mother, until she died several years post liberation from a stroke. My mother from that life is my 8 year old daughter today. We needed to connect again to form a bond, just in reversed roles. And when I look into my daughter's eyes, she knows who she was, she has even said things such as "remembering how cute I was" when she was about to fall asleep. However, because of her age and because of me intuitively knowing on a soul level, she is not ready to face who she was and who I was in our last lives. But one day I know she will find out.
Anyway, the way I have been affected in this incarnation since I was basically born was the fact that I am a food addict, have had a morbid phobia of puke which is a very common phobia called emetophobia, I have had issues with major depression and anxiety. I have been to many counselors who have never once helped me in anyway. I knew my issues were too deep for them to help. I did not start feeling any kind of peace until I started exploring myself within and my reasons for having such issues. I found more help from renowned mediums more so than psychologists! Once I was ready to face my demons on a soul level, I got a lot of help from mediums who had helped me understand why I have such issues. I was starved in my last life and constantly watched others around me get sick. My anxiety stems from being separated from my family at a young age. Depression stems from the abuse that I have had to endure. I obviously have always had low self esteem. I certainly understand why. Since I can acknowledge this and understand this, I can find ways to evolve and to move away from being the victim. I am no longer the victim. I have a new life now where I can heal, and I am healing at a pace that is comfortable for me. I have already written one book about it, and am in the process of finishing up my second book which will be a lot more fascinating since it delves into the subject a lot more than my first one did. If you go onto my main site listed in my signature, you will find a list of my work and updates.
I admit the only issue I am not anywhere near ready to face is my emetophobia but that is okay. There is never a time limit on healing. Everything else needs work I feel though. I can understand how easy it is for anyone who had a traumatic previous life will stay comfortable in the victim mode. However, it is unhealthy and you will never discover what is in store for your current life if you stay in a mind frame of constant depression, anxiety, fear, etc. I have encountered many reincarnated Holocaust victims who are not ready to face their past and that is fine. But at the same time many of them stay in a mind frame of being the victim because it is easier to feel that way. The fact of the matter is, when that happens you don't evolve. Plain and simple.
Sure I have my days as we all do when we are crying the blues of feeling low, and I tend to get into that mind frame when I get into those moods. I think we all do. But I can snap out of it rather quickly. I have learned to. And one thing that helped me move on other than exploring my inner demons is speaking with reincarnated Nazis who have learned from their past, and who want to make it right. I have come to understand that they were put through their own torture, of committing atrocious acts against their will because it was the rules back then. These souls need a chance to heal in their current lives as well. One way to help them heal is for them to be forgiven and to be understood. That also speeds up the healing of reincarnated victims as well. I have found that to be the case anyway since I had connected with Laurasia and I find it to be a blessing to have connected with her. She has helped me tremendously and I cannot thank her enough for that. I know I have helped her too and that is a nice feeling.
This forum creates a wonderful opportunity to unite reincarnated Nazis and victims (for those who are truly ready for it) to help one another heal by creating understanding and forgiveness.
Thank you Laurasia for creating such a wonderful thing, a place where we can all heal.
Cheers,
Mir
I am a reincarnated Holocaust victim. I was born into a Jewish family in a town close to Warsaw Poland, in the late 1930's. I had one older brother as well. When the Nazis came to take us away, I was suddenly ripped from my family and thrown into the ghetto until the cattle cars took us to Auschwitz-Birkenau. I was only 4 years old at the time, and I was also experimented on. Other victims around me were sick and seeing them ill also scarred me. I survived miraculously the experiments done on me, but then I was thrown into the gas chamber since even though I was not dead, I was far from healthy. My father in that life was killed, he is now one of my spirit guides. My brother and mother in that life survived. I was earthbound after I had been gassed and stuck around my mother, until she died several years post liberation from a stroke. My mother from that life is my 8 year old daughter today. We needed to connect again to form a bond, just in reversed roles. And when I look into my daughter's eyes, she knows who she was, she has even said things such as "remembering how cute I was" when she was about to fall asleep. However, because of her age and because of me intuitively knowing on a soul level, she is not ready to face who she was and who I was in our last lives. But one day I know she will find out.
Anyway, the way I have been affected in this incarnation since I was basically born was the fact that I am a food addict, have had a morbid phobia of puke which is a very common phobia called emetophobia, I have had issues with major depression and anxiety. I have been to many counselors who have never once helped me in anyway. I knew my issues were too deep for them to help. I did not start feeling any kind of peace until I started exploring myself within and my reasons for having such issues. I found more help from renowned mediums more so than psychologists! Once I was ready to face my demons on a soul level, I got a lot of help from mediums who had helped me understand why I have such issues. I was starved in my last life and constantly watched others around me get sick. My anxiety stems from being separated from my family at a young age. Depression stems from the abuse that I have had to endure. I obviously have always had low self esteem. I certainly understand why. Since I can acknowledge this and understand this, I can find ways to evolve and to move away from being the victim. I am no longer the victim. I have a new life now where I can heal, and I am healing at a pace that is comfortable for me. I have already written one book about it, and am in the process of finishing up my second book which will be a lot more fascinating since it delves into the subject a lot more than my first one did. If you go onto my main site listed in my signature, you will find a list of my work and updates.
I admit the only issue I am not anywhere near ready to face is my emetophobia but that is okay. There is never a time limit on healing. Everything else needs work I feel though. I can understand how easy it is for anyone who had a traumatic previous life will stay comfortable in the victim mode. However, it is unhealthy and you will never discover what is in store for your current life if you stay in a mind frame of constant depression, anxiety, fear, etc. I have encountered many reincarnated Holocaust victims who are not ready to face their past and that is fine. But at the same time many of them stay in a mind frame of being the victim because it is easier to feel that way. The fact of the matter is, when that happens you don't evolve. Plain and simple.
Sure I have my days as we all do when we are crying the blues of feeling low, and I tend to get into that mind frame when I get into those moods. I think we all do. But I can snap out of it rather quickly. I have learned to. And one thing that helped me move on other than exploring my inner demons is speaking with reincarnated Nazis who have learned from their past, and who want to make it right. I have come to understand that they were put through their own torture, of committing atrocious acts against their will because it was the rules back then. These souls need a chance to heal in their current lives as well. One way to help them heal is for them to be forgiven and to be understood. That also speeds up the healing of reincarnated victims as well. I have found that to be the case anyway since I had connected with Laurasia and I find it to be a blessing to have connected with her. She has helped me tremendously and I cannot thank her enough for that. I know I have helped her too and that is a nice feeling.
This forum creates a wonderful opportunity to unite reincarnated Nazis and victims (for those who are truly ready for it) to help one another heal by creating understanding and forgiveness.
Thank you Laurasia for creating such a wonderful thing, a place where we can all heal.
Cheers,
Mir