Death marches - memories of a SS man

[Leutnantzursee]

Hi Sunstar :-)

Sorry to reply so late to your thread hon, yes I've had a very busy Christmas as well (btw - hope all you guys had good holidays) looking after my 84 year old mother for a week not easy! To top it all, our computer finally died two weeks ago and I've been offline until tonight and theres so many new posts!

The Prussian sensibilities do seem to have become a little embedded I think, certainly I can be a bit reluctant to lose control in this life, I know I take life too seriously sometimes and I'm still struggling to assert myself, I'm used to being told what to do I guess. It's interesting about German ancestry too, a lot of us seem to have German genetic links in this lifetime, although as you know from reading other posts, most of us now, have tended to be born among families from the Ally's countries. You know, there's such an irony with my father, despite his resovations towards Germans, he embodied so many Prussian traits, it was only a couple of years ago that I made the discovery I had German ancestry and on my dad's side! I don't think he even knew about it, it was through his paternal grandmother who was born in Denmark but married into my English family. Her mother was the daughter of a German immigrant from Meklenburg - a village called Boldensdorf, they settled in Copenhagen, in the German quarter. My dad was part German in effect, the bitter-sweet irony of that has haunted me since I found out about my 'forgotten' ancestors. I think my grandfather must have known, he dealt with the SS in his hotel bar, according to my dad they commented on how 'Aryan looking' he was. I will never know if my granddad disclosed information about his ancestry to the occupying forces or not, he was a decorated WW1 vet and the SS respected that, they used to salute him and call him 'Kaptien' so the story goes...

The funny thing is, years ago when I was young and studying at a local Tech, a mature student I knew a little who was psychic, told me I was very 'Teutonic' - it always perplexed me because I look more Romany in this life (from my mum's side possibly) and I was (I thought) a fairly laid-back person. Now of course I know what he might have been picking up, but it was probably too difficult for him to articulate because he was Jewish. Another psychic, who did a reading for me, told me that I died in an explosion in the incarnation directly before this one. Bizzarely she was German. So yes, getting back to what you were saying about getting readings compared to regression. It's a shame you didn't feel comfortable with that technique, I found it really fascinating and I was able to verify some of the info. Still, like all of us, I can't be 100% sure my 'Tuetonic' nature isn't down to genes surfacing.

[Sunstar]

Hi Lizzie!

Great you're back. It's nice to hear from you again.

Oh yeah indeed - many people here seem to have some German ancestry. This is amazing. What do you think? Is there a higher spiritual purpose in that? I think, yes. I think it's something about uniting the people, overcoming prejudices, forgiveness and healing, establishing good relationships.

Of course it would be very difficult for someone like your dad, who remembered the war, to see good points in Prussian qualities, even if he knew about his ancestry. It's really the irony of life that he lived these qualities unconsciously! Interesting story!

Yes, it's hard to tell where certain character traits might come from - genetics, past lives, the soul/higher self, or upbringing. I'm not sure of that in my own case. Oh, and I had a similar situation in a reading like you, just a bit the other way round:

I was told that the qualities of my soul are unlike the mentality of this country I live in. Though I never had problems with the people in Germany or their mentality, I was not surprised that much. The psychic told me that my soul needs warmth and light and that it is connected much to water and to the sea. And this is really true: When I was younger, I always wished that I would live in a southern country like Spain or Italy. I need a lot of sun and the sea, I love the food they have and their music. And I get depressions, if I can't go to the Mediterranean Sea at least once a year. I was told that I had many lives in those warm countries. So there is lot of in me from these past lives and I really miss it. It was only in the recent years with the coming Euro-crisis and after discovering my PL, that I realized that it is not so bad to live in Germany after all and that we have good things here, too. I began to feel more love towards my country and I feel much more connected to it than I was before. And dealing with WW2 history I began to feel sorry for the fate of the German civilians and soldiers, and not only for the Holocaust victims. Feeling sorry for the Germans was something that did not came to my mind ever before.

Anyway, I will have another reading in a few months. I hope I will be able to verify my recollections then and find out more.

Liebe Grüße
Sunstar

[Leutnantzursee]

Hello!

Yet again I've had computer issues *raises eyes* long story, but suffice to say that I've been off line again for a week, so sorry for the late reply once more! This new computer is not looking all that promising either, so if I'm not around for a while you guys will know why!

Sunstar - I completely resonate with what you say about the warmth and sea - I'm really the same, I hate the cold and lack of sun in England, especially now as snow falls outside and this room is freezing! Although I do like it in some ways, like any reincarnated Austrian would I suppose - but somehow I think our homes were better heated and they cleared the roads properly, so it wasn't so intrusive. I wish I could get to the Mediterranean even once a year! I went to Crete for a holiday about ten years ago, I had a spontaneous recall while we visited the palace of Knossos, which I think I've mentioned before in a couple of threads. I was told by the German psychic that I'd lived a lot of lives as a native American, but I feel like I know the ancient world of Greece and Rome very well, I can imagine that I might have been a follower of the resurgence in the Isis religion just prior to Christianity in Rome, among other things. A Cypriot friend of mine told me that she sees me settling in Crete one day and setting up some sort of Goddess retreat - certainly sounds like something I'd love to do and I felt so much like I'd come home on that beautiful island :-)

I personally believe that a lot of us ex Nazis lived through Atlantis and this might be why so many of us now have that warm southern blood as that was the real 'Aryan' heritage, such as it is, the true Aryans being originally from Iraq, Iran Turkey and Armenia not the North! The Nazis were fascinated with Atlantis and I know people have a lot of theories about it and where it might have been, and of course a lot of people don't think it ever existed. I believe there's a long story to our soul group and our purpose, including Atlantis, one which fell so badly in killing millions of innocents, but I also think the Ashkenazi Jews were Aryans too if you go back far enough, it was like a family killing itself and so as you say, we've come back to heal so much and restore the balance of our people. And above all things, white people, Europeans - especially us English have caused so much harm on a global scale and continue to do so. The people of indigenous societies have so much to teach us about living in balance, now even science is saying that many so-called 'primitive' wisdom is an analogy for Quantum physics. Once upon a time, the Romans did much the same to us, as we did to the Native Americans and Australians. I hope I can speak for most of us here and say, I have never been racist in my life, quite the reverse, I LOVE people from other cultures, I'm fascinated and reverential towards those ways of life, I loathe the whole idea of racial superiority, its such lunacy and so unfounded on any evidence, if anything white people are 'savages'. :-( I really believe that in order to understand why something is so evil, we have to experience it first hand, get into its fabric, so next time we can help to deconstruct it. Yes, I'm proud of all my ancestral roots far and wide, like you, but more so the deep ancient roots of those races, when I hope, we lived in more tolerant and Earth centred cultures :-)

[Sunstar]

Hello guys!

Finally I'd like to do a little update here. After a long time of silence and an encounter with another PL from a completely different historical era, I got some new recollections, which I'd like to share. I had some dreams and flashbacks earlier this year. Then, during summer, there was silence again, maybe because I was busy with various summer activities. However, now this PL has become very present again. Mostly there are merely glimpses or an association or a feeling. But recently I feel like I'm a character from a different world most of the time...
Generally I've noticed that my recollections like to come spontaneously, when I do not expect, taking me by surprise. This is for me an indication, that there is really something to it, that it's more than just imagination. And this is exactly how it happened today!

While riding my bicycle along the river on a warm late summer day, I got the impression that I was riding a bike in my PL. The feeling got stronger and I remembered how I was riding a bike through a rural area, along cornfields and meadows. It was summer and I was on the way to the next town or village - of course dressed in uniform - either to carry out a task or just because I had a day off. Well, I guess not everyone was able to go by car in those days ;D And I'm pretty sure I took the bike more than once and it was fun. It's funny what you would remember from a past life sometimes - LOL
I'm not really sure about the next one, but then the following scene came to my mind: I stopped at a house along the road and talked to a young woman, who was hanging up the laundry. She was wearing a kitchen apron (hope that's the right English word) and had dark blond hair. I stopped to ask for the way or just pretended to do so We smiled at each other. Hm, she was a nice girl with a beautiful smile...
At least I have a nice memory from this PL now, just triggered by going for a ride with my bike! But when I look at the bicycle I ride today, it's high tech compared to the ones they had back then ;D And I still have a very simple one. However, while connected to my PL self, I sometimes feel like a time-traveler. I'm amazed about the stuff and technology we've got today, like mobile phones, the huge traffic and modern means of transportation, or whatever. I am amazed to see a German flag somewhere (which is the same that was used in Weimar Republic) - and for a moment it looks completely out of place to me. I am amazed to talk to good-humoured, carefree people on the street. I am amazed that I am here, that Germany still exists, that we've got a democracy, that the war is over and that we are living in peaceful times again. Honestly, in these moments I think I'm going crazy - LOL

I hope I will be able to post some more recollections in the coming days and weeks. And now, while this PL is so present currently, I'm curious if there is more to come.

Best wishes
Sunstar

[Demi]

It's not unusual that PL experiences are simple things... such as what you are describing. I also have those, such as ice skating with a girlfriend on a frozen lake in a park, or being in a bathroom which has what appears now to be an old fashioned bath tub (one of those with cast iron legs).

Maybe the girl was someone he liked, or just saw her and wanted to chat her up. And yes, I have seen videos of whole divisions of soldiers riding bikes, so not uncommon at all.

We have a place for non-WW2 related past lives here too... if you like to share anything from your other lives.

soulreconciliations.proboards.com/index.cgi?board=pastlives

All the best,
Demi