Iseke
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Post by Iseke on Aug 18, 2011 16:29:25 GMT -5
I would trust your own memories above all else! As helpful, insightful, and accurate as various readings can be, they can always be incomplete or as you said, deliberately what you needed to hear at the time. So if you are getting memories that don't match up with your original assessment, I'd say just keep trusting yourself, let the memories come, and don't worry. It may turn out that the astrological reading you got does fit, but the details were slightly off, or something.
Glad to hear you are starting to remember! 
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Post by msmir on Aug 18, 2011 16:58:35 GMT -5
My readings are accurate, so whatever he is remembering now, he may not have been ready to face when I read for him. If there is an energy blockage, then it is going to affect the reader too.
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Post by rednight94 on Aug 18, 2011 17:07:17 GMT -5
Mismir, I have to ask. What do you think of all this.? Parallel lives, perhaps? Or something completely different? Anyone's opinions are very much welcomed. And thank you Iseke, for yours. |
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Post by msmir on Aug 19, 2011 16:06:48 GMT -5
I am unsure to be honest Perhaps there could be parallel lives (I am open to that idea but again I can't put any money on it either) or what it could be is sometimes if you are close to someone, regardless of relationship... good friend or bitter enemy. Your energies can rub onto theirs and vice versa and I believe sometimes "memories" can be picked up that way. This is why it is so common for people to think they were someone in a past life when in fact they were not. But I also think because you are finding out about your past lives, all kinds of memories are seeping through, even memories that involve others who you were close to in some way... like a sponge in a way. |
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Post by Laurasia on Aug 23, 2011 12:12:05 GMT -5
Hi Rednight. I would keep trying to access your memories since you now seem to be more open to them & see how things come about on their own. Perhaps you were/are so empathetic towards what you saw prisoners going through in the camps that Miriam picked up on those impressions &, like yourself, mistook them to be your own memories? As she mentioned above, if there is a block preventing you from accessing certain memories a reader will have very little chance of accessing it themselves as well. As Iseke mentioned, work on unraveling your memories yourself & you may find that what came up in the reading does apply...just not in the way that you expected it to.  Sincerely, Laurasia |
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Post by rednight94 on Aug 23, 2011 21:34:37 GMT -5
Hi Rednight. I would keep trying to access your memories since you now seem to be more open to them & see how things come about on their own. Perhaps you were/are so empathetic towards what you saw prisoners going through in the camps that Miriam picked up on those impressions &, like yourself, mistook them to be your own memories? As she mentioned above, if there is a block preventing you from accessing certain memories a reader will have very little chance of accessing it themselves as well. As Iseke mentioned, work on unraveling your memories yourself & you may find that what came up in the reading does apply...just not in the way that you expected it to. Sincerely, Laurasia I just wish I had answers! Don't we all... :/ I feel like if I accept that I may have been on that side, all of that guilt will come back. I don't want it to, though. There are so many emotions and feelings tearing me apart. I have such a connection to the Holocaust;such a strong feeling that I was killed it. It's that gut-feeling. Yet, at the same time, I don't have this overwhelming hate towards the Third Reich... What mismir said really resonated with me-- about sponging off other people's feelings. I have a feeling I'm surrounded by more than just one former Nazi. The reason why the 'sponging' resonates with me so much is because I think it would explain why I don't have that much resentment towards the Reich. I'm surrounded by so many people who were against me in that life that I get along with perfectly fine now. I think it might be a part of the ultimate healing process.... I just wanted to thank everyone on this site for all the help they've provided, too  |
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Post by Laurasia on Aug 25, 2011 14:29:44 GMT -5
Warning! Some content may be disturbing to some members!Hi Rednight. I don't want to sound as though I'm trying to push you one way or the other (this is just my honest opinion here, which is worth a grain of salt ) but your fear of "that guilt coming back" again makes it sound to me as though you were on the "wrong side" of the Holocaust. And hey, if you truly did die in one of the camps....plenty of Nazis died in them as well. Even if it is not recorded "properly". The Commandant could write whatever he wanted back to headquarters regarding a guards death afterall. I mean if you were as empathetic towards the prisoners as you seem to have been the rest of the guards could have taken a real issue with it. You could have been given grief about it, warned about it, & then ultimately killed for it. And just because you may have died in the gas chamber...perhaps that was the ultimate "pay back" on their part? Maybe that was their way of saying "You want to care about the prisoners, then you can die with them"? Some of the camps had extremely unstable people working in them so one can never be sure what they were capable of...especially to someone that they deemed a "traitor". In cases of "private justice" like that I would hardly expect that the "official record" would be recorded accurately. Again....I'm not trying to say that this is what happened in your case. I'm just trying to give you some idea as to how things could have been twisted around in ways that you hadn't expected. Sincerely, Laurasia
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Post by rednight94 on Aug 25, 2011 16:36:24 GMT -5
Hi Laurasia, I appreciate your opinion very much. But, when I was speaking of the guilt, it was more or less what I know I would feel like if I were to put myself on that side. Putting myself in that place mentally doesn't make me feel particularly comfortable.... I'm going to have to go with my gut, honestly. Everything pretty much points to who I think I was. And that's a Jewish, Holocaust victim. If I'm wrong, I'm wrong. I guess I won't find out until I'm dead! I wish there was some way for me to access memories, but unfortunately, there isn't. Of course there is past life regression, but I must admit I don't think it would work on me. I feel like my imagination is playing to much of a part in it. I've tried ones on the internet, and they really just don't work. Of course, the internet doesn't compare to a live being in front of you, but I still feel like it wouldn't be much different. :/ |
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Post by Iseke on Aug 25, 2011 17:40:29 GMT -5
I agree that surrounding yourself with those on the other side in a neutral or positive setting is healing!
I was a victim and I do not harbor a deep hatred for Nazis. Part of it is that even in the camps I was able to see their humanity, at least a bit. Part of it is what I've come to understand in my own healing. But, a deep resentment and hatred of them is not necessary to prove you were a victim. I have deeply negative feelings from the Holocaust, but they are more oriented towards actions than people at this point.
That said, please don't give up on yourself! You may not have the best recall at the moment, but it really is possible to access your memories! If you are worried that a potential memory may just be imagination, come back to it later. If it's changed, you are probably right in that it may have been influenced by you. If the details are the same consistently, you can trust it. (And again, memories come in lots of ways, not just visually!)
It's like a puzzle. Some of us start out with more pieces than others, but we all have to sit down and put together a picture that fits. It takes time but it can be done!
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Post by rednight94 on Aug 25, 2011 17:51:08 GMT -5
I have deeply negative feelings from the Holocaust, but they are more oriented towards actions than people at this point. That's how I feel! Nice way to put it! I'm not really giving up on myself, but sometimes I just wish I didn't have to try so hard. I wish I had the patience, too... I plan on trying to bring some memories to the surface tonight. I hope I get something...! If I do, I'll be sure to post about it! |
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Post by Iseke on Aug 25, 2011 18:03:53 GMT -5
Looking forward to it if you do!
I think it was...like a year or so since I started really exploring my past before I had any memories that I could trust were memories. I've had PL memories since I was young but never knew that's what they were, and mostly they were feelings rather than images. The images didn't start coming in earnest until I had begun intending for them to come and working on it slowly in meditation.
I'm really visually oriented so it helped me to visualize a room wherein I would access my memories or my Akashic records book, but some people really don't like that method.
One of my first past life readings was with a woman who played singing bowls, and when I got a singing bowl myself I played it and was able to see one of my memories. I like sound and find it very effective as well as healing.
Anyway, though, it does take time and you are well on your way, because intention is the most important factor. Best of luck!
(As an aside, it really bummed me out at first how my friends were so easily able to get memories and I was still toddling along. Then the memories started coming for me and I was like "whoa, whoa!" A lot of them I'm not really ready to face, haha.)
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Post by rednight94 on Aug 26, 2011 15:17:55 GMT -5
It worked! Wow, it actually worked! Nothing fantastic, but something!
I'm not sure how long it took for what I saw to happen. But I did see something. And that's what's important.
Basically, what happened was we (my parents, sister, and I) were sitting down for the Friday Night Seder and in the background we could hear a raid (I'm having to fill in certain pars here based on what I feel) my father kept talking though. He wanted us to ignore it. We only could for so long though! When they came to our apartment door, my father left the dinning room and they ordered us to pack and leave. To get into the hall where my bedroom was, I had to walk through the dark living room and past one of the Nazis. I remember looking at my sister before we went into our bedroom....
This was really fantastic, I cannot wait to try it again. Mainly because there was a lot of interference and it was hard to concentrate on remembering without getting distracted. I would like to be able to focus more. I'm surprised it worked as well as it did though!
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Post by Laurasia on Aug 27, 2011 15:07:40 GMT -5
Hi Rednight. I'm very glad that you were able to successfully have a recollection... on purpose. LOL! Hopefully this means that it will start becoming easier for you to access your memories. One thing to be careful of though..... Be very careful of this trap. Many times, if we try too hard or too often to remember, it inadvertantly creates a block. Sincerely, Laurasia |
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Post by rednight94 on Aug 27, 2011 15:43:26 GMT -5
I'll try not to |
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Post by rednight94 on Sept 11, 2011 0:30:39 GMT -5
I had a dream last night; nothing directed at my specific past life per say, but a Holocaust dream, nonetheless. I was a woman and had just been liberated from one of the camps and I was sitting in my bedroom. On my lap I had this very pretty blue damask blanket (which I have in real life, but it's red... and technically a tablecloth, but nobody neither knows that, nor do they have to!  ) over my camp uniform. For some reason the liberators wanted to take it away from me, but I got very emotional and wouldn't let them, proclaiming that it was the only think I had left that was human or civilized or something like that.... That was it, just thought I'd share...! |
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) over my camp uniform. For some reason the liberators wanted to take it away from me, but I got very emotional and wouldn't let them, proclaiming that it was the only think I had left that was human or civilized or something like that....