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Post by rednight94 on Jun 10, 2011 21:31:41 GMT -5
Hello everyone. Well, I really don't know where to start!
I'm the reincarnation of a Holocaust victim; a Dutch Jew.
My story didn't start as a child. In fact, I was blessed with having absolutely no recollection of the past until I was around 14 (I'm 17 now). Of course, looking back I can see a number of things that really stick out in my mind as being evidence. When I mean no recollection, I mean it! I never had dreams, nor did I get strange feeling towards many things. In seventh grade, before we even learned about the Holocaust, I even marched down a hallway with my hand in the air, having no idea once so ever what I was doing! Thinking back on that moment now, knowing everything I know, makes me shudder...
As a child I suffered from extreme depression. This depression lasted until I finally started coming to terms with what had happened. I still have it from time to time. I also hated to be left alone. I dreaded ever having to be lonely.
A phobia is I've always have had is one of hating the sight of tall, wide, brick chimneys. I don't think I have to explain why...
Something that has ailed me my entire life is incredibly painful stomachaches. This stems form how I died. I got very sick in the camps, and that pain was carried over into this life. Nothing triggers it either, that's the strange thing. It just happens. It can bring me close to tears, it hurts so bad.
In late February of 2010 my date of death in my last life almost matched the date of my death in my last life. By my age, if that makes any sense... I woke up in the morning with the worse stomach pains I had ever had in my life and had to spend that morning in the bathroom, crying. The thing is, I knew what was happening to me. I felt like I was dying all over again. Talking about it right now brings tears to my eyes...
There's other things, but I won't go on any longer.
All I can say is I'm extremely happy I found this site!
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Post by dogtord on Jun 10, 2011 21:52:31 GMT -5
Hi there! I am new to this site too, and I too, am really happy to have found it. Like you, looking back at my experiences and "strange feelings" it all makes sense now, but unlike you, it took me A LOT longer to figure things out.... a rabbi recently suggested to me that I may be a reincarnated holocaust victim, and after getting my past life astrology reading, he was right. I am 44 now. Wish I had known MUCH sooner, I feel like I've missed out.
were you trying to say you almost died in Feb 2010? I'm sorry you're reliving the horrible memories.
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Post by rednight94 on Jun 10, 2011 22:01:14 GMT -5
Nice to meet you!
I didn't almost die, but I was re-experiencing what I had felt, at least to an extent, the last time I had died. I was almost the same age in February last year as I was in the camp when I had died.
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Post by Storm on Jun 11, 2011 9:23:39 GMT -5
Hello Rednight94 and welcome! You are definitley in the right place. I, too, started on this whole reincarnated from the WWII era journey late in life. I have been researching past lives for about 15 years now, and have a very well evidenced one which has been verified by a number of reputable researchers. I was always keen to find out who I had been in between that person, an 18th C British Aristocrat and who I am now. I really ofetn thought I had perhaps never been alive during WWII as I hate the era so much, and always have done. And a family member was convinced I was someone esle, so when I stumbled across the idea I was a particular Nazi it blew my mind. I immediately set about to disprove it, lol! So far there is more evidence pointing to it being true than not, although I did get another reading last week which was very confusing as the lady suggested that a lot of PL memories are not really ours?! The jury is out on that but it is a fascinating concept that we can tune into stuff in the astral that others have discarded. I cannot for the life of me understand why I would decide to 'tune into' a man like the guy I may have been! It was the astrological reading by Msmir, (one of the moderators of this great forum), which gave me the most scientific approach to evidencing my situation. And pretty much everything in my chart indicates aspects of the guy's life and death. Certainly we can and do bring health problems from other incarnations, I am convinced of that. At least now you know why you have this stomach trouble you stand a great chance of healing it, as you are so young. Welcome again!  |
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Post by rednight94 on Jun 11, 2011 9:56:22 GMT -5
I try to disprove things too; I don't like jumping to conclusions. The funny thing is though, whenever I deny this to myself, sighs literally start popping up EVERYWHERE. It's like someone is trying to tell me something.
Sometimes the signs are random too...
Anyway, I wish I could get an astrological reading, but I know they probably cost money. So I'll just have to be patient!
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Post by msmir on Jun 11, 2011 14:11:04 GMT -5
Hi rednight and welcome. I was also a Holocaust victim and believe me you will experience karmic residue from past life trauma. I have a hormonal condition and no one else in my family has it. I know it was past life related when I was given hormones in the experimental labs. But if you are experiencing ailments due to past life trauma it is a sign that it needs to be resolved. I am sorry you have suffered from horrible stomach pains. You may be urged to look for natural ways to heal the pain. Ever consider going to a naturopath? There may be some safe and effective ways to deal with it. Anyway glad you are here. Looking forward to hearing more from you.
Cheers
Mir
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Post by Laurasia on Jun 11, 2011 15:01:10 GMT -5
Hello Rednight94. Welcome to the forum & we are certainly glad that you have found us as well! ;D I'm sorry to hear about your chronic unexplained stomache troubles. Sadly it's not uncommon for people to have such things occur & find out that they are connected to a past life issue. Like MsMir stated, since it is such an issue for you in this life that shows that there is something there that needs to be resolved.  As for past life readings...MsMir offers wonderful astrological past life readings. We also have another member, Sweetlunapie, who offers free past life readings to members of this forum. You can view her thread about it here. You will need to PM her about a free reading here on the forum though in order for her to be sure that you are really a registered member. Please tell me that you do not always re-experience the pain of that death on its' anniversary! I have become stuck re-experiencing my deaths from a couple of my past incarnations while regressing & that would be horrible to "look forward to" every year! Sincerely, Laurasia |
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Post by rednight94 on Jun 11, 2011 18:51:56 GMT -5
Hello Laurasia To answer your question; no, I don't always re-experience the pain of death on every anniversary. It only happened on that once, thank goodness... |
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Post by Miss Bothmann on Jun 11, 2011 20:21:45 GMT -5
Hello rednight, and welcome to the site. Thank you for sharing your story with us regarding parallels between this life and your last life. I, too, have relived my deaths from several of my lifetimes, and it is horrible. Considering that most of my past lives were suffocation deaths, I hate even having a chest cold in this life. If I cannot breathe 100% it bothers me. As far as residue carrying over from our past lives, I know that I have retained anxiety issues among other things. I look forward to seeing you around the site, and I am glad that you found it as well. |
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Post by rednight94 on Jun 26, 2011 13:31:48 GMT -5
Wow, I just had a reading done my MsMir. She's fantastic! According to her, I was a German-Jewish teenager who was killed at Dachau in 1942 via gas, after some rather gruesome work...
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Post by msmir on Jun 26, 2011 15:41:01 GMT -5
Thanks rednight, glad I helped |
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Post by Laurasia on Jun 30, 2011 15:01:09 GMT -5
Hi Rednight. I'm so glad that you had an enjoyable & informative reading with MsMir. ;D Well what she says certainly seems to explain quite a bit. Sincerely, Laurasia |
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Post by rednight94 on Aug 18, 2011 9:22:20 GMT -5
I'm beginning to have memories. And these actually feel like memories, of another life. Which occurred almost simultaneously with my last one. Except, I wasn't a victim!
For a long time, I figured I had died in the Holocaust, but I yet at the same time I had strange feeling towards Hitler's Third Reich. Not a hate, but almost an excitement. What happened to the Jews sometimes even escapes my mind when I feel this way. I had always made up excuses for these feelings. I even tried to make up excuses for my interest in genetics and the 'studies' performed by the Nazis, and my attraction towards blond, 'Aryan' looking men.
Something funny happened today though. I don't think it's just my imagination, either. I let these feelings I have come through; I didn't deny them, I just let them come in. I had what may have been a memory...
I'm in 'my' bedroom in Germany and my fiance and I were together. He was in the SS and on leave. I can remember the bedroom quite well, too:
Nothing big, but nice. It was all white with a single window at one end which was open. In front of the window there was a shelf with little things on it. To the right of the door to the bedroom was my bed, with a really nice blanket with this little detailing of smiling people in lederhosens with a pink background. There was a wardrobe and a little dressing table both stained in a dark wood color... The ceiling on the side of the room with the window was slightly tilted with wooden beams.
Anyway, I started 'remembering' a few things about this man. I'm just going to call him Heinz, because I like that name. Heinz wasn't the nicest person, but I loved him anyway. He was a quiet man and a little condescending. Telling me not to worry my 'pretty little head' about things and, 'you wouldn't understand.'
I remember asking him about what was happening to the Jews and he told me he didn't know. I didn't believe anything bad was happening, nor did I really understand why they even mattered so much.
The thing is, I'm really curious to know whether or not this is just my abundant imagination, or actual memories?! It's possible that I could have been both a victim, and the fiance of a SS, isn't it?
Thought I'd share, and any input would be very welcomed.
EDIT: I've had some weird dreams! The night this all came to me (which was two days ago. I originally wrote the above in a separate thread, but have moved it here) I was dreaming about my last life. I think. The thing is, I was never particularly asleep, it felt like. I was always half-awake it seemed. Which made them feel even stranger. The first thing I saw was myself picking up a baby from a playpen. There was another very young child in there too. I then realized that these babies were mine and Heinz's! Both boys, not twins, just born very close together. Which made me realize I was wrong with my first assumption; we weren't engaged, but married. We were living with my parents until the war was over. It was in the country, outside of Berlin, so we thought it would be better for us and the boys to stay there until the war was over.
The second thing I remember is working in a factory and doing something with wood (I remembered it as being furniture, but that wouldn't make much sense). I was getting slivers.
I'm really excited about these dreams!
Anyway, after the war ended and everyone began to discover the truth about what had indeed happened to the Jews I couldn't live with myself. Knowing that the man I loved and had two children with, very well may have been part of those crimes was too much for me to handle. I killed myself, leaving my parents to raise my two children. That's what I feel happened anyway. I shouldn't have left them, but I did.
I had two siblings; a younger brother and an older sister.
Heinz, I believe died in a prison camp in the late forties, early fifties.
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Post by Laurasia on Aug 18, 2011 14:12:44 GMT -5
Hello Rednight. I don't personally ascribe to the idea of "parallel lives", so I would suspect that there is simply some confusion going on here for you. Perhaps your grief over what you discovered happened to the Jews caused you to sympathize with them so much in this life that you mistook yourself for having been one back then? You stated that when you were younger you were drawn to the reich side of things & that you would walk down the halls with your arm raised & such, coupled with the fact that you seem to have never actually had recollections of a Jewish lifetime...that sounds to me as though you were originally on the German side of things. Unless I am wrong & you have had actual recollections of having been a Jew in the camps & you aren't just assuming that your stomach trouble comes from such a lifetime.  Sincerely, Laurasia |
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Post by rednight94 on Aug 18, 2011 15:22:35 GMT -5
Hello Rednight. I don't personally ascribe to the idea of "parallel lives", so I would suspect that there is simply some confusion going on here for you. Perhaps your grief over what you discovered happened to the Jews caused you to sympathize with them so much in this life that you mistook yourself for having been one back then? You stated that when you were younger you were drawn to the reich side of things & that you would walk down the halls with your arm raised & such, coupled with the fact that you seem to have never actually had recollections of a Jewish lifetime...that sounds to me as though you were originally on the German side of things. Unless I am wrong & you have had actual recollections of having been a Jew in the camps & you aren't just assuming that your stomach trouble comes from such a lifetime. Sincerely, Laurasia You know what? I think that could be a very distinct possibility... In the reading MsMir did for me she said I had died in the Holocaust though. That's what's sort of tearing my down the middle... unless the 'guides' were feeding her incorrect information to protect me from knowing the truth. Ah, it's all so complicated. I wish I just knew the truth, but something tells me it's right in front of my face. I have no where near enough hate and anger, I feel, to the Reich than I probably should if I had been a victim... Sometimes, when I see the propaganda and old footage I even have a feeling of excitement and... happiness? I'm not sure... Then, all of a sudden, I remember what happened and it's gone. |
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