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May 27, 2011 23:24:22 GMT -5
Post by dogtord on May 27, 2011 23:24:22 GMT -5
Hello. I have not had my past life regression yet, I found you while investigating holocaust victims and past life regression. My story is strange. I found out late in life (when I was almost 40) that my mother is Jewish. I'm 44 now. My mother still won't say much about being Jewish. I found out through a DNA test. My mother is 80 years old and still locks herself in her bedroom at night, besides many other strange neuroses that she has.
I was born in Canada as the only child of immigrants from Austria. My parents were both older when I was born, my mother was born in Austria in 1931. They immigrated through Canada to the US, where I grew up. My mother's entire family left Austria, emigrating to Australia, Sweden, Switzerland, England, Spain, and the US. My mother NEVER allowed my father to speak of the time during the war, and she refused as well. I heard very few things about Nazi Germany and what it was like to live in Austria as a child during such a terrible time. I was told we were catholic. My father was secular, my mother didn't really know much about catholicism.
I hated having parents with accents. It bothered me, it bothered me that my mother cooked ethnic food, that we were different. I tried to blend as much as I could with "normal" American children and I refused to listen when my parents spoke German. When I was a teenager, my father was offered a good job in Austria and Germany. I did not want to go, and neither did my mother. We moved there temporarily anyway. I hated it. I had to learn German, and did so very quickly, but I was always "the loud American" the crazy American. When I was 14 years old, one of my Austrian teachers said to me "40 years ago they would have taken you to the gas chamber" ... how could he have known, I didn't even know until about 5 years ago. After speaking to a rabbi about all the strange things that have happened to me, call it "emotional intelligence" if you will, he mentioned reincarnation and past life regressions.
At 18, I decided I wanted to go to Israel to be an au-pair for a family in Tel Aviv. Everything was set, and my parents refused to let me go, last minute, pleading with me. Why I wanted to go to Israel, I could not explain. At 21 I bought a menorah in Paris, not knowing what it was. I felt drawn to it. I learned French while we lived in Austria, and it came to me so naturally, that the teachers thought I was gifted. I became fluent in no time. (no explanation for the talent in French) Then Italian. I understand yiddish, which is similar to the dialect the Austrians spoke.
In retrospect, all the signs were there - I have never been able to watch or finish a holocaust movie, not even Life is Beautiful, it makes me too upset. When Schindler's list came out, I refused to go. I am a veterinarian, and although I love all dogs, I have an inexplicable fear of German Shepherds, which I just realized while reading Elie Wiesel's Man Search for Meaning. I had to stop reading that book as well. I have never liked or eaten pork, as well as shell fish. Yet I have an inexplicable aversion to wasting food. I hate throwing away food. I will overeat before I waste food.
My sense of smell is extremely good, and I can detect the smell of burning even in my sleep. Fire is my biggest fear. As long as I can remember, I hated celebrating Christmas because it felt so contrived to me. Now I understand why. Even to this day, I am not a Christmas person, but I will participate to keep the peace with my husband, who is not Jewish.
Setting foot in Austria immediately makes me feel extremely uncomfortable. I hated living there, even though it is a beautiful country, but I was so unhappy and almost depressed living there, I couldn't wait to come home. Since childhood, I have had a strong dislike for German people, and felt really out of place when I visited Germany.
I will hopefully have my past life regression soon, and will inform you if I am truly a holocaust victim.
Your forum is very interesting! I am really enjoying reading about others' experiences and this makes me anxious to go back to my past life and find out what happened. Hopefully this weekend!
I am NOT blonde/blue eyed at all. I look middle Eastern/mediterranean with almost black eyes, dark skin and black hair. My DNA is sephardim and ashkenazi, as well as mizrahi. Jews that migrated through Italy into Austria.
has anyone else had any similar experiences? I read the book "suddenly Jewish" but it's not about past life regression. I am wondering if anyone else went through this before their past life regression...
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May 27, 2011 23:39:41 GMT -5
Post by msmir on May 27, 2011 23:39:41 GMT -5
Hi and welcome. I am glad you are here since we will discover a lot of things about yourself. If you are feeling so strongly that you were a victim and have these subconscious feelings and fears like in regards to fire, that alone would tell you something. Especially since you are so drawn to the idea and I hear you about being repulsed by Austria. I was a child in Auschwitz originally from Poland and ever since I was quite young I never ever wanted to go to Poland but did not know why at the time. But one day when I am truly ready I plan to visit Auschwitz. Let us know what you find out with your regression. Not that I am at all trying to sell anything to you but just thought I would mention I could easily find out that info by using past life astrology. It is quite accurate and it pinpoints everything about your past lives, and most clearly about the last one. Anyway looking forward to hearing what you end up finding out if you go through the regression!
Best Mir
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May 27, 2011 23:59:44 GMT -5
Post by dogtord on May 27, 2011 23:59:44 GMT -5
thank you! I will definitely look into the past life astrology, I just visited your website. thank you for the encouraging words.
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May 28, 2011 3:53:29 GMT -5
Post by Storm on May 28, 2011 3:53:29 GMT -5
Hello Dogtord, and a sincere welcome to you! Wow, your case is so interesting and I wish you the very best of luck in your research. Definitley consider one of Msmir's PL astrological readings. In my case I very much wanted to disprove I was who I felt I had been. But it went the other way. Which at least gives me the chance to try and deal with it as best I can and move forward. I think the ability she has to pinpoint approximate place and type of death is amazing.
I have difficulty watching holocaust movies too.
I must say I find it horrifying that a teacher would say something to you like that about gas chambers! That is totally unacceptable and you should never have been exposed to that by a so called professional.
In terms of DNA tests mine went the other way. My family have always believed that a maternal relative was Jewish but when I had my own DNA test it came back just with old norse and celtic, (a strain found in Britain, Brittany and Bavaria). I wonder if there are other DNA tests for specific markers? I used the Oxford Ancestors one which traces one back to whichever of matrilineal lines one hails from connected to the Seven Daughters of Eve theory. So it may have been too general a test, I do not know. Which company did you use out of interest?
I have had regression sessions on two prior lifetimes now. With the first I recalled stuff that I managed to actually research and establish as fact, which was amazing confirmation. With this Nazi one I got overwhelming recall but it was extremely upsetting to me and I do not think I can bear to go further in terms of another session on it. There are so many known facts about the guy that now I have started daring to read about him I would fear false memory syndrome. That is why I had the session before I started activley researching him. And the one fact I definitley did not know of at the time was the year his father died, which I got right.
Wishing you the very best of luck with your regression when you have it.
Definitely consider Msmir's reading. To my mind it has been probably the best bit of confirmation I have got. After all one cannot make that up. One is born at a certain time and that is that. No other influence, like knowedge of an era, can affect it.
Sincere best wishes.
(revised due to typos)
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May 28, 2011 10:38:29 GMT -5
Post by doctorwhat on May 28, 2011 10:38:29 GMT -5
Hi ;D i hope your regression goes well. i havent done a dna test, and as far as i know my Jewish ancestry isnt "ethnic" before the 1800s. my matrilineal Jewish line is through conversion, tho. it's so interesting that you can find something like out through a dna test. i'd like to get mine done someday, but i dunno if i have the spare cash to do it. dunno how expensive it is. but it'd be interesting nonetheless. anyway, i can understand why your mom wouldnt want to talk about it. my grandmother didnt want to talk about it either, even tho she wasnt in the camps, but her relatives were, and her brother was in the SS (something she REALLY didnt want to talk about). maybe if you want to find out something, you can ask her for sake of keeping history alive? i know with some traumatic things, it could help to talk about things. you never know, if she opens up about something, it could all come pouring out, and she might feel better? When I was 14 years old, one of my Austrian teachers said to me "40 years ago they would have taken you to the gas chamber" ... <-- i'm sorry that happened he definitely shouldnt have said that to you! i couldnt imagine how that wouldve felt. maybe since you had such an affinity for the French language, you couldve been a French Jew? i dont know. i dont know much about the French in WW2 (sadly we dont really even learn about WW2 in the US, at least i never did in my history classes). i'm the opposite with Holocaust films. i like watching them. not in a weird way. but i watch them, or any documentary on the 3rd Reich or Holocaust. when i was younger, i'd watch them to keep myself in check, but didnt know why. it felt like i HAD to watch them to remind myself what happened as (for lack of a better word) punishment when i had a reading, and i also was under hypnosis, all i could talk about was Mengele and being on the ramp and not wanting to be on the ramp with him and how i had to find out if he was a mischling so he could get thrown in the camps. then i started speaking German let us know how your regression goes. your case sounds pretty interesting! try msmir's past life astrology (i dont think it'd work for me to find about my SS one, since my recent is Vietnam War) and see if it gives you info. and again, welcome
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May 28, 2011 10:38:46 GMT -5
Post by dogtord on May 28, 2011 10:38:46 GMT -5
Thank you for the information, I didn't know you could pinpoint the place and type of death.... The gas chamber comment was completely out of line, and my mother went to the principal to complain, but nothing happened to this teacher. If this had happened in the US, the guy would have been fired. There is still a lot of antisemitic sentiment in Austria, to this day, unfortunately. A man on the subway in Vienna called me a "Judensau" - Jew pig, for no reason. It's sad. I used Family Tree DNA. They have the "Jew gen" marker, so you may want to look into that. Since you're a female, it will only give you the dna of your mother's side. They do have specific markers, andmine traced back to 3 of the 4 founding Ashkenazi females. It gives you matches with each country's tested Jewish population, for example, I match 6% of the people tested from Israel. I really didn't have to get any upgraded or extra tests for my results. In your case, you would have to look into maybe other markers, best thing is to call them to get the information. The website is very thorough and informative. Through this DNA test I found out that my mother's ancestors migrated in from Italy (large Jewish ghetto in Venice), apparently there were Italian Jews that moved to an area called Judenburg, which is close to where my grandmother was from. My little grandmother would sneak the Jews bread on their death march from Hungary through the Ennstal, risking her own life. I did a lot of research on Ancestry.com as well. www.familytreedna.comIt must be equally or probably even more difficult to find out that you were on the Nazi side, how do you work that up? I wonder if my husband, who is not Jewish, had something to do with the Nazis (he really likes their uniforms.... which I find bizarre, he always wears t-shirts with skulls on them... I hate them, he can't explain why, he doesn't believe in the past life regression... working on him). he is a very kind hearted man, who carries a lot of guilt and fear of confrontation with his family (divorced, children with ex wife). I hope I can convince him to get a past life reading. thank you so much for your information and advice, I am excited to be on this forum and learn more about other's experiences with their past lives. best wishes to you as well!
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May 28, 2011 10:44:15 GMT -5
Post by dogtord on May 28, 2011 10:44:15 GMT -5
Hi ;D i hope your regression goes well. i havent done a dna test, and as far as i know my Jewish ancestry isnt "ethnic" before the 1800s. my matrilineal Jewish line is through conversion, tho. it's so interesting that you can find something like out through a dna test. i'd like to get mine done someday, but i dunno if i have the spare cash to do it. dunno how expensive it is. but it'd be interesting nonetheless. It's about $150. anyway, i can understand why your mom wouldnt want to talk about it. my grandmother didnt want to talk about it either, even tho she wasnt in the camps, but her relatives were, and her brother was in the SS (something she REALLY didnt want to talk about). maybe if you want to find out something, you can ask her for sake of keeping history alive? i know with some traumatic things, it could help to talk about things. you never know, if she opens up about something, it could all come pouring out, and she might feel better? She's getting better about it, but only when we're alone. Not EVER around my son or anyone else. Her brothers and sister are the same way. They refuse to talk about it. When I was 14 years old, one of my Austrian teachers said to me "40 years ago they would have taken you to the gas chamber" ... <-- i'm sorry that happened he definitely shouldnt have said that to you! i couldnt imagine how that wouldve felt. I didn't know about my mom's Jewish family at that point, but I was still horrified how anyone could say such a thing AT ALL. maybe since you had such an affinity for the French language, you couldve been a French Jew? i dont know. i dont know much about the French in WW2 (sadly we dont really even learn about WW2 in the US, at least i never did in my history classes). I thought about that too. I know, I don't know anything about the French Jews. i'm the opposite with Holocaust films. i like watching them. not in a weird way. but i watch them, or any documentary on the 3rd Reich or Holocaust. when i was younger, i'd watch them to keep myself in check, but didnt know why. it felt like i HAD to watch them to remind myself what happened as (for lack of a better word) punishment when i had a reading, and i also was under hypnosis, all i could talk about was Mengele and being on the ramp and not wanting to be on the ramp with him and how i had to find out if he was a mischling so he could get thrown in the camps. then i started speaking German let us know how your regression goes. your case sounds pretty interesting! try msmir's past life astrology (i dont think it'd work for me to find about my SS one, since my recent is Vietnam War) and see if it gives you info. and again, welcome thank you very much! will definitely keep you posted!
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May 28, 2011 13:11:51 GMT -5
Post by Storm on May 28, 2011 13:11:51 GMT -5
Aw, Doctorwhat I have been known to punish myself by watching stuff or reading about the holocaust too. I know what you mean. But I have so far only managed to finish one film, (which was Schindler's List as it happens), and one book which was a small one about Auschwitz years ago after I nursed a Holocaust survivor in a care home. I have recently bought stacks of books about everything from Einsatzgrupen reports to Nazi doctors. But I cannot read them all the way through yet. I am getting there though. I am finding the Einsatzgruppen reports the most difficult and they are ones I specifically wanted to read. It took me ages to track down that book and now I cannot read it at all because it is absolutely full of orders issued by guess who! I was once told by an prominent occultist who believed he was a reincarnated SS officer that I had bad karma around my right wrist and that it probably stemmed from signing my name on papers and writing things. Since about five years ago I have indeed developed pains in that wrist off and on. and when I pick up that book on the Einsatzgruppen it immediately hurts so much I have o put it donw again, lol! Probably psychosomatic, but painful nevertheless. Thank so much Dogtord, for the info. I have just ordered my complete mtDNa kit. It is $299, so quite a lot, but I need to know everything and I do not think the Oxford Ancestors one was that broad. The one I am going for picks up Jewish markers. My Mum has done our family tree back to the Norman Conquest when some of our ancestors, who became the Earls of Norfolk, first came over. She picked up on a direct ancestor in the 1700s from a very powerful Sephardic Italian banking family whose sister married into the Rothschild's. We are from his second marriage. So I do not know if the lady was a Jewess. Mum and I are the end of a non-stop female line from her, so if she was Jewish it should show up. Yes, I think Drwhat is right that you could well have been a French Jew. I get a strong vibe and I keep sensing/thinking of the name of Klaus Barbie when I read your posts, so I do not know if that means anything? Oh, it has been such a surreal thing to realise my situation. On some levels it really explains so much. I have carried this feeling of being one of the damned around with me all my life. I have always felt in some ways I am sort of on probation, in a spiritual way. It has been quite overwhelming at times, especially when I was very young, (I'm in my early 40s now). I just always knew I was different. I became very interested in Hammer films about the devil and always associated with one of the devil's minions, even though I don't do anything remotely Satanic and was a Christian believing child! It was a pretty nasty feeling. Each time something bad happened to me I would almost relish it as it felt that I had chipped away at a debt and paid back a little more and in some ways I am relieved that there is finally an explanation for why I have felt this way since about 3. There were many clues in my life that I was on the other side back then. I never liked anything about VE Day. When people over here got all patriotic about the anniversary's of VE Day I would get really annoyed and sulk. And I always supported Germany when they versus England at football! I LOVED it when they won! Seeing all those fed up Brits was such a buzz, ha ha! I am amazed I didn't 'get it' earlier. In fact I was even told by a few people I had been in the SS in a PL at various points in my life. But I just laughed and pushed it to the back of my mind. Astrologically my situation is interesting as I am actually being given a fair amount of power in this life too, but I am using it in a very different way, although I cannot pretend that I don't use 'skills' I learned in that lifetime. Msmir's reading was awesome. There is also a fantastic PL reader on here called Sweetlunapie. She offers free readings to members of this forum, which is so kind, and they are great too. I recommend both to be honest. Yes, your husband may very well have been a Nazi. You may even have known him or had a relationship of some description with him in a camp. Sweetlunapie is the one to chat to about that as she is married to the reincarnation of a Nazi who she knew in her PL's camp. I always end up with things with skull emblems on or t-shirt with fallen angels on and such like too. And I constantly wear black. I cannot seem to get myself out of dark dreary colours like black and grey. Many reincarnated Nazis have guilt going on or, like me, inexplicable feelings of being damned or irredeemable. It seems to go with the territory. That is so cool about your Grandmother helping people with bread like that, wow! x
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May 28, 2011 13:49:23 GMT -5
Post by dogtord on May 28, 2011 13:49:23 GMT -5
Will be interesting to get the results from your DNA test... it takes about 6 weeks. But I think it's all worth it!
Klaus Barbie, the butcher of Lyon, no - the only thing I can think of is when I HAD to work at the slaughter house during college - as a veterinary student, I had to take a mandatory meat inspection class, could NOT get out of it, HATED every day I had to be there ( a whole month), cried every day. The first day, I broke down at the slaughter house, in front of the butchers, as they were slaughtering the pigs and cows. that's the only thing I can think of. It was HORRIBLE. None of the other students reacted like I did.
I will definitely look into getting a reading from Msmir and Sweetlunapie.
Yes, my husband always wears black too (he says he can't wear any other color, always with the skulls, ugh). I am working on him. He also did his DNA because the family doesn't know who his grandfather really was - turns out he's GERMAN (we thought he was Irish/Italian....) and irish. I think once I get my reading he may eventually become curious and get one too...
Thank you so much for sharing about your past.
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May 28, 2011 15:05:51 GMT -5
Post by Storm on May 28, 2011 15:05:51 GMT -5
Yes, I am really interested in what comes back from this DNA test. And also feel scared. You see when I was first told we had a Jewish ancestor I was gutted. Now, I have never been racist or anti-semitic in the slightest. But I got this sudden agony and thought, "Oh my God, the Nazis would have hated me!". That was my first reaction, (I was 8 and it was after learning about the Holocaust at school and talking my Grandma about it). I am thoroughly ashamed of that reaction, and feel it must be a PL indicator. But that was my genuine reaction. As I grew up I grew to love the idea I had Jewish ancestry. In London in the early 90s it was totally uncool to be just a white girl. Everyone wanted to be exotic in some way. I learned middle Eastern dance and memorised Ofra Haza songs and felt passionate about many things connected to the ancient past in the middle east, like the Sumerians. So I was actually quite upset when my first DNA test came back with no confirmation of that. I was interested of course and the old norse was quite a nice surprise. We have a Norwegian recent ancestor and I have always adored Norway and I learned the lanuage to a reasonable everyday level as a teenager. I do get a vibe about you having been a French Jew. I had no idea what Barbie did, except for his name and the SS connection, but it seems that the use of dogs in an untoward way was a factor. That is on Wiki. Alot of this stuff is so disturbing to read. Maybe it is just that he was the senior SS commander in charge of large roundups that I am picking him up? I guess I do usually immediately think of the senior SS involved when I read about or think about certain areas in occupied territories back then. I hear about these atrocities and my first reaction is always, "Right, who was in charge?" Because, and I know my probable PL was super efficient and terribly cold and ruthless in exercising his duties, but he did not tolerate certain behaviour when he picked up on it which he saw as "Un-German". And frankly some of the tactics used by subsequent senior SS who should have been overseeing things would leave him cold. Although there are similarities in terms of role, murderous nick name and tactics and intelligence background, Barbie was altogether a different type. There seems to be evidence to suggest the Barbie really got off on some pretty sick stuff that my PL would have found completely unnecessary and base, (and he could be pretty base himself). That is interesting that your husband turned out to be German. That would be great if he decides to have a reading too, you can go on the journey together. I feel very alone sometimes. Although I strangely have a number of friends who, now I have come out with this to them, are confiding in me they think they were Nazis too. It is very odd. Two seem to have been in the Gestapo and one said he always thought I had been 'some bigwig' but was too scared to say. Wow, that must have been horrible having to watch the butchers! OMG. I wonder if anything will come out from your regression about seeing awful things that may explain this reaction to slaughter? I cannot bear anything like that either. I don't eat any meat at all now and recently I heard an animal being slaughtered when on a country walk near a large farm. It was horrible! Thank you for sharing too. This forum is really great, it seems to attract nice people who are serious about discovering more about themselves and others and mutual support and healing. It really is a very special forum, and I am very happy to have connected with you!
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May 28, 2011 15:21:46 GMT -5
Post by Laurasia on May 28, 2011 15:21:46 GMT -5
Hello Dogtord. Welcome to the forum. I am very glad that you found us as well! Your case is very interested, as others have said before me. Needless to say I also strongly suggest that you considering having a reading by MsMir &/or Sweetlunapie. They are both very good at what they do & should be a great help to you. Of course I look forward to hearing how any readings that you do decide to have done go. It certainly does sound as though you were one the many victims of the Holocaust. I, having been a members of the SS & SD, was on the other side of the war during WWII. And (as SS3 mentioned in her case) there have always been many indicators of that throughout my life, though I never picked up on them until I actually started to have past life recall regarding that particular life. In many cases a person won't pick up on such clues until they can handle remembering such a lifetime, so that is likely why neither of us came to the obvious conclusions about our Nazi lifetimes. In any case, I look forward to seeing you around the site Dogtord. And if your husband truly was around in some way during WWII, perhaps he will soon be ready to face that lifetime. Sincerely, Laurasia
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May 28, 2011 17:36:35 GMT -5
Post by doctorwhat on May 28, 2011 17:36:35 GMT -5
I wonder if my husband, who is not Jewish, had something to do with the Nazis (he really likes their uniforms.... which I find bizarre, he always wears t-shirts with skulls on them... I hate them, he can't explain why, he doesn't believe in the past life regression... working on him). he is a very kind hearted man, who carries a lot of guilt and fear of confrontation with his family (divorced, children with ex wife). I hope I can convince him to get a past life reading. he couldve been that's how i dress. all black, skulls (mainly skull and crossbones type of thing) with some red added in here and there. and purple. purple is the only real color other than black that i wear. i wear military style boots, too. and military style hats, which i've just noticed today when i looked at my hats and theyre all military style (i'm allergic to the sun and my eyes are pretty sensitive to sunlight so i wear them to keep my eyes shielded). i've always dressed this way since i was old enough to pick out my own clothes lol. so it could be a possibility that he had a past life as a nazi of some sort? if he's reluctant to do one, and is skeptical, you could always see if he'll do it to "disprove" past lives ;D it might work.
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May 28, 2011 23:34:36 GMT -5
Post by dogtord on May 28, 2011 23:34:36 GMT -5
Thank you everyone for all your positive feedback. I unfortunately have not heard back yet from the past life regression hypnotherapist. I have a message in to Msmir and will keep you posted on my progress!
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May 28, 2011 23:40:20 GMT -5
Post by dogtord on May 28, 2011 23:40:20 GMT -5
Yes, I am really interested in what comes back from this DNA test. And also feel scared. You see when I was first told we had a Jewish ancestor I was gutted. Now, I have never been racist or anti-semitic in the slightest. But I got this sudden agony and thought, "Oh my God, the Nazis would have hated me!". That was my first reaction, (I was 8 and it was after learning about the Holocaust at school and talking my Grandma about it). I am thoroughly ashamed of that reaction, and feel it must be a PL indicator. But that was my genuine reaction. As I grew up I grew to love the idea I had Jewish ancestry. In London in the early 90s it was totally uncool to be just a white girl. Everyone wanted to be exotic in some way. I learned middle Eastern dance and memorised Ofra Haza songs and felt passionate about many things connected to the ancient past in the middle east, like the Sumerians. So I was actually quite upset when my first DNA test came back with no confirmation of that. I was interested of course and the old norse was quite a nice surprise. We have a Norwegian recent ancestor and I have always adored Norway and I learned the lanuage to a reasonable everyday level as a teenager. I do get a vibe about you having been a French Jew. I had no idea what Barbie did, except for his name and the SS connection, but it seems that the use of dogs in an untoward way was a factor. I didn't know he used dogs. I really don't have much knowledge of him other than that he was called the Butcher of Lyon... I will investigate him further too. That is on Wiki. Alot of this stuff is so disturbing to read. Maybe it is just that he was the senior SS commander in charge of large roundups that I am picking him up? I guess I do usually immediately think of the senior SS involved when I read about or think about certain areas in occupied territories back then. I hear about these atrocities and my first reaction is always, "Right, who was in charge?" Because, and I know my probable PL was super efficient and terribly cold and ruthless in exercising his duties, but he did not tolerate certain behaviour when he picked up on it which he saw as "Un-German". And frankly some of the tactics used by subsequent senior SS who should have been overseeing things would leave him cold. I wonder if we have some kind of connection, I feel like there's something there... I will fill you in when I find out more. Although there are similarities in terms of role, murderous nick name and tactics and intelligence background, Barbie was altogether a different type. There seems to be evidence to suggest the Barbie really got off on some pretty sick stuff that my PL would have found completely unnecessary and base, (and he could be pretty base himself). That is interesting that your husband turned out to be German. That would be great if he decides to have a reading too, you can go on the journey together. I feel very alone sometimes. Although I strangely have a number of friends who, now I have come out with this to them, are confiding in me they think they were Nazis too. It is very odd. Two seem to have been in the Gestapo and one said he always thought I had been 'some bigwig' but was too scared to say. Wow, that must have been horrible having to watch the butchers! OMG. I wonder if anything will come out from your regression about seeing awful things that may explain this reaction to slaughter? the poor animals, they knew what was going to happen. And the butchers didn't always stun them enough to where they were unconscious - unfortunately, many were awake and aware of getting their throats slit. It's a horrific experience. I cannot bear anything like that either. I don't eat any meat at all now and recently I heard an animal being slaughtered when on a country walk near a large farm. It was horrible! Thank you for sharing too. This forum is really great, it seems to attract nice people who are serious about discovering more about themselves and others and mutual support and healing. It really is a very special forum, and I am very happy to have connected with you! I'm very happy to have connected with you too! I think we are probably around the same age, I think it was you who said you were in your early 40's, I'm 44.
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May 31, 2011 15:11:32 GMT -5
Post by Storm on May 31, 2011 15:11:32 GMT -5
Hi Dogtord, Sorry for my late reply, been so busy. I totally believe animals know when they are going to be slaughtered. It's terrible. Where I live, despite the ban on fox hunting, it still goes on and those foxes are terrified too. I know foxes cause a lot of damage, but it is a barbaric way to destroy them. I confess I grew up with fox hunting and learned to ride through the hunting scene, partly. But I could never do it now. Yes, I'm 42, so we are very close in age. It is interesting as many of us connected with WWII started reincarnating from around the Summer of Love. I am so interested in your case and it is great you are here. I think one of the most beautiful things about connecting with people here is the sharing of eachther's journey. That is such an honour in so many ways. x
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