What do you miss and not miss?

[kapitanprien]

To SSKarma:

Should you ever be interested in buying a repro. of you uniform - or items, I could try to help you out since I've been involved with the WWII reenacting/living history scene.

One of the things that seems to be the most 'enjoyed' as well is the SS ring.

[kapitanprien]

Eh McCoy... Those uniforms sound lovely...

I can't answer for those who were in the SS, but for us - aboard the U-Boats it was whatever was comfortable. All the spiffy parade ground nonsense went out the window - particularly for those who were in the South Atlantic. It was just not practical.

As for our dress uniforms - we did have summer uniforms (white jackets, as well as the tan uniforms).

Here is a photo of us in summer uniforms ('Bermuda' shorts and white short sleeve shirts) - this photo is 'pre-war':

[Storm]

Lol, Mccoy! I can imagine that for those always on the go, at say a camp, it would have been mega uncomfortable to wear it all the time! I am perfectly certain that I took my jacket off and got nice and comfy in my office when no one else was around, ha ha!

[Storm]

Great photo Kapitan!

[kapitanprien]

I guess it's because the world is changing and the choice of consumerables in particular is not sustainable that I fear we may lose some of what we enjoy about the modern day. But then I actually wouldn't miss a lot of the stuff I buy. I am going to start a vegetable patch in my garden. I get cross with myself because I rely on the supermarket too much. But then busy lives demand low fuss acquisition of food and goods.

Ah yeah I understand this. For me, living in town and my health not being the spiffiest...I have to go with convenience and ease. I buy mostly 'all natural' and/or 'organic' though. I am an omnivore too (I have tried to get along with vegs. but it is best that I avoid them because there's been too many conflicts with me and them - mainly because the ones causing conflict don't understand that I need high protein and not just plant protein or dairy).

Oh, I think I would be kind of freaked out to wear an SS uniform now. I do still have a soft spot for it on one level though. I think that uniform had a lot to answer for in terms of recruitment! I am perfectly certain it was a major deciding factor for many, including myself, when it came to applying to be an SS officer.

That wouldn't surprise me either. Like I said - I don't study the SS, but I think from what little I know - training was a big part. (Compared to the Heer/Army)

I too love the sea. I feel at peace both by the sea and upon it. I sometimes wonder what would have happened to me had the naval career worked out back then. That is HUGE for me in trying to come to terms with this past life. I simply know that had it not gone wrong then I would never have joined the SS and none of what I got involved with would have developed in my life then. That really is a major issue for me right now. I messed up big time and it really upsets me.


Well like they say 'hindsight is 20/20' and you got to forgive yourself. Don't beat yourself up over something that - in one sense - you didn't know you would get caught up in. It's not worth it and it doesn't really make much sense to do so. If you understand what I'm saying.

I was shocked to find, at age 3, that I was missing a part of the anatomy that guys have, lol. I know what Freud would say about, ha ha! I was quite ill at ease as a teen. But being a mother has been the most wonderful part of my current life and I am more secure in my womanhood now. Although I did consider gender reassignment at one point when I first found out about another past life as a man. I don't think it is a case of being transgender with me, just an instinctual rememberance of being a man. I feel reasonably content in either form, although there are definite aspects of being a guy that I suppose I have a nostalgic feeling for. Like, forgive me, making love to a woman & having a wife who loved me etc. I have never really been very able to accept the emotional side of love from a man, much to annoyance of my past boyfriends!


Ah that's cool though and there isn't anything wrong with enjoying making love to a woman and having had a wife who loved you back!

I do actually miss Germany and the German language too. I am finally going to pluck up the courage to go there. Not sure when. But I am going to do it. And I am going to start learning German again. I was great at it as a kid but I gave it up at option stage in secondary school because it kind of freaked me out, (now I know why). My teacher was furious because she said I was a natural at it.

As for Germany - I'm an oddball with this subject. I spent so much time dawdling around the world on the sea that...in one sense, the sea has become my home more than Germany. Germany is more like a 'pit stop' to me. *laughs* If I had to state about missing a specific part of Germany - it would definitely be places like Hamburg, Bremerhaven, Kiel and Lubeck - the port cities.

I'm ok with the German language to an extent in a sense. I had this book from 1933 on the Reichsmarine and I could read it fairly well as it was in the 'old German' not the more 'modern' German that has all these 'English elements' in it. But I don't care about speaking English because I had learned it back then when I was young - here is some of my scribbling from my merchant marine days when aboard the Cape Horn ships (it is part of a sea shanty):



It was (and still is) the 'universal language' and because I knew it and spoke it then...it doesn't bother me to speak it now.

I must admit I do not really miss the music of the era because then, as now, I preferred classical music. I do like some of it though, but get the feeling that is more about being drawn to the era because I lived back then and not because I liked it much at the time.

I understand what you're saying. The vintage/period music has a more 'nostalgic' feeling for you as compared to the classical - which you actually did listen to at the time - even now.

Thanks re the photo.

[kapitanprien]

Actually our uniforms were patterned after RN uniforms. When I was to a living history event back in '07, there was someone there who was wearing RN WWI dress uniform complete with the great coat. I looked at it and I first thought it was a Kaiserliche Marine uniform as it was very much like the WWI Kaiserliche Marine uniforms.

During WWII - the German naval uniforms for the lower ranks also had the 'Nelson' collar.

This is me in my dress uniform:

[Miss Bothmann]

What do I miss? My Hans first and foremost (though I still have him in some form). The clothes..the hairstyles...the MUSIC...Han's car with the tire on the side and the top down. Quaint German villages. Berlin in the spring. Shopping and going to fancy parties. Being able to buy anything I wanted (I am being honest here..Anna very much loved being wealthy). The UNIFORMS of the SS (yes, sskarma you are not the only one).

What I do not miss: The War..the air raids..my Hans being gone 90% of the year. Most of all? I do not miss seeing other human beings treated like garbage.

[Storm]

Feb 28, 2011 14:19:36 GMT -5 Miss Bothmann said:

What I do not miss: Most of all? I do not miss seeing other human beings treated like garbage.

Amen to that!

[kapitanprien]

Miss Bothmann makes me wonder about something...how much were you paid Hans?

We in the U-Boats got good pay because there were extra allowances - like diving allowances, serving in confined spaces...and I think there may have been a few others. In one of my books it states that the pay was so good, with the allowances - that a number of U-Boat men were able to bank their entire pay and live off the allowances. We blew money too and I have to admit...I still do that (but the money I blow is for bills and for things to heal myself mainly). If one was famous commander - one got gifts in the mail/post from the people of Germany. After Scapa Flow there was a RM 50,000 account set up for us.

I miss Paris...and France in general because there was so much neat stuff there. My apartment I have decorated with a touch of French style (light colors, gold, etc.) It's probably some odd form of escapism...but it cheers me up and helps to keep me in a positive frame of mind.

[Miss Bothmann]

I am not exactly sure how much Hans made, but I know that he sent money quite often and also extra ration coupons once the whole ration thing got bad. Anna came from old money, so I doubt Hans knew what he was getting into..haha. I know that I grew up in Vienna in a large manor house..and that my father owned property in Germany as well as a villa just over the border in Italy. I am not exactly sure what my father did..if he was an entrepreneur..member of the government or what. I have not been able to get a clear answer on that. I just know that Anna grew up fancy.

[Storm]

Feb 28, 2011 11:28:53 GMT -5 @kapitanprien said:

Well like they say 'hindsight is 20/20' and you got to forgive yourself. Don't beat yourself up over something that - in one sense - you didn't know you would get caught up in. It's not worth it and it doesn't really make much sense to do so. If you understand what I'm saying.

Thank you. I am having a terrible time over all this at the minute to be honest. I can't sleep and have cleared my diary as I cannot focus on work right now either. I know I must not let it ruin my life but I need to take some time out to get my head around it all. It's only very recently that it has dawned upon me and Msmir's astrological reading just under 2 weeks ago confirmed it. So it is very new and very raw. I am going to steel myself this week. I went to the gym today which helped. I know I am strong enough to cope with this. It would not have revealed itself to me otherwise. There is always method in the madness of past life recall.

[kapitanprien]

Oh ok. The U-Boat crews were also given extra rations too - I think it was one or two extra eggs from what I remember being told when I was a member of the U-Boot Archiv (the German archive).

Ah my family wasn't nearly that wealthy. We were your 'average middle class' family pretty much. My mother divorced when I was young (my father was a judge) and we moved to Lubeck. I was an only child for 9 years. My mother taught Art and when we moved to Leipzig became an art instructor.

When I was in the Merchant Marine...I was far from wealthy. In one of my letters that I was able to get from Hermann Historica's auction site - while serving on the training/school ship Hamburg we got no pay. I had to ask my mother for money for supplies (oilskins, work shoes, shirts, etc.) for a voyage too. So that was one nice thing about being in the Navy - I got paid and I got paid well. ;D

[kapitanprien]

SSKarma: Thank you. I am having a terrible time over all this at the minute to be honest. I can't sleep and have cleared my diary as I cannot focus on work right now either. I know I must not let it ruin my life but I need to take some time out to get my head around it all. It's only very recently that it has dawned upon me and Msmir's astrological reading just under 2 weeks ago confirmed it. So it is very new and very raw. I am going to steel myself this week. I went to the gym today which helped. I know I am strong enough to cope with this. It would not have revealed itself to me otherwise. There is always method in the madness of past life recall.

You're Welcome. I don't exactly know what you mean by your astro. reading, but that's your business.

I don't know if you work with crystals and essences or even essential oils, but if interested, I could probably list a few good ones to help you through this.

[Storm]

Feb 28, 2011 14:48:46 GMT -5 @kapitanprien said:

You're Welcome. I don't exactly know what you mean by your astro. reading, but that's your business.

I don't know if you work with crystals and essences or even essential oils, but if interested, I could probably list a few good ones to help you through this.

Msmir does astrological readings and she basically confirmed my suspiscions about my past life in the SS. I am obsessed with evidence gathering, lol. I know it is pretty hard to collect evidence as such on this subject, but astrological readings are one way of doing it. I was blown away by the reading. I have done some work with crystals and oils. Yeh, that would be great to hear your suggestions. Thanks for that.

[kapitanprien]

Re SSKarma: Oh ok cool then on the astro. reading. I don't really 'follow' that sort of thing but I do find it quite interesting nonetheless and if it has helped you understand - then great!

The first essence that came to mind for you is the Pine one:

Positive qualities:
Self-acceptance, self-forgiveness; freedom from inappropriate guilt and blame.

Patterns of imbalance:
Guilt, self-blame, self-criticism, inability to accept oneself.

Objective knowledge of one’s faults is an important soul virtue; when taken to an extreme, however, one can be wracked with undue guilt and misery. Those who need Pine flower essence get stuck in self-blame.

At times a real circumstance form the past may result in deep feelings of regret and remorse; however the Pine type often feels guilt which is entirely disproportionate to the actual events. These feelings may arise from childhoods, when the person learned to internalize blame for dysfunction in the family system, or they may stem from a religious background which emphasizes sin and error more than salvation and grace.

Pine flower essence helps the Self to learn true forgiveness by quite literally being for giving: learning to release rather than retain energy. The individual is encouraged to move forward rather than stay entangled in self-deprecation and emotional paralysis. At its highest level, Pine flower essence teaches self-acceptance and inner esteem as a pathway to the soul’s realization of its own sacredness and divinity.

I would recommend buying the Healing Herbs version of this as it is stronger than the 'Bach' brand. I'm saying this not only from experience in using the Healing Herbs version, but also others have noticed this as well. I'd do a Google Shopping search for it to find a decent price w/ the shipping included.

For essential oils - I would recommend East Indian Sandalwood and Rose Absolute. You can get these in pre-diluted versions by the NOW company and again you should be able to find a good price via the Google Shopping search.

The East Indian Sandalwood would be for - nightmares, dwelling on the past, unforgiveness and of course the Rose for guilt and forgiveness and love.

Crystals - I would say definitely Rhodochrosite as that deals firstly with 'self-love'. Some other good 'love stones' would be Kunzite (Divine Love), Rose Quartz, Morganite and healing (green stones) Chrome Diopside and Hiddenite.

Healing Crystals has some, or all, of these at a very inexpensive cost:

www.healingcrystals.com/

Hope that helps for a start.